Friday, August 17, 2012
a trying time ahead, I foresee.
I used to think I was lacking in mental strength. now I believe I'm lacking in everything. physical strength, mental strength, emotional strength. resilience was just never really a thing of mine.
crumble and die.
but at least go out with guns blazing. for glory and flying guts.
whimsical nonsense @ 12:15 AM
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Tuesday, August 14, 2012
it is about time. yes it is now that I have to bid farewell to those lazy slow-paced days. such a refreshing change from the hustle and bustle of life in this vibrant ever-changing city.
change need not be achieved at neck-breaking speed. in fact, doing so might only diminish the impact any change would have, and what good is "change" if it fails to effect any (lasting) transformation?
I am ever grateful for the past few months. looking back at the past 7 months, I only have fond memories of the first three and a half months spent at mpeu, and a whole host of new experiences in the second half. I like to believe it was during those 7 months of downtime that I manage to learn so much more.
learning was never meant to be rushed. definitely the faster one is able to learn something, the better. but one needs to be careful it doesn't become mindless absorption. that remains my fear. I don't want to fall into that trap. not again.
and yet, I'm afraid that in my efforts to avoid the traps, I'll jeopardise my own education and perhaps the learning process itself.
everything is all so sensitive. how excruciatingly tough it is to strike that delicate balance we are all striving for.
but if it is so easy, then where's the fun in it?
whimsical nonsense @ 1:37 PM
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first day of school!
blah.
it only started to feel much better when it ended.
whimsical nonsense @ 1:54 AM
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Friday, August 10, 2012
what a week.
immensely trying.
there were too many demons to vanquished.
too many doubts to conquer.
too many dragons to slay.
I am no knight in shining armour, armed with an unbreakable sword while riding upon with a telepathically-linked horse.
it was never a fight, but a mere formality.
crushed under the weight of expectations.
worn out by the attrition of disappointment.
deflated by a dreadful cloud of doubt.
it has been ages since I have been put through my paces, and I was a naive fool to think I could jump into the deep end and still swim.
I struggled. I floundered. I almost drowned.
don't quite know what to make of it all.
but there isn't time.
there no longer is.
whimsical nonsense @ 11:01 PM
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Samuel Chan
7 January 1991
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shuqun primary school
Henry Park Primary School
Anglo-Chinese School (Independent)
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