Saturday, March 26, 2011
Existentialist Struggles.
Despite having been on this earth for two decades, I still find myself having to deal with basic and rudimentary questions. Admittedly the answers to these questions are not easy to come by, however at the very least one should have an inkling as to where to obtain them. I have none. I have not found my "square one".
It is almost the end of my time out. I spend a most significant amount of time inside now, while I have spent every other time (in my entire life) outside. All of a sudden, the distinction becomes so great on one hand, that it is clearly (go) in and (come) out. On the other hand, things are becoming so blurred that I find myself confused. The inside place is temporary, the outside the real world. I find myself with a stronger sense of belonging to that inside place.
really?
whimsical nonsense @ 6:58 PM
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Friday, March 25, 2011
First Bookout.
It feels somewhat good to be home after all those days elsewhere.
Yet I can't shake off the feeling that home is so unfamiliar now.
Everything seems so strange.
On another note, I spent a really long time going through the tumblr posts of the people I'm following. It is rather incredible how many posts there are in the space of 18 days. Looking at all of it makes me feel so disconnected from the world.
It isn't so much in the sense that I have no idea about major global events (i.e. the 8.9 magnitude earthquake off the coast of Japan that triggered a devastating tsunami which in turn brought about destruction, danger and death). It seems that all that I have been doing in the past two and a half weeks were so vastly different from everyone else that you are actually existing in a separate universe.
I suppose the isolation worked. and I have no idea what I am writing any longer.
I just know right now, I feel utterly shallow and superficial.
not to mention stupid.
whimsical nonsense @ 1:47 AM
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Sunday, March 06, 2011
afraid.
alone.
but how I feel does not matter now.
merely inconsequential and irrelevant specks in the grander scheme of things.
this does not make sense anymore.
whimsical nonsense @ 11:45 PM
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Tuesday, March 01, 2011
Harvey Dent aka Two-Face has an "obsession with duality and fate". (quoting Wikipedia)
I like that. perhaps if I have the time and mental capacity, I shall spend these last few days pondering upon duality, fate and destiny.
whimsical nonsense @ 11:48 PM
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Samuel Chan
7 January 1991
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