Sunday, November 30, 2008
for a while there, i thought i was faster.
for a moment, as temporary as it may have been, i felt faster.
for a few seconds, though they were fleeting, i believed i was faster.
too bad reality caught up with my delusional self.
i guess i wasn't fast enough to escape reality.
i never was fast.
doubt fills me as to whether one day i can be fast,
or the day where i dare count myself to be fast.
at times i fear that i can never be as fast as i envision myself to be,
so just stop filling my head with all these useless scenarios
where i am relatively fast.
be realistic.
i want to be realistic. i need to be optimistic; keep believing they say
and one day, it will happen. but for now, maintain that positive attitude
it helps, really.
i long to listen to them, their pearls of wisdom. in fact, i believe that those words
ring true, in a way.
yet to my often failing mind, i do not see things as they should be seen.
to be realistic and to be optimistic.
should half of me be realistic and the other ever so full of enthusiasm and optimism
i'd fear it would not be long before i lay bloodied
on the ground, in two.
the two cannot coexist, they conflict ever so eternally in my world.
reminds me of edward and jacob, vampires and werewolves
although to a certain extent they have reached instances of compromise,
where the conflict ceases as their interests align. maybe it's possible. just
maybe.
no never! they were made to hate each other. it is their innate nature to be unable
to coexist together harmoniously.
sidetracking
too different.
with this difference, i have to keep reminding myself that there is never
a right time where i can allow the solidifying of crystals.
not to the point where it is slowly but surely becoming solid and hard,
definitely never to the extent where it is completely solid.
but that can never be, by my own strength i would fail.
ever so miserably.
fail like no one has before.
i have to rely on some other more powerful substance (should that be the right term)
to keep me soft, molten. that i may be moulded.
so far i have kidded myself that the presence of this, substance, is a given.
whenever i start to harden, i can count on it for help.
as of today, i realise the days i have with it are numbered
should i continue taking it for granted.
it will leave
and as surely as a fallen leave lying in the sun, i too will dry up and be
crushed.
my existence a history, my life forgotten.
there is one problem.
in addition to the problem that i typed out this post rather than work on my tok essay
oh rip my heart to shreds if it would help,
but leave me breathing later, that i may heal and become whole again.
whole in you.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 8:32 PM
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Tuesday, November 25, 2008
i just realised this is my 701st post on this blog. wow.
well at least my 700th post was used for the picture of the wallet. :D
friday.
and now i have something else to add to my "collection", if 2 items can be counted as a collection.
well just random, i feel quite happy. mostly because of training today. i felt good. i just hope it means i'm improving.
a lot of things to think about. sigh.
i always get the impression that my schedule is kind of clear, that i can stay at home. but then at the last moment i would realise that i have something to go for the next day. sian.
lunch tomorrow sounds interesting. spaghetti with campbell soup. no one's cooking though. i mean my mom is cooking the noodles now before placing it into the fridge. then i or my sis have to prepare tomorrow. hmmm maybe one day, i'll try to learn how to cook.
right.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 9:48 PM
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Monday, November 24, 2008
whimsical nonsense @ 10:14 PM
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Thursday, November 20, 2008
right and so just as i was about to post, my house suffered a black out. haha quite funny the way it started. but i shan't state it. i was enveloped in sudden blackness. i couldn't see a single thing save for my laptop screen. thank goodness i put the batt in, but i'm running on ac power. so when the power went out, it just switched to battery power. haha so i used the light from my laptop screen to fix the problem. quite funny.
another wasted day. craps. i need to do more work and be more productive. it's wednesday already. no wait thursday. urgh.
oh well. i've stumbled upon a nice song today. i shall just listen to it.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 12:26 AM
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Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Something i ripped off jason quah's blog. i shall use the itunes in my com.
Instructions: Go to your music player of choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud, and press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question. NO CHEATING.
How does the world see you? - like a rose, by a1
Will I have a happy life? - bed of nails, by rockapella (oh dear)
What do my friends really think of me? - i will follow you into the dark, by death cab for cutie (ooo yay?)
What do people secretly think of me? - over it, by katherine mcphee
How can I be happy? - take care, by copeland (hahahaha)
What should I do with my life? - my world, by 3 doors down
Will I ever have children? - piano concerto no. 1 - largo, arranged by dan gibson, by beethoven (er what?)
What is some good advice for me? - five loaves and two fishes, by corrinne may
How will I be remembered? - underwater march, by klaus badelt
What is my signature dancing song? - aqua blue, by steven cravis
What does everyone else think my current theme song is? - tiger lily, by matchbook romance
What song will play at my funeral? - the middle, by jimmy eat world
What type of men/women do you like? - save me from me, by amber pacific
What does next year have in store for you? - edith, by rachael yamagata
What does your love life look like next year? - two in a million, by s club 7 (o.0 what?!)
What do you say when life gets hard? - that's all, by michael buble
What do you think when you get up in the morning? - before it's too late, by the goo goo dolls
Song that reminds you of your first kiss? - the swam, by jay chou
Your favourite saying? - far away, by taku iwasaki
Most Missed Memory? - rescued, by jack's mannequin
What song describes your best friend? - if you don't, don't, by jimmy eat world
What song describes your ex? - 反方向的钟, by jay chou (i have no idea what it means)
What song describes yourself? - the beautiful letdown, by switchfoot
Where will you be in 10 years? - meet me by the water, by rachael yamagata (lol)
Your love life right now? - yang guang hao nan, by jay chou (??)
What is your state of mind like at the moment? - the nicest kids in town, by james marsden (hairspray soundtrack)
The song you’ll put as the subject? - mi morena, by josh groban
ok i'm not going to the put the title because it's ugly. but yeah that has been one interesting quiz. haha
whimsical nonsense @ 10:51 PM
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Saturday, November 15, 2008
because of my laziness and gep chalet (more of laziness), i didn't train for a week. the 32mins run i did on tuesday doesn't count as training. that was just a normal, simple jog/run. and i paid the price. back to training today. i died. i never felt so sluggish in such a long time. urgh! ><
i need to do what arjun says. revolve my life around training. so i have to schedule my life around training rather than fit training into my schedule. lol.
i learnt that track nats will be 4 weeks after cross nats. that's insane. i'm a goner. my hopes of qualifying for the 800m finals next year is like super slim now. ahh i need to train harder! but my laziness stands in the way. oh dear.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:38 PM
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Monday, November 10, 2008
in a few hours, i will be off to the gep chalet. brings back memories i tell you. especially those of last year. and for some strange reason, i can still remember the dates of the past two chalets. ah the memories are so nice. i hope that after 5 days, i can look back and say the same.
hopefully, i'll be able to get some work done there too. although i think that is highly impossible. oh well.
so many things to think about. even more things to do. oh no.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 4:45 PM
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Friday, November 07, 2008
another slack day! =)
woke up late and managed to watch iron man. haha i love that movie! i then rushed out to go to the library. it was mega hot. by the time i reached the mrt station, i was sweating like a dog. met kevin as i was about to cross the road to the library. looks like i wasn't the only one thinking it was a hot day. he disappeared though. went to meet his friends and i never saw him again.
so i roamed in the library, level 7, for a few minutes, from one end to the other end. was trying to see if there were any other acsi year5 ib students in the library. i guess to my slight dismay, i was the only one (as far as i could tell). so i camped at my section, the 550 section i think. wait no 545 and 546. italian and spanish history section. i really need to get more sources ><
at least i photocopied some stuff, and understood a little bit more. i now know very very very briefly, how the spanish civil war is relevant to my research question and have a better background knowledge? finished at 430 and left to go to the adelphi to hopefully replace my crossroads X3i.
last year, i bought the crossroads X3. after less than a couple of months, the right earphone ceased to function (i suspect the cold in korea had something to do with it). i went to the shop on dec 14th and managed to get an upgrade to the newer X3i model. since then, i have been using it. but due to wear and tear i think, the right earphone ceased to function. the copper wires were exposed just next to the earphone itself. urgh!
due to the niceness of uncle wilson, he replaced it with the newer crossroads bijou model. ooooooooo it looks real pretty! ok not like super pretty, but it's made of metal (the earphones) and the bluish metallic hint makes it look, pretty :D
well i must agree with the review i read last night on the bijou, on the jaben forums. the sound has more bass than the X3 and X3i. well i admit that i am a noob on audio stuff, but yeah it is kind of obvious. and to my lousy ear, the X3 and X3i sounded quite similar. apparently someone said the bass disappeared for the X3 and X3i. hm maybe. haha it was quite treble. but for me it was balanced out by the in-ear plugs as it helped to keep the bass in, better than the old default apple earphones. i must say it takes some time to get used to the newer sound with more bass. i used to be more of a bass guy, but i've kinda gotten used to the treble-inclined sounds of the X3i. ah well. but i'm really really happy and excited i have the bijou now! :D:D
if anyone is reading (doubt so), and if you ever are in need of earphones, i seriously highly recommend you to visit Jaben Networks at The Adelphi (next to city hall mrt, opposite funan), at #04-16 if i'm not wrong.
it's very good. the range is awesome. you have many brands of earphones, and a lot of other audio stuff, like amps (the kind for your earphones). the service is very good too. uncle wilson is super friendly (:
whimsical nonsense @ 10:40 PM
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Samuel Chan
7 January 1991
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shuqun primary school
Henry Park Primary School
Anglo-Chinese School (Independent)
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