along the cobbled sidewalks of life

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

It is the second day of the Chinese New Year.
or Lunar New Year.

Strangely enough, I don't quite feel caught up with the festivities. The best part of all this is the long weekend which it provides, which is strange as it is considering the hongbaos that come during this period.

I feel like ennui has overtaken me.

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Once this period of almost-guilt-free eating is over, I shall resolve to exercise more and lose the fats that I have accumulated over the past 7 months. There definitely has to be a reduction in the frequency of fast food intake.
4 times in a 7-day period is quite intense haha, even for me.

I would like to run more. if only, because.

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Too many things going through my mind. All these different trains of thought.
Yet, not one completing its round. It begins and vapourises into the nothingness before it manages to develop properly.

My brain feels like a cursed breeding ground. Anything that has its beginning in it is bound to fail before it even has a chance to try (succeeding).

quite depressing.

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I do not know quite what to make of it all.
I guess I can only wait for tomorrow, if tomorrow happens at all.

(and here I am reminded of the Andys going, "but what if, *breaks out into song* tomorrow never comes!". ah the memories.)

feeling quite messed up.
and I can't find my hard disk to top it all of.

whimsical nonsense @ 4:48 PM

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Sunday, January 22, 2012

last friday was a good day.

making new friends. reacquainting with old ones. some element of water while still a bright sunny day. running on the track.

seriously, I don't quite know what else one could ask for. sounds like a perfect day.

I also like the 59.

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it has been a most interesting week.
back to training. back to doing things which makes one sweat buckets. back to staying in.
and yet it has been arguably the best week of the year, although admittedly that's not saying much.

Perhaps, it is time for a change in lifestyle.

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such damning revelations. I never knew it would be be so difficult to accept.
slowly coming to terms with it I suppose.

like most others, I'd go "should've seen it coming".

but that would be delusional. giving oneself undue credit as though I'm smart enough to know when in all honesty I could have had all the warnings but still not notice.

I've been blinded.
and I'm not sure if I am able to see now still.

tripping and falling.
with arms flailing.

whimsical nonsense @ 12:57 AM

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Wednesday, January 11, 2012

last minute insertion. better than nothing.

a little disappointed though. I thought I did well enough, but the ending is so unspectacular and perhaps even mediocre. I would like to blame it on the lack of decent support but I know that would be a little unfair. If only.

What if. If only.

I wonder what would be like if "If" doesn't exist.
haha honestly I don't think I can!

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sigh, once again a victim of circumstances.

I'm feeling slightly random.

whimsical nonsense @ 10:53 PM

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Monday, January 09, 2012

first post of 2012!

I did not realise that it took so long.
9 days of the year have come and gone.

Possibly for the first time in my life, the New Year feels as arbitrary as it actually is.
It feels like there has been no significant change. probably due to the fact that my UIP/OD programme just carries on without regards for the calendar year, while in the past there has always been a new school year or a different work environment etc to bring about tangible change.

the seven was very different from its past counterparts, I must admit.
not entirely sure if that was the way I would like it to be, but it wasn't all that bad honestly.
just had a few little disappointments I suppose, but then again one cannot have it all.

there was a special spark though!

but more frustratingly, urghhh I don't even know how to put this into words.
the worst part is, I find it utterly ridiculous that I should feel this way.

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whimsical nonsense @ 11:12 PM

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