Saturday, September 29, 2007
2 more days to the exams! ahhh!
i decided to go to school to study again. like i try to do on saturdays.
takes me away from distractions...
school has some nice places to study... even if they're not nice, there are nice big tables to use... tables that arent quite so clutterred (that looks wrong, spelling wise)
last saturday went to study with david, jonas and russell
went late, like 1045. then at the ib roof.
i didnt like studying there, no table.
and i cant write without a table. my handwriting goes from messy to illegible. seriously.
so i spent most of the time lying prostrate on the floor writing.
gosh. not comfortable at all.
till around 12? then the sun came up to the point where there were no great big shadows for us to be in the shade...
russell went for bible study and david, jonas and i migrated to somewhere else.
we settled for the benches at the ib pond.
went for lunch and then to the IAN to study more.
that was last week. this time i went to school to study, kind of alone.
with my trusty ipod. haha which i charged till full last night for today's planned studying.
putting in jenny and sorry, blame it on me
songs i managed to get on thursday night. haha
but it was only for relaxing time play.. like on the way to school, back home, break time..
when i study i change to instrumental music..
o but today i made a change in the afternoon, by listening to josh groban
what i listened to today...
stevan cravis [piano]
stefan joubert [electric guitar, i think like touch guitar or something]
pachabel canon (3 different versions, then the rockapella version)
josh groban [vocals...yeah? haha]
you know i realise that of the 41 josh groban songs i have, they take quite long to finish...
like maybe 90mins for all to finish? i think more.
and it does not include the songs that he did in collaboration with others, like charlotte church and joshua bell. gosh.
i love stefan joubert <3>
came home. read newspaper, slack, shower. i wanted to run but felt lazy when i was reading newspaper sitting on the sofa. haha
managed to start studying again at around 745 till about 945.
ok i dont think i actually studied...
more of write notes. im not quite sure how much information i actually managed to retain today.
but ok, with the assumption that writing notes count as studying,
then i feel satisfied with myself today.
my previous personal record for longest collective duration spent studying was set last saturday and i think on wednesday (the school holiday day).
4 hours last saturday. wednesday could be 6.
but today i did more! i hope.
a poorly estimated collective total duration of about 8 hours.
studied at the ib pond. reached school i think 845. could be earlier or later.
studied till about 1215? i think. but have to take some time out due to distractions and break time.
lunch! only the just for mee store was open, no drink store. o well no matter, i get my lunch in the form of $2.50 guo tiao gan. omg good stuff. must buy again.
and i get my fluids in the form of tap water from home. i brought a 1.5litre bottle. haha im crazy la. my bag was heavy...
lunch was a 45mins affair. back to ib pond. same bench as the morning, same bench as last week. haha its a good place because theres a pillar close enough to lean on
not that i lean back often, im mostly leaning forward writing stuff.
finished around 4.50. or 5 rather, after packing up and slacking a bit more.
reach home at 5.45? not too sure. slack time!
dinner. then rushing to start at 745 so that i can put in 2 hours and come online! before 10.
haha which i managed to do.
almost done with chem. half done with geog. sigh.
gotta start on ihs tmr. hard core ihs...
random note.
i love listening to the radio now... like really a lot.
started on wednesday i think. i like listening to desiree on 987fm.
but its from 10am - 1pm every weekday. like seriously how to listen?
during lessons? yeah right. darn.
i quite like the songs being played now.
haha and so i decided to listen to the radio when i came online earlier
listening to the radio on the internet is like whoa!
theres this window. yeah like normal.
but it shows you the title and the artist of the song playing now.
at times ive wanted to sms to get the title of the song, but im scared my parents would scold me for wasting money
o well now i dont have to. haha
and i got 2 more songs today. yay!
yay for radio on the internet! haha
this is becoming a ridiculously long post.
hopefully my last for some time.
trying to not go on the computer AT ALL during exam week.
so far been going online like alternate nights.
hopefully from tomorrow night onwards till next weekend, no more internet.
gotta go into hard core mugging.
ah scared scared.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 11:30 PM
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Thursday, September 27, 2007
today is my slacking day.
ive decided after coming back from tuition that i wont study.
so i reach home at er...close to 8.
eat dinner, slack and read newspaper/watch tv.
then at 9 go online. and slack... my gosh.
its almost 10. and im slacking some more. die.
maybe i should go read the word doc on logic gates.
yeah i really should.
im starting to love jenny.
not to forget sorry, blame it on me.
nice songs. haha
anyway, i think this extract is quite funny...
sc around your corner, thats where i belong says:
how come you never change dp?
mark.y <3 acsailing says:
just
mark.y <3 acsailing says:
nothing better to put
mark.y <3 acsailing says:
since i'm still single
mark.y <3 acsailing says:
lol
sc around your corner, thats where i belong says:
haha put something else la?
sc around your corner, thats where i belong says:
so if you were attached, you put a picture of your girlfriend and yourself meh?
mark.y <3 acsailing says:
i guess so
mark.y <3 acsailing says:
lol
mark.y <3 acsailing says:
but thats in a few yeares
mark.y <3 acsailing says:
years*
sc around your corner, thats where i belong says:
haha
sc around your corner, thats where i belong says:
same same
mark.y <3 acsailing says:
lol
mark.y <3 acsailing says:
well but for all you know if next year got some damn chio girl
mark.y <3 acsailing says:
haha
sc
sc around your corner, thats where i belong says:
then i'll see her and mark yeo on your dp
sc around your corner, thats where i belong says:
am i right? :P
mark.y <3 acsailing says:
dunno
mark.y <3 acsailing says:
maybe i just put myself dont put her
mark.y <3 acsailing says:
HAHA
okok dont blog already.
i love jenny.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:21 PM
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Wednesday, September 26, 2007
yay holiday today!
tried to study some more. i think i only managed about 4 hours?
a bit more or a bit less. not too sure.
not very good. and i just did practising for maths.
c maths and a math. and a bit of reading to remember some stuff.
maths too.
basically i just did maths today. not very good.
tmr i dont have much time, once i come back from maths tuition..
maybe i'll start to mug ihs. my first paper!
gotta study for physics soon, the 2nd major paper.
aiyah i need to study for everything! gah
sc
you probably have no idea
how much frustration you give me,
how each night i look up and wonder,
if i should love, or hate you.
everytime i decide to walk up your door
hoping to find out how you are
i'd get a "im fine", followed by
"sorry, do you mind? im kind of busy..."
yeah i get the hint. guess i shall
walk down the pathway,
away from your door
away from your life.
4 steps out that door
my heart wrenches, for i simply cannot
bare to walk out like that.
so i go around the corner, where i remain
out of your sight, keeping you
within my sights, watching over you.
i guess
around your corner, thats where i belong.
its not a place anyone would fancy
and im no exception.
until i can walk away, i shall always remain
around your corner, thats where i belong.
around your corner, thats where i belong.
whimsical nonsense @ 10:54 PM
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Monday, September 24, 2007
o well.
i didnt go to school today because i was resting.
i fell sick yesterday.
felt really tired in church.
decided to cab back home, too tired to take public transport.
and i had to because my father was at home recovering from his stomach flu which he came down with on thursday night.
my mom was at home taking care of my sister, who came down with stomach flu on saturday night/sunday early morning.
reached home and found out i had a temperature of 37.2
slept. for dunno, 2 hours?
then ate something. drank water and took 2 panadol pills.
and then vomited.
darn. had to go see doctor then.
so expensive. rawr. sunday afternoon pay more. sigh.
went home. felt the worst then.
waiting in the car for my mom to come back from buying bread.
rawr i dont think i can forget that crappy feeling...
but it also helped me to learn more things
in a way that made the lesson much stronger than what it normally would be
by the time i went to see the doctor, my temperature went up to 38.
darn.
couldnt watch bourne identity properly because i was still feeling unwell.
and i vomited again before i slept. sigh.
i dont like vomiting. who does?
sleeping the whole night probably helps one to feel better i guess
which did.
but i still didnt go school today...
o well im going to school tmr.
and hopefully, i can go back to mugging!
mug mug mug
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:09 PM
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Wednesday, September 19, 2007
im done with my philosophy essay. i think.
now i really need to focus on studying for the subjects.
pretty.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 11:26 PM
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Tuesday, September 18, 2007
i only have how many days left?
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13.
i think. let me recount.
using fingers this time. yeah
13 days left till my end of year exams.
scary. i have barely scratched the surface of what i need to study.
o deary me.
i really need to stop sleeping in the afternoon
gosh im such a pig.
i really need to stop going online,
gosh im such a slob
i reallyneed to stop watching tv, or watch less
gosh im a couch potato
i shall spend time blogging somewhere else.
before going to watch tv. and hopefully start to memorize solubility for good.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:02 PM
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Sunday, September 16, 2007
my itunes have been on shuffle for a few days now.
the longest ever i think.
shuffling between the songs i have decided to put in my ipod the last time i updated it.
i think last week.
i have concluded that some artists who dominate my itunes are
josh groban
avril lavigne
westlife (haha)
hillsong (maybe)
as i told russell earlier this evening, in the past 8 songs played (at that point of time),
5 were by josh groban. more than half. on shuffle.
i guess 3 albums is a lot.
westlife too! 3 albums. but not the full ones, i didnt upload it all that time.
avril lavigne, 3 albums too.
hillsong, erm, 5 albums i think. i could always upload one more... nah.
ahahas.
now back to pod. darn
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:34 PM
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Thursday, September 13, 2007
ok i closed almost all my windows.
preparing to go off and sleep.
tmr chinese prelims, since i am retaking my chinese o levels.
what is left
msn windows (5 to be exact, not all active)
itunes
blogger. duh im typing out a post right now right?
youtube. family guy thing. haha really funny.
i need to sleep. plan to sleep before 1130.
kind of scared for tomorrow. not too sure why.
rawr.
i need to stop relaxing, get rid of this slacker mood in me. sounds difficult though. sigh
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:51 PM
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Wednesday, September 12, 2007
i attempted to do my pod essay on the meaning of life.
i failed.
i guess maybe my mind does not possess the capability to understand deep stuff.
im guessing a lot of things.
maybe they are wrong most of the time.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:33 PM
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Tuesday, September 11, 2007
RAWR!
i shall make myself super on for studying from today onwards!
ignite the fire inside me!
RAWR RAWR RAWR
ok now got to go off watch tv.
darn its already past 10. its started!
cya
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:03 PM
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Sunday, September 09, 2007
man i wasted today by sleeping it away. darn.
o today, the friend i made during church camp said hi to me.
a special friend!
haha this 5 year old boy i think. thaddeus. (i hope i didnt spell his name wrongly)
o mannnn he's super cute!
and quite shy, then during the 4 days of camp i managed to make friends with him
and he knows my name! haha
and a few sundays after camp i managed to play with him one day.
played with him and his 2 brothers. his elder brother and his younger brother.
the younger brother is quite cute too, haha!
they just keep on running here and there, so effortlessly.
so energetic, so cute.
ahahas.
and then today, when i was about to take the lift up,
he ran by and said something like, "kor kor samuel"
then i turned around and saw him smiling at me.
haha that made my day!
haha im so happy!
now back to work. darn.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:01 PM
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Friday, September 07, 2007
alrights to prepare myself for pod essay,
for answering the question of what is the meaning of life?
i have chosen 2 views. existentialism and i dunno, undecided. haha ok then ive chosen 1 only.
ok i have read up on existentialism. and btw, ive decied on nihilism.
but i have no idea what that is, have to read up then.
whee existentialism. i once wrote a blog post on that. on the 10/10/06 apparently.
haha i didnt know i was so, erm, nvm.
so anyway, let me try to see what i can understand by existentialism.
basically the meaning of life is given by the individual.
i make my own decisions in life.
each choice that i make, there will be a consequence.
it could be good, or it could be bad. depending on the choice i make.
as such, the consequence of that choice then is the life that i've chosen.
if i choose to take drugs and go and die, that is my destiny then.
to die by leading a screwed up life of drugs.
unless i decide then to go for rehab and change my life.
again its a choice that I make. ME!
and so, the choices i make determines my life.
therefore, the meaning of life is something to be decided by me.
at least i think that is what it is.
nihilism. ok darn i havent read on that. ahhh!
i want to go watch ghost whisperer.
haha. give me love!
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:06 PM
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Thursday, September 06, 2007
ok i need to start on my lang arts b essay, like now
at 8.31pm. but before i forget what i want to blog about, heres a reminder for sam chan.
what im listening to now is mainly acoustic guitar led songs.
and you know, i mentioned before i came online, ok i wont even start a convo with anyone unless its work related. and so i asked zhang a question. and then i went back on my word and i initiated a convo. darn. but i doubt it'll last because that person is always so busy.
ok ok really, back to lang arts b essay. omg sam chan you're hopeless.
(stuff...)
ok now its 9.58pm.
needless to say, my lang arts essay just died.
now i have come up with another plan.
i shall prepare more thoroughly for it later tonight.
i have saved whatever little bit of the essay on my thumbdrive,
so that i can use it on the other com without internet connection,
without anything except microsoft office i think.
if im not wrong, the com crashed and well, i dunno,
im not a com expert, not even close,
but somehow it manages to stay alive,
so with a 16 colour screen and nothing else, i can use it!
and since it has nothing else, i shouldnt be distracted.
or at least there are less things to distract me,
such as blogger, msn, youtube, etc.
crap man im so bad.
i have gained a few new insights into a particular matter,
now i wish you really stop bugging me with your endless teasing,
now i hope you realise how who you're teasing me with,
is actually the one who seeks you. not in that way though, doubt it.
but then again, my judgement is one that cannot be trusted.
so says sam chan.
and so right now i shall not do anything else but slack.
which is what i have been doing for the whole holidays.
random note.
omg im now in love with the last song ever, by secondhand serenade.
i guess that has to remind me of you,
at times i let you stay inside my mind,
sometimes i just wish i could block you out of my thoughts.
you confuse me, really. i dont like it.
i guess no one likes to be confused.
and now back to the stupid holidays,
which is just so slack. argh im going to die.
ok to remind myself of what i wanted to blog on.
ah yes.
fine no, i cannot remember exactly what i wanted to blog on, but i can recall vaguely the topic it was on, and i guess it was linked to how i felt then.
thanks to daniel yee, i have found out how to say it.
i like to believe that i was half lovesick for love.
is that possible?
random note 2.
omg im in love with another song now, hanging by a moment, by lifehouse.
but i prefer the acoustic version i had on youtube.
o well at least i have in itunes now. whee!
i have a feeling this love will last longer than the one with the last song ever.
since the last song ever is an old flame which i've been in love with on and off, since jan 07
listening to hanging by a moment just makes me smile...
despite my anger with sam chan for not doing what he is supposed to be doing.
i would probably guess that now is a good time to sit down and stone, and reflect.
one of the holidays, not this one, the more free ones.
if my parents allow, i shall take the 3 stuff that i sort of always leave the house with.
my wallet, my phone, my 1st gen nano.
i shall take the train from lakeside mrt station towards pasir ris,
from
lakeside - chinese garden - jurong east - clementi - dover - buona vista - commonwealth - queenstown - redhill - tiong bahru - outram park - tanjong pagar - raffles place - city hall - bugis - lavender - kallang - aljunied - paya lebar - eunos - kembangan - bedok - tanah merah - simei - tampines - pasir ris.
that should be all the stations from lakeside till pasir ris. but i think my memory isnt that good, so i cannot guarantee.maybe on the way back, i'd take till tanah merah, go expo and changi, then back to lakeside.
maybe when i start, i shall go a stop back to boon lay so that i can sit down.
and so basically from west to east to west, i shall sit on the mrt with my ipod,
stone on the train, thinking about things.
it would cost me 45cents to travel around singapore.
is that neat or what? haha
i went to collect my passport today. got a lift from my father till clementi since he was dropping my sis off at nus
the trains there are so full. i got on the 2nd one that came by,
and one would be slightly amazed at how much the carriages emptied itself out at tanjong pagar. my gosh its insane.
and i got off, collected my passport, and took the train back.
i decided to sit down after a while, normally i dont. but i got lazy. haha
and across me was this lady, kind of young, like early 20s? or mids.
i like the way she did her hair. haha
and i got off before her, she went all the way to boon lay.
halfway through when i turned back to look outside,
and i look backed she had put on shades,
those big kinds. haha so weird. i dont particularly like those.
never thought it'd made one look better. but to each his own i guess.
random note 3.
i managed to walk home from lakeside mrt in 8mins 54secs.
if im not wrong its a new personal best for me.
which means i have to walk super fast. but no running. haha
but its walking by the longer way, taking the more scenic route.
what fun.
i have run out of stuff to say.
which brings about the end of this random blog post.
o wait wait!
i remember something now.
was reading in yesterday's life! if im not wrong,
an article of how people remember Steve Irwin's death a year ago.
and they go to the zoo that he founded or something.
i dunno, but i dont feel too comfortable about it.
o dont get me wrong, not the part where they remember his death.
by all means, go ahead, i mean i would i guess.
but im thinking that its probably more beneficial
to remember what he did, rather than who he was.
and so instead of spending much money on nice flowers,
i dunno, donate it to somewhere which uses such donations for whatever Mr. Irwin was working towards.
o look, its 11.21pm now.
i just wish time would freeze, no slow down now.
where i can just blog, type out whatever comes into my mind.
listen to hanging by a moment, by lifehouse.
alternating between the version i have on itunes and the acoustic version on youtube.
talking to my friend on msn.
too bad this other person isnt online.
i just yawned. maybe im tired.
maybe its time i get some rest so that i can wake up early in the morning to do my essay.
ah screw it la i dont care.
i think ive been on the computer for too long. my eyes are going to die.
i need to start exercising more.
i feel that ive done too little.
i shall fall in love with you all over again it seems.
no that is not referring to anyone. im not even sure who im referring to.
and chances are no one is going to read through the whole long post
because i wouldnt.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 11:33 PM
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Wednesday, September 05, 2007
yay ive watched 2 movies this holiday.
ratatouille on monday. i hope i spelt it correctly.
bourne ultimatum today. like seriously so late.
the theatre for bourne ultimatum was quite empty, with less than 10 people in it if im not wrong.
matt damon is hot. haha and im not gay.
julia stiles looks good with blonde hair,
and the desh guy is quite cool too.
im not gay.
at least i like to think so, and i certainly hope im not.
maybe im bisexual... nah cannot be. im not.
ah this holiday is getting too slack for my liking.
like how ive told some friends,
im feeling guilty, the slackness is making me frustrated,
but not enough to make me want to do something about it
thats bad.
i shall go slack for the rest of today. hopefully tmr i can get things done.
i really really hope so.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:28 PM
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Sunday, September 02, 2007
the holidays are here. 1 week to do things i cannot do when there is school.
1) wake up later
2) sleep later
3) sleep more
4) run more
5) spend the mornings studying instead of listening to teachers
6) listen to 987 from 10-1
7) go out
8) not have the pressure of due-tomorrow-homework
9) many other things that im unable to think of now
there a few problems with the things above, since its not just any holiday, its the september holiday!
1) i cannot wake up too late. i dunno. i feel 815 is reasonable, haha
2) i dont want to sleep too late, maybe by 12. which is the time i try to sleep for school days, so not too much of a difference
3) yeah sleep more! but i dont want to sleep in the afternoon, which i do almost everyday. wastes precious studying time
4) ah nothing wrong with that. shall try to run more before dinner since i dont have to stay back
5) hope its productive studying time
6) whee i look forward to that!
7) not very smart to go out so often. gotta study!
8) ah thats good. but i have the pressure of a lot a lot of due-next-week homework. big stupid ones like essays
9) yeah i cant remember! thats the problem!! AHH!
ok i need/want to do some things this holiday. hopefully i can fulfill it
1) start revision on all subjects for eoys
2) attempt to get a study plan, something ive never done before
3) do my homework, such as
(a) lang arts a essay
(b) lang arts b essay
(c) pod essay
(d) other stuff i dont really want to remember. haha
4) watch bourne ultimatum. man i still havent watch. im such a no lifer
5) watch that pixar show. i dare not spell it lest i get it wrong. haha and im too lazy to check
6) start studying!
7) really start studying!
8) study study study, mug mug mug!
ok basically i need to mug.
which means i dont spend my time typing stupid useless blog posts like this anymore,
and stop spending so much time on the internet
ah so stupid.
sam chan sam chan sam chan!
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 11:11 PM
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Saturday, September 01, 2007
im back from bb retreat. tired.
after teachers' day, all the celebrations and all.
had bb cell. then lunch, then on the bus to pasir ris area, for the retreat.
reach there, briefing and all, and around 4 till 7, free time! (:
some went swimming, quite a large number went cycling/inline skating
and others just did their own things.
i belonged to the cyling group. haha.
bought bk dinner back, quickly ate and shower, then gathered at 7 for the message.
had worship led by wesley chan, then mr gregory low gave us the message.
a strong message, and shall not comment any further.
and it helped me to relook at quite a few things,
added new perspectives,
and let some pieces of the past few weeks to come into place.
(let there be a void, that shall not be filled here)
at 12, went for a walk with a few officers and other people.
apparently i was the only sec4 since the rest walk halfway
then stopped and just talked, they were tired. haha
wont say what happened. not important.
just quite funny and amusing. haha
slept at around 4.45am in the end, waking up at 7.30am.
ahh so tired.
at 10 there was another worship session, before checking out.
russell, shaun, ximin, mr khoo and i went to holland v.
we kind of left early since we, with the exception of mr khoo,
had to meet mr ng yew hong and other 4.09 people at holland v at 12
shared a cab. russell shuan ximin in one, mr khoo and i in another.
their cab fare was $21. ours was $17.
they took ecp/aye, we took pie.
i guess theres a big difference there.
upon seeing the potentially scary clouds,
mr ng scraped the original plan to buy sandwiches and go botanic gardens
so we just went to some void deck nearby,
but instead stopped at some place along some small hill underneath trees
which was quite nice. haha just ate and talked i guess
until 2+, when my father came to bring me to civil service club
for the bowling thing my church organized,
for fun. haha i got owned.
very bad. im so lousy.
took public transport home. from farrer park to lakeside.
man im tired.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 9:24 PM
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Samuel Chan
7 January 1991
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shuqun primary school
Henry Park Primary School
Anglo-Chinese School (Independent)
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