Tuesday, March 19, 2013
there is just so much. too much in fact.
so many questions swirling around, bringing about much confusion and uncertainty. is this right? what am I doing wrong? not to mention all the "could be"s, "if only"s, "should have been"s.
there has been a lot of looking back upon the past, in the hopes of gleaning some answers for the future. a valiant attempt to reproduce what once was; an attempt that constitutes a larger rejection of the present.
doubts have crept in. insecurities are rearing their ugly heads. same old story.
it just, never gets old,
though.
is there progress? does a lack of progress necessarily mean a cyclical pattern?
that can't be such a bad thing, can it?
questions everywhere! inundating the mind. bogging down the mental faculties.
from the cognitive to the consciousness, nothing is spared.
nothing can, and should, be spared.
competition demands nothing less than perfection. although it would be very much welcomed if more could be given.
is there competition though? (systemic output? exogenous entity or social construct?)
beyond the superficial, to the fundamentals.
meta.
for a long time now, I never thought answers as the way to go. no, they were nothing but dead ends.
the ones that truly lead one somewhere, are questions.
right answers lead you to the right places. wrong ones will somehow bring about an awareness of the right answers.
yet, I still find myself craving answers, with a willingness to beg for them.
reduced to a state such as this.
was there anything more to begin with?
whimsical nonsense @ 12:28 AM
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Samuel Chan
7 January 1991
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