along the cobbled sidewalks of life

Saturday, March 28, 2009

i ran my second ever competitive 400m relay.
since the first was in sec1 and at the school track and field meet, it doesn't count.
this one does. running for school rather than house.
sph relay. 57.

not good.

tomorrow, i must do better.

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 11:19 PM

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Tuesday, March 24, 2009

big day tomorrow.
everything i trained for.
one time to make it right.
the thought of it is fearful.

the first time. my last time.
ah freak this is going to be too emoish. shall blog elsewhere.

whimsical nonsense @ 9:48 PM

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Friday, March 20, 2009

math port is killing me!
world lit is itching for it's turn.

i don't care! i can only think of japan thunder 2 and next wednesday.
and not because next wednesday is my world lit deadline.

i want chocolates!!!!!!!!!

whimsical nonsense @ 8:14 PM

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Wednesday, March 18, 2009

math port is going to kill me.

my inability to understand it is going to bring me down.
my laziness will utterly destroy me.
OBLITERATE!!!

world lit will pile on the misery.
history ia will compound the misery world lit piles on.

my life will spiral out of control!!!
lalalalala

i have been most irresponsible.
eating junk food and not training. with nats just a week from now.
immensely scary.

i stand where i stand. feet planted on the ground. rooted.
scared stiff.
i pray by the time it is time to start, the roots on my feet would have ceased to exist. replaced by wings, so that i may fly. off i go!

(watch out for that... oh too late!!)

rain made training less enjoyable. we had to run in puddles. splashing all over the place. half of one's shoe would be submerged momentarily. messy. disgusting. the hill was crazy. but i managed to gain a few pointers. may they prove to be helpful next week. i sincerely hope so. anything to do well next week. it's what i have been training for.

my one and only time.

random thoughts run through my head. permission granted from me to run free. oh no i just realised i used run. unintentionally. unfortunately for all of my "obsession" about running, i still don't train hard nor am i fast. that is such a great pity.
i need to train for napfa. i want to be able to attain my unlikely target of 30 points. i managed to accomplish it in sec4. i managed to do it last year too after retaking my standing broad jump. if not for luke, who didn't help me plead with my pe teacher, i wouldn't have gotten the second chance. i must admit it was kind of bad, asking if i could retake so i can get an A instead of B while people are retaking to get pass or get a D or C for their bronze, silver or gold respectively.

potential problems this year. standing broad jump. because it's been a problem since sec2 and i haven't been training. pull-ups. on a good day i can do 8 complete ones. complete in the sense my arms go down until it's locked. that's not good enough. maybe i shall go down partially, not too low that it becomes complete but low enough to constitute as one. sit-ups. for the sheer fact that i haven't been doing them.

2.4km. i need to get sub9, so that i may not be disgraced. i have expectations for sit and reach. let me get a pb. shuttle run. i would like to go sub9 too. haha but that is unlikely. whatever.

i am devolving into a fat lazy boy. obesity knocks at my door.

i love fullstops. period.

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 1:00 AM

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Monday, March 16, 2009

i just realised i haven't blogged since march 5th. which is hm quite some time ago. i guess there isn't really anything worthy to blog about or i have been trying to do my work and so limit the time i spend on the internet doing random stuff. or i'm simply too lazy.

officially, for me, the work starts now. i didn't even go home after school on friday because of POP. only went back on saturday evening. decided to slack that evening. which i did. sunday i went to help out with my church's sunday school sports meet. so i came back late again and once again i decided to slack the evening. my weekend of rest.

went to school today. got a slightly better but still grossly insufficient understanding of the math port. had a nice lunch with henry and zhang at holland v crystal jade la mian xiao long bao. it was raining. got caught in a little bit of a drizzle as i crossed the overhead bridge to the other side of the road. took 7 to the national library.
and because i had no idea what the area around the nlb is like except when walking from bugis mrt through bugis junction and to the nlb, i got off a few stops too early. and it was already raining heavily. massively inconvenient. had to wait around 10minutes for the next 7, and then alighted at the right stop this time.

the rain was heavy. the width of the road large. after a moment's hesitation, or rather a few moments, i decided to wait for the green man to appear. before walking briskly to the other side, getting drenched in the process. true enough i reached bugis junction in a state of wetness. my bag was covered in wet spots and water droplets, as was my shirt and my hair. being a teenager, my first thought was "OH NO SO UNGLAM! :(" haha right.

nlb was my destination. i let my feet lead me there. the rain had subsided significantly and i managed to make my second crossing without the wet treatment i received only minutes ago.
and so i entered the library, looking really bad.
managed to get a little bit of work done, if finding two more books for history ia counts. guess i can work on it soon. once i have gotten math port and world lit out of the way.

if it ever happens. should it ever ever happen.

the great struggle to stay awake was finally over and i made my way to boey's place all the way at serangoon. it was nice to see all the geps there again. (well not exactly all, there were a couple of people i have certain reservations towards, but oh well) just a time of chatting, catching up, a little bit of gossip and just mindless banter punctuated with laughter that echoes round the room. it was good. fun. happy.

back to reality. time to stop having fun. become the mugger acsib wants me to be. become the hardworking student i am expected to be. become the person i want to but am finding it impossibly difficult to be.

bedok awaits me.

along with my work with it's mouth wide open, ready to devour me.

what can i say? what can i do? you've captured the strings of my heart and refused to let them go

sc

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whimsical nonsense @ 11:52 PM

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Thursday, March 05, 2009

i am amazing (note sarcasm). to the point that i myself have to stand back and simply wonder in awe at how amazing i can be. (note to self. amazing is repeated simply because my vocabulary is unable to throw up another more suitable word.)

in response to my atrocious performance these past few weeks. alright this year. the 58 days of this year. i decide to spend the evening watching the dark knight. and not doing any work. it's not right, i know. the fact i know only makes it worse. that makes me go down one more level lower.

closer to the abyss i go.

ignoring the alarm bells, warning signs going through my head. that's what i'm doing.

i guess it helps that the issues of the dark knight are still running through my head. and i shall not attempt to look at them, to sound intellectual and all. simply because i dare not try to be what i know i'm not. but on the good side, it has made me think. a lot of mind stuff going on there. and on a random note, i think one of the best parts about the dark knight is how it manages to create the experience through a somewhat subtle manner.

is it enough?

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 12:20 AM

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