along the cobbled sidewalks of life

Sunday, April 28, 2013

I don't know why but the urgency element seems to be missing this time round. and it completely disappeared during the weekend by the way.

this is indeed rather worrying. there are so many things on my mind. I cannot seem to push them all out and focus on what is at hand.

I am unable to grasp the urgency. unlike last sem. maybe because Monday to Friday was a nicer 5 day framework for studying than this messy situation right now. and maybe because I fail to appreciate the differences in situation this time round (reminds me of the individual psychological tendency of learning by analogies from ps2239 haha).

whatever the case, it is probably going to be an interesting five days. in every sense of the word.

until then, it is going to be an uphill battle. the last charge up the hill.
let's pray that I don't fall into any potholes and injure myself before I even reach the battlefield.
if I die, let it be in glory.

while my guns may not be firing on all cylinders,
I shall take the hits with dignity.

but suffer in silence.

whimsical nonsense @ 12:19 AM

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Friday, April 19, 2013

time to slowly get into insane mode!!

I'm worried by my lack of worry.
and I feel like a hypocrite for saying that because just yesterday a friend said the exact same thing and I told her not to worry because everything will be fine. I can't seem to throw everything back at me. doesn't seem to work.

maybe I should start panicking. start by beginning to comprehend and grasp the enormity of the task ahead. perhaps then I would be more motivated (or pressured) to do something about it.

need to get the intellectual-version-of-adrenaline flowing!

ahhhh all you stupid distractions. away from me!

whimsical nonsense @ 12:25 PM

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Thursday, April 11, 2013

what is this feeling
so sudden and new?

I felt the moment
I laid eyes on you

my pulse is rushing
my head is reeling
my face is flushing

what is this feeling?
fervid as a flame
does it have a name?
yes,
loathing.

What is this feeling - Wicked

whimsical nonsense @ 11:58 PM

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Sunday, April 07, 2013

days like today is good.

probably helps that two major essays are now done and dusted. the disappointment that follows can wait another day. for the moment, I shall bask in this illusion of freedom.

it was a good change. something different from what has become all too familiar.

nights like tonight is good.

the urge to run. the itch to get out there and let the wind, well, just let it do whatever it is doing.

(this is poor)

whimsical nonsense @ 1:11 AM

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