along the cobbled sidewalks of life

Thursday, May 31, 2007

i survived a loooong meeting.

4 hours 45 minutes.

started at pasta mania
continued while walking
ended at some coffee place
the pacific company or something. all at vivo.
pasta mania at harbourfront centre actually.

rene wanted to go vivo on a public holiday. so crowded!
thanks arh.

we spent like slightly more than 3 hours i think at the coffee place.
felt quite bad hogging the seats for so long.
ah well.

im tired.

there is so much to do.

even more to think about.

equally as much to worry.

strangely enough im relishing it. somewhat.

yeah, somewhat.

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:54 PM

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Wednesday, May 30, 2007

finished!

i did 4 duty lists in the span of almost 2 hours.
with a bit of msn, a bit of calling people, a bit of msging people. or person (think joshua)

so tired.
i shall be proud of my work, haha big big duty lists
with lots and lots of columns. like 6.
very few duties ever have that many columns...

but at least im doing work. haha
HAHA

madness.

ffddsc

whimsical nonsense @ 3:20 PM

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Tuesday, May 29, 2007

yay its tuesday!

a very holidayish weather in my opinion.

haha

reminds me of june 2004.

ffddsc ooo

whimsical nonsense @ 11:43 AM

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Monday, May 28, 2007

chinese o levels.

almost over. just oral and listening left.

thank goodness.

now i need to focus on

1) cup
2) contract
3) camp

ooo all starting with c.

HAHA reminds me of...nvm shhhhh

i know you cant guess.

CAR!

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 11:59 PM

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Sunday, May 27, 2007

i might have potentially lost my bb boots.

great.

it hurts.

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:13 PM

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Thursday, May 24, 2007

rawr its getting tougher
and i am very close to crumbling.
cracks are showing already
sigh

lets just hope i can get through this.

im so sorry for giving you what you did not deserve

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:23 PM

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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

finally, its over!

the 3 evening straights of prefect duty is done.
the first day rather hectic.
2nd day smooth
3rd day equally good.

finish!!

what an experience. 3 duties straight in a row.
coming home earliest 9.30pm everyday for 3 days
now, all i need to do is to focus on friday's duty.
then hr is more or less done for term 2

the last week. 4 duties. it certainly feels good when most of it is over.

haha!

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:00 PM

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Monday, May 21, 2007

sometimes i wonder if they truly exist,
for me.

i am the one who does something first, most of the time.
only about once in every 60 times then it does not happen.
and i start to doubt myself.

this is not healthy.

o well.

what a tiring day.
send letters to fairfield, acs international, ijtp, st nicks and river valley. in that order
me adwyn and edward.
walk to fairfield. take bus to holland v. then walk to international.
walk back to holland v and grabbed a quick bite at burger king, took bus to what we thought was river valley
but we were wrong. walk walk then noooo
so took mrt from commonwealth to toa payoh
walk to ijtp,
and at ijtp, the security guard asked us

are you ex students?

WHAT?! nice 3 guys ex students of a girls school. haha
i dunno if i should feel honoured or insulted.

then walk back to mrt, take to yio chu kang
got lost a bit...before finally finding the bus stop with 265
then took bus to st nicks. navigate the way through the huge building
go back out. take bus back. then mrt back to queenstown
because we finally found out where 2 malan road is
thanks to the mrt ppl at yio chu kang mrt station
at queenstown we just cab there, give letter, cab back to school.
3pm.
haha already quite tired.

then still got filming. started at 4pm.
due to lots of delays
like running back for debrief, then getting ready for the filming
like being half naked...wow thanks.
i was an extra. haha
dont ask why half naked. good thing it was some isolated part of the school.
then film. stone around once my part was done. until 530.
go back boardroom. slack.
me mark peter and jonny, just talk until 615.
then started to prepare for duty.

blah blah blah. duty was terrible.
as in not that it was done terribly
in fact it was not bad actually.
but there were just so many cars,
more than i ever expected.
and probably the first time i ever see 8 ppl handle so many cars
o man.
and we finished at 810. or 820 including debrief.
tired.

what a long day. haha

whatever, my life is boring.

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 11:01 PM

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Sunday, May 20, 2007

8 days till chinese O levels

7 days till next sunday

6 days of the 7 i'll be going back to school

5 days to a day of rough confusion

4 days of prefect duty

3 days straight of the same duty

2 days of chinese concentration camp evening lessons

1 day of holiday "stolen"

wow, my life in numbers.
yucks.
i dont like the 8 days one, chinese Os...nooo
i dont like 5 days. cuz, personal stuff.
i dont like 2 days of chinese conc camp, who does?

i dont mind the rest actually.

so many rushy things. 2 more months.
rush rush!

yay im going for church camp. i hope it'll be fun.
i hope i'll benefit.

im a hypocritical bastard.

darn

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 11:38 PM

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Saturday, May 19, 2007

i was just about to mention how long ago it was since i posted,
when i realised that adwyn is worse.
almost a month between his latest post and his second latest post.
man.

so much has happened since my last post..which is i think on monday.
gotten back my results. all of it.
went through all the mass chinese thing every day from 8am to 10am.
do prefect things. get a view on the things to come.
which excites yet scares me.
darn.

last night went for tjc's choir concert at ac barker.
came home 1120.
watch survivor and polished boots and belt while watching.
till 1. then did some stuff before sleeping at 130. very tired.
the jury sucks.
ok most dont. just 2 particular ppl stand out.
alex and some lissy person.
i hate the lissy person, some fat woman. who is bias from the start.
what the...stupid question. stupid jury-ing.
alex too. not deserving to be on the jury.
and dreamz dont deserve to win. backstabber!
yau man owns. haha
he's the only one that deserves to win.
too bad.

now im half sick.
getting some irritating blocked/dripping nose
depending on its mood.
must have started when we dusted the carpet in the band room
o man...the dust there is like immense!
it was in layers
we couldnt beat it because the result was dust flying everywhere
not healthy for everyone!

so in the end we placed it on the ground and swept it off
each sweeping movement brought about clouds of dust
visible clouds of dust. disgusting.
then after a while it was ok. so we brought it back in
without the dead beetle stuck on it in the beginning
with the pictures on the carpet becoming clearer, haha

and from that cleaning up experience, i started to sneeze.
and i think that never left me.
for the rest of the day ive been sneezing and what not
now have a very irritating nose.
blocked. dripping.
sweating yet being cold.
don't tell me im falling sick.
no i cannot fall sick. don't want to.

rawr

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 11:01 PM

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Monday, May 14, 2007

i realised something.
and i am quite amazed.
at the same time, getting a bit sian.
losing stamina. no cannot.
just the last bit.

haha and i realise that the finishing line will be full of work.
sometimes i feel tired and all,
but i quite like what im doing, relishing it.
beats studying anyway.

i feel kind of down.
got semi-owned.
i dont like that feeling, i mean who does?
shall use it to spur myself.

exam results on thursday. too soon.
i wish they dont get released. at all.

i love you <3

haha

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 11:02 PM

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Sunday, May 13, 2007

i like my picture...the guy...with the shadow...
i like the shadow!!

and so my first weekend after exams.
haha sooo good!
went to school yesterday for bs.
bible study

then in the admin room, just like, slacked.
before finally going off for lunch.
shuan ong, russell, ellius, caleb, karlo.
and sam chan!!
went to some weird place, like beauty world centre.
my gosh never did i imagine myself going there.

after lunch, at some weird place, we went to play pool!
some weird place with no age restrictions,
but need to have a member and all.
what the...
then ellius and shaun ong left.
so russell and myself team up against karlo and caleb
karlo is like the most pro of us...haha
ive only played a few times. russell last played in sec2 (legally) and caleb i dont really think so
and we (me and russ) expected to get owned, i mean we're against karlo!
the first game they lost cuz they pocketed the black ball in the wrong hole.
i think.
second game we won.
third game too i think.
then the last game. we didnt think the black ball could go in
so anyhow say a hole, then it went inside.
we lost.
but ultimately we won karlo and caleb 3-1
yay! haha
so much fun.

exams are over!
i want to go coffee club more often.
but according to my friend's brother, coffee stunts your growth
darn.

im hungry.

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 6:30 PM

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Friday, May 11, 2007

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that is one of the covers for blood memory by greg iles.
of which you can see above.
something that i just started to read today.
and i dont usually read books. cannot really be bothered to do so.

and so i looked at the cover, and wondered
what is it with putting blood against some kind of white background?
especially a white flower?
is it meant to be that the white flower symbolises purity in a sense?
unblemished except for the few drops of blood on the surface of its petal
does it mean to say that no longer does purity exist because of the blood?
i dont quite get it but somehow blood is made to seem like some impure substance
one that taints the image of something else.

really?
maybe because the presence of blood means the presence of some form of hurt
and so in a nice white pure world, hurt has occurred.
the innocence of it all has been spoiled.

but then again i dont really think so.
the blood and the flower do not go together.
which is probably what the picture is trying to say
because the blood, being a blemish to the flower would mean they are at polar ends
and so different that they cannot be put together.
the blood remains on the surfance of the petal, as
blood.
it does not seep through, unlike blood and a white cloth.
the cloth turns crimson red,
its white innocence gone, forever.
(unless you have some really powerful bleach, although i doubt it)
and so, blood and the flower do not mix.

why put it together in the first place?!

and i dont know the answer to that. and i feel that is where the beauty of that picture lies in.

of course i think that whatever i said here does not really make much sense
since i myself dont believe what i just said.
mindless random ramblings of a sam chan.
a poor deprieved sam chan.

on another note,
i dont like infatuations. which i mentioned yesterday.
it seems only yesterday,
ok honestly, it seems like forever since i had an infatuation
but actually that forever is less than a year ago.
to go into a relationship now does not make sense to me.
i mean sure i had times when i wished i had a girl who love me and all
but seriously, i dont need that now.
enough things to handle, and a relationship only adds on to my worries.
maybe im saying all this because im a social failure
maybe im saying these things due to my past infatuations which went nowhere
because im not successful in love.
or whatever people say.
lol im sour graping! or whatever
o well...
so many people has told me not to get into a relationship at this age
including one who was in one when he told me that?
and i take his advice seriously. haha
and someone once said during chapel, i think the chaplain.
you date only with the intention of marriage.
my first reaction was,
what the ?!?!
you're old fashioned la.
and then i recall reading this book given to me as a birthday gift last year
cant remember the title offhand, nor have i finished it
everytime i try to continue, it doesnt feel the same
and i want to read right from the beginning again
and then i say i have no time.
so anyway, i digress.
from a christian point of view, its not right to go into relationships whom you do not have the intention to marry.
if you really want to know, sound me out
(lol i dont think anyone would)
and i really dont think anyone dating at my age, 16,
would ever marry.
if you're dating now, and you get married later. tell me!
darn im kaypo.
theres this friend i know, who was attached. but they broke up
and he went in thinking that yeah, maybe they could really marry.
well they didnt. lasted 8 months.
someone thought 8 months is quite long.
what the ?!?!
8 months?! long?!
i dont think so.
thats darn stupid.
wasting your life like that.
on a girl. or a guy.

lalala sour grapes sour grapes!

i dont really care in the end.

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 9:27 PM

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Thursday, May 10, 2007

test.

i like the picture. drawn by me. with paint. haha.

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:36 PM

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i didnt know stefan joubert was a world class touch guitarist.
only knew he is really good.
o well not really that surprised considering his music is so nice to listen to
quite soothing.

in addition, it reminds me of some time in the past,
of someone.

not so much the music, but more of when i first listened to it, it was
june 05
and lets just say that during that period of time, i was still foolish enough to like someone
to have infatuations.

i dont like infatuations.

and i have no time to say why. but i need to take it out here one day.

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:18 PM

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Tuesday, May 08, 2007

And I didn't think about
All the ways I hurt you and myself
And I wouldn't say a thing to you
I keep it to myself in
My mind

And I can't stand without you
And I won't find the answers
When you're gone

But it's over to you
I can't find the answer when you're gone
And it's over to you
But you can't find the answer where you are

And you know I need you now
And this ain't easy to admit
But no one needs to know
What goes on behind
The door in my room
I'm kicking through the
Walls in my mind

And I can't stand without you
And I won't find the answers
When you're gone

But it's over to you
I can't find the answer when you're gone
And it's over to you
You can't find the answer where you are

I won't tear you down
I won't tear you down
To get into the world you wanted
I'm kicking through the walls
But no one can believe
In things that never change

But it's over to you
I can't find the answer when you're gone
And it's over to you
You can't find the answers where you are
And it's over to you
I can't find the answer when you're gone
I can't find the answer when you're gone
I can't find the answer when you're gone
I can't find the answer when you're gone

It's over - Goo Goo Dolls

whimsical nonsense @ 10:01 PM

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Thursday, May 03, 2007

say it again

and poof

there i go.

whimsical nonsense @ 10:33 PM

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Tuesday, May 01, 2007

i really need to stop going online,
it is taking away precious studying time
and considering at my rate of taking in and retaining information
i really need quite a lot of time.
considering that i am not quite smart and thus am not able to remember what was taught last year
i really need the time to go revise properly
considering that i have no clue whatsoever in answering quetions, going out of point, misreading and answering wrongly,
i really need time to look through those answering guides and maybe practise?

i am very screwed.
but enough of that since im sure a lot of other people know that too
darn.
sometimes i wish i was smarter.

and i think i type really slowly,
ok not slow slow, relatively ok, at a moderate speed.
but i want to be faster!
and of couse type with more accuracy, so i dont have to keep on going back to correct myself
one day, i shall stone in front of the computer (when its off)
and then just go type away on the keyboard,
eh wait, but then again i wont know if i have made a mistake..
whatever.

need to study need to study
i need to ban myself from the com

i need to work harder!

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 9:48 PM

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