Thursday, March 29, 2007
tomorrow is another day.
to think more.
i am scared, nervous.
but my destiny is not in my hands.
our destiny lies in His.
and what safe pair of hands they are.
regardless, i will accept it
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 11:15 PM
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Wednesday, March 28, 2007
something i received from karlo. which said like copy paste and then fill in your answers and send to others.
well i thought hey interesting. and why not put on a blog! i dont like sending mass emails except to like yahoo groups?
1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME
Chan Yinghao Samuel
2.What colour pants are you wearing? Short pants?
dark blue shorts?
3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
avril lavigne -complicated (at the moment. its going to shuffle to something else soon)
4. ARE YOUR LEGS CROSSED?
yeah at the ankles.
5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
a banana! whee!
6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?
blue. because its like a very safe and unadventurous colour in my opinion. but i rather be hot pink! :D
7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?
dunno. hang on. extremely clear night with a bright half-moon
8. LAST PERSON YOU TAlKED TO ON THE PHONE??
lloyd soh (heh im so not scandalous right?)
9. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
face.
10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS?
yeps karlo is a nice guy! very fun to hang around with, and talk with. haha
11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
a bit stressed but overall quite a happy kid
12. FAVOURITE DRINK?
pokka peach tea. fruit tree fresh apple juice with aloe vera pulp bits. what i can think of offhand
13. FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
er, absolut vodka?
14. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SPORT?
soccer
15. HAIR COLOUR?
Black
16.EYE COLOUR?
dark brown. but looks black
17. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
nopes. but sometimes i wish i did
18. SIBLINGS?
one elder sis and one younger sis.
19.FAVOURITE MONTH?
december because of christmas!
20.FAVOURITE FOOD?
i love most normal food (:
21. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
er, pirates of the carribean 2: dead man's chest. dvd.
in the cinemas like i dunno. pans labyrinth?
22. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
dont really have one
23. SATURDAY OR SUNDAY?
saturday. i think
24. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
should be. haha
25. DO YOU LIKE MARMITE?
nopes. smells funny
26. SUMMER OR WINTER?
i like things in moderation. yeah
27. HUGS OR KISSES?
depending from whom, but now definitely... hugs!
28. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
duh chocolate
29. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK?
yeah....
30. Who's most LIKELY TO RESPOND?
no idea.
31. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
no idea.
32. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS
huh what? i dont understand
33. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
dont really read books. except for the best of them all. the Bible!
34. DID YOU WAKE UP BEFORE YOUR ALARM WENT OFF ?
no not this time
36. DO YOU MISS BIG BROTHER YET?
er............. er............. what?
37. FAVOURITE SMELLS?
er..... the perfume of my currently non-exitent girlfriend?
38. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
a lot of things.
39. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN?
none! how about carameled? those sweet sticky ones. whee love them!
40. FAVOURITE CRISPS?
if including corn chips then doritos, the barbeque one i think
41. FAVOURITE CAR?
some orange lamborghini? i dunno
42. FAVOURITE FLOWER?
i have no idea. some nice happy one! a daisy?
43. How MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
supposed to be 4. now 2 half. one was taken out, another broke into half. serious
44. CAN YOU JUGGLE
not really. actually no
45. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK?
friday? depends really
46. RED OR WHITE WINE?
havent tried white wine
47. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
have dinner with my family at kuriya. the one at the basement of great world. then went to That CD shop and got evanescence. haha
48. DO YOU OWN A DONOR CARD?
bb week card count?
49. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
i dont think in the morning, too tired. but if not, aiyah whatever go back to sleeeeep!
50. WHAT ARE YOU DOING ONCE YOU HAVE FINISHED THIS ?
go back to thinking about case.
yay done.
whimsical nonsense @ 11:37 PM
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i want to post a picture. but i have no time.
a picture of my g2. my shiny g2!
in the debate room there was like loose pieces of aluminium foil
and some red thing.
so i took the liberty of wrapping my g2 with a piece of aluminium foil
and use the red thing to hold it in place.
it looks quite funky!
HAHA
now im stressing out
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:16 PM
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Monday, March 26, 2007
i have to place my trust in You.
i see no other way.
no better way.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 11:29 PM
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Sunday, March 25, 2007
i must say, what a happy day it is today!
the weather was immensely good!
the clear blue sky.
with hardly a white grey cloud in sight
isnt that wonderful?
somehow the bright sun, its rays warming up everything below
just caused my mind
to flood with images, memories
of certain things,
of which i shall not bother to elaborate any further.
but i felt happy.
like i've never been in a long time.
maybe its today.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 11:01 PM
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Thursday, March 22, 2007
i think im a sad deprived child
tsk tsk poor sad deprived child
sam chan.
wah wah stressed!
so many things boil down to tomorrow.
hold my breath. close my eyes.
i cant bear to imagine the consequences.
im afraid. very scared.
i doubt i'll break down.
i cannot.
simly cannot.
just have to trust in Him
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:38 PM
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Tuesday, March 20, 2007
i think for a moment my class turned gay.
like homosexual gay.
HAHA its highly amusing. to me at least
so it was during ihs lesson.
and we were sitting around class. and presenting.
in a circle.
and it just so happened that if i look straight
i see daniel yee and russell, and when *insert name* was presenting
he was facing a certain direction
if you draw a line between daniel yee/russell and myself,
and then one from *insert name* to wherever his eyes looked towards
they intersect at like 90 degress or something
basically if i look straight when *insert name* is presenting, i see him from the side view
and well, lets just say his pants were a bit on the tight side
and there was a slightly bulge
at the right areas. as in where a bulge should be?
ok straight to the point!!!
haha straight. OK SAM CHAN YOU GOTTA STOP IT
and me and my friends were like o.0
not in a gay gay way but more of like...
ok his pants must be really tight and all...haha
then after ihs was recess
so i was talking to russell, since he was opposite me
and have the same view, as in side view thing
so i asked him...
hey did you notice that *insert name*'s pants was quite tight?
and then we mentioned the bulge, me and my friends
and russell was like o really?
i was noticing the other side...
like why does *insert name*'s butt look so "cute"
omg i cant believe russell used that word...
but yeah. as in i think he sort of meant shapely...
because his pants was tight...like almost almost hugging his legs
and then on the way down 4 levels
while we were discussing..
and when we all realised what we were noticing
we just laughed! HAHA
like seriously,
then me and isaac was like commenting on how our class became gay
i really hope i didnt mention that guy's name..so mean
tight pants = curves and bulges in all the right areas
like seriously haha
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:59 PM
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Monday, March 19, 2007
well school has started. again.
not exactly very fun experience.
to walk back into the classroom
with the kind of sky i dislike
[you know the one where its like hazy/cloudy, and cloudy but still quite bright?]
[basically not cloudy where it is overcast and dark greyish but just, disgustingly cloudy but bright?]
its disgusting. makes my nose feel stuffy
seems to hint at rain since it blocks out direct sunlight but its not able to let loose the water because there simply isnt enough.
thats the worst kind of weather i can have for any day, much less first day of school.
clear and sunny would be good...like really good
and overcast and windy wouldnt be too bad, maybe better.
but nooooo it has to be the stupid somewhere in between
which i hate.
and im still bitching about the same thing. o wells.
it God's creation, and i'll love it, somehow.
there has been a change in the time table.
with effect from 19th march 2006. o wow thats today.
and so i looked at my new time table.
and omg we have split recess now.
basically each class is allocated 40 minutes of recess.
and in our school, one period is 20 mins. but every lesson has at least 2 periods. or 3.
so lessons are like 40 mins or 1 hour or for pracs and pe can be 1hr 20 mins
and for my class we never had split recesses...until now
and so we have 2 recesses. each 20 mins long.
by the time the teacher wraps up the lesson + walking down 4 levels
5 mins is gone.
queue up. another 5 mins gone. or more
how to eat?
wah so stupid.
and guess what now...
friday ends at 1pm.
it used to be 1240
but the o-we-must-be-really-on school wants us to learn more stuff
and become insanely *im not going to say smart* cramp with useless pieces of information in our head
o i know how to differentiate. ok, now what?
i mean its fun to do and all, but not much point right?
but its not that that i dont like
more of hm...i dunno. everything else?
why dont let us i dunno? do something better?
ccas?
haha i love bb and debate. and to some extent prefects.
as in the board is fun and all, but sometimes can be very trying
but overall its fun.
but as we all know, in this screwed up world,
grades are all that matter.
you can be mr gentleman 2007 and get your one evening of fame
before you fade into obscurity unless you have a piece of certificate
to certify you have mugger abilities (note i didnt say brains)
so o well, lets just become screwed up nerds and study like mad
because if i do that, i am held in high regard by the rest of society
by the rest of the world!
HIGH REGARD BY THE WORLD DUDE!
lol ok lor, good for you.
so anyways...my random ranting shall proceed.
and white space btw, you know the stupid extra lessons thing in case the whole level misses lessons
has now been extended from 1240-1400 to 1300-1420
like what........................
fridays were meant to be good days in acsi.
maybe except for uyo, but i love my uyo. and my uyo is on saturday haha
and so now those poor kids who's uyo is on friday has to start later on white space fridays
which mean they end later, i think.
so sad.
changing time tables like that is soooo bleh
and i shall refrain from blaming anyone.
my blog is a public domain you know...
must be very careful when you say things...
my school is the best. with the best teachers around. with great leaders and all in our school.
ok that was half sarcastic. but there ARE good teachers. but then again we have our fair share of not so good teachers.
but most are nice. they can be not so good teachers but they're really really nice people.
ahhhhhhhhh
intriguing. somewhat.
but not enough to hold my attention for long.
my fat percentage has gone up.
holidays = eat junk, every day, every night. dont exercise
i think i drank as much sugared drinks (ice lemon tea + root beer) as water
omg so screwed. and napfa is like around the corner.
o wells.
i shall attempt to not drink any more soft drinks unless absolutely necessary
i shall attempt to lead a healthier lifestyle and maybe exercise more
i shall attempt to do what i said above.
no really, i always fail. haha
and sometimes i wonder why im so fat.
i wanna say more stuff! but my brain cannot think of more things to talk about.
o i know! daniel yee said in his blog, of how he wouldnt mind of school ended like 1730 or 1800 everyday but we go home without homework
where everything is done in school
hey i wouldnt mind that too!
i mean right now we go home like around that time or later AND still have homework
ho hum
dum dee dum
i still have some holiday homework not done.
because i didnt realise. failed to remember.
you know the homework diary thing?
yeah i write my homework there because secondary school has more, so cant memorize
i managed to do it in primary school and sec1 and 2
but had to cultivate that habit. so this year a bit more on in doing that
but sometimes i forget to write the homework down in the diary
which is quite stupid.
but i like my bookmark. haha but it makes me seem kind of like a pervert
disclaimer: i am most probably not a pervert, shouldnt be a paedophile and not a gay.
there are certain tendacies to become gay and all, like start stroking my friends...
HAHA along the arm...
the back...
but thats about it. no...other external body parts. =P
some of them have really nice skin...like really smooth. HAHA this is sounding wrong
and there is NO way at all in which i can become a paedophile in my school
please the sec1s are not very likeable.
and as i said, im only paedophilic towards nice young pretty girls.
shall not name names. shhhhhh
i cannot tell you who i consider dears...
haha they're mine!
i cant believe i typed such a long post
with random stuff. omg
i really need to spend more time on proper constructive stuff than this
o wells
i shall continue trying to play the piano. and fail. haha
btw i stopped playing. like no more lessons
since last year after i fractured my arm
no interest in continuing for grade 8.
and so on paper im grade 7. yay lol
actually im grade really-bad-that-i-think-its-grade-1
or worse. but there is a nice song. so i shall attempt to play.
but i much rather play with other stuff, other things, other people :P
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 11:08 PM
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Sunday, March 18, 2007
i got a sudden random image of a whale in my head.
the silhoutte of a whale against the sunset on the horizon of the sea
with a whaler ship some distance away
the image is grainy, somewhat
and the whaler ship the kind in maybe moby dick.
those that relies on sails for movement rather than motors
made of wood instead of metal
with blubber all around, from the whale,
to light the lamps on board
with rough gruffy whalers,
hairy arms bulging with hard muscles
toughened up with wrestling whales
to take their life away
and their blubber.
and now i have to go
do homework. uh oh
whimsical nonsense @ 11:01 PM
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i think im turning into a paedophile.
a kinda straight paedophile...
cuz its the small girls that i like.
not so much the small boys.
omg i sound bad....
but somehow i find small pretty girls really attractive.
maybe because they're pretty...
i dunno.
i need to stop this.
whimsical nonsense @ 9:52 PM
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Saturday, March 17, 2007
ok sec2 training camp ended yesterday.
and i shall refrain from talking about it too much.
but there is something that i just have got to say!
there was an amazing race kind of thing,
so me and johnny were posted to orchard hotel
but we walked to plaza sing, with adwyn,
rene and alex joined us later.
we walked back to orchard hotel, 3 of us
johnny, rene and myself.
while waiting for the green man,
josh's attention was drawn to this particular woman
for all the wrong reasons.
his attention went there because of the woman's face
which was like kind of unusual
pot holes, and just something you cant quite place
and he told me to look at her
he and johnny was like looks like a man
and them, being like 1.8m, are taller than 1.7m me
so i look, and instead of seeing the face first i saw the neck
and i turn back to them and said. yeps shes a man.
adams apple.
omg we all freaked out after that
like not say scream and all. but we were normal and all
but as we crossed the road and talked about it
we were like going yucks and all
omg
i saw a guy-turn-girl
i think.
cuz after that every female i looked it
i seem to see a lump at the throat
like im getting paranoid!
my life has been changed.
whimsical nonsense @ 11:11 PM
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Friday, March 16, 2007
i have a feeling, the same one when im emo.
why?
dont know.
tired after sec2 training camp. but i feel a bit more fulfilled.
now i need to do homework. difficult.
whimsical nonsense @ 10:55 PM
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007
whoooo!
another camp!
but shorter now. like 2 days 1 night.
for me 2 days 2 nights. should be going off soon.
camps are like, ok. can be quite fun. potentially sianning.
just hope i dont forget to bring anything essential.
and now that i've lost my sleeping bag at ta camp...hm...
the couch in the boardroom! HAHA
we have a sofa bed! i wanna kop that
i havent started on homework.
i am quite screwed.
and i dont really care at the moment.
thats bad.
i miss *insert year*...
just want to go back to all that happened there
but then again, im glad for some of the things that happened in the years after
this is probably the most pointless post.
i need to tell you something, i just don't know how.
moreover, i believe this isnt the time.
i am just going to wait and see.
because that time might never come.
an urgent need to create distance between us
lest it self-destructs.
i cannot let it happen,
so i will try, however hard it may be.
as for you my dear, things are slightly more complicated
for independent variables come into play.
play hard they will.
allow them to control the game, thats my plan.
letting time pass, and nature to take its course
is the best option i have.
second best actually, as i come to realise
that the best is leaving it up to Him.
whimsical nonsense @ 9:17 PM
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Tuesday, March 13, 2007
[ adwyn ] the stars would shine for you says:
dont u think shes pretty
[ adwyn ] the stars would shine for you says:
and shes nonslutty pretty too
whimsical nonsense @ 10:26 PM
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Monday, March 12, 2007
TA camp is over.
until i can find time to blog fully about it,
and maybe also to pen some more personal thoughts down
will i comment more about TA camp.
3 days gone.
disappeared.
tired. but i feel it was worth it.
somewhat.
always somewhat eh?
whimsical nonsense @ 10:52 PM
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Thursday, March 08, 2007
tmr is the day.
what a long day.
the beginning of a long holiday.
and i dont mean long because its slack.
i wish it was.
camps take up 5 days.
4 days "free" to do work, see teachers and go for tuition
and run some errands for my mom. haha
i have been sleeping like 2am for the past few days
or rather 2am last night and 2 nights ago.
just to type out stuff.
like what the...
there is just insanely lot of homework.
madness i tell you.
tmr. let us see how things turn out
and then i have to brace myself.
fearful anticipation
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 11:27 PM
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Monday, March 05, 2007
i didnt walk out on them
you walked out on us.
i doubt you realised that.
whimsical nonsense @ 6:32 PM
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Sunday, March 04, 2007
its beyond me. beyond my understanding.
of why people forward mails.
i used to be one of those chain mailers, forwarding to everyone on my contact list.
but then in sec2, around that period of time i gave up.
it was stupid, wasting so much time, and furthermore i didnt see any point in doing so.
its always the same thing. love or friends.
the contents talk about love and all and stuff.
or all the good things a friend could do for you
what a real friend would do for you.
and then say like you are my friend, and i'll do all those things for you.
and then the chain.
send back and i know im your friend. send to those you consider your friends too.
ok that bit is quite ok, its a chain i can just tolerate.
and then the thing i detest.
make a wish.
send to *insert number* and then *insert consequence, be it good or bad*
and the more people you forward the mail too, the better the consequence
like your wish will come true in a shorter period of time.
i mean seriously, how do you expect me to believe that?
and o throw me all the stories of people who sent it and the next day their boyfriend/girlfriend/crush/lover did something of romantic value to them
scream out the stories of people suffering from injuries or any ill luck because they deleted or didnt send the mail in my face.
i still wont believe you.
do you really need to link the friendship message to a chain?
if someone feel that it is worth sending he'll send it.
some of the friendship messages i feel are quite nice.
but i see the chain and i go screw it.
the purpose of it all?
the chain i mean.
spread love and celebrate friendships?
spam inbox?
i don't know.
no really.
right.
those forward the stuff and then this person will get a few cents for every forward.
i dunno.
but i dont forward any more mails.
cuz of the above.
so there.
im in a pissy mood.
maybe im pms-ing.
minus the cramps and all.
i need an avenue to let out stress.
and i don't want the jump down option.
i scared.
haha.
stress.
not good.
sam chan stress is coming back up.
victim count: +4 (at least)
i hope it doesnt rise up anymore.
so there.
back to struggling with chinese homework.
back to life on earth.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 10:05 PM
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Friday, March 02, 2007
i failed the test.
the tests.
the real kind and the not as real ones.
its depressing.
and i shant comment any further about this.
good job well done.
and then i screw it all up again.
i know why.
i just hope i wont let it happen again.
its trying.
its not good.
the path is becoming narrower
and harder to travel on.
this is scary.
don't you feel scared too?
as the darkness closes in,
the lights fade away
im losing my cool
quickly breaking out in sweat
overwhelmed by fear.
five waves
seven repetitions
five mistakes.
three now four
four of threes
not really
whimsical nonsense @ 11:26 PM
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Samuel Chan
7 January 1991
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Henry Park Primary School
Anglo-Chinese School (Independent)
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