Wednesday, June 28, 2006
eh wah lao!
was reading straits times...
and in this particular article
some australian place..perth i think
this 8 year old girl got raped and then murdered
in a shopping centre
like what the ....
she went to the toilet...
and like dunno
this weird guy just did some gruesome things
and her brother found her naked in the handicapped toilet afterwards
rape an innocent 8 year old girl is bad enough
murder some more
what gets me pissed off is shes only 8!
innocent, nothing to do with you
at 8 i was probably happy, didnt know much about the evils of this world
to brutally take her away from this earth
from the arms of her family
argh!
its so pissing
some 21 year old dude got arrested
ok..fine...testoterone overcharge
WHATEVER!
go find your girlfriend and let it off
marry her first though
just dun rape
not anyone
much less some small kid who probably isnt even developing
and thats besides the point
boo
you bad bad boy
no words can describe this heinous act
poor girl
poor family of hers
dude! get a life!
nvm i have nothing more to say
im hungry.
im weak.
im fat.
i have this mixture of feelings
havent felt like this in a long time...
come to think of it...
theres a hint of sadness
amongst the boredom
yet a slight tinge of happiness, or high feeling
or could it be the fake feeling of high
which derives itself from sadness
it tries to deceive
and deceive well it does
argh cant get anything
overall it doesnt produce a very good effect
like mixing too many things....
you know you have nice cocktails and stuff?
ah...thats if you mix it well and like in a nice way?
dunno how to say
but rubbish dumps...filled with different odours...
not a very nice smell is it?
similarly
hm bad analogy
let down again and again
oooo
it hurts, somewhat
trying not to think about it
trying to believe im paranoid
am i?
paranoid...weird...speculating too much
or is it just true
that what i want to believe conflicts with reality
and right now reality is just revealing itself
ooo now it goes away
yet it comes back
make up your mind dude!
im not your play thing...
im not here for you to come and go
i wish i could say
take my heart...
my emotions and feelings
take it all away
i dont care
and i do feel like saying that
just as long as you dont keep manipulating me
whimsical nonsense @ 11:38 PM
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Tuesday, June 27, 2006
you know how when people say it is better to be placed in an environment where everyone else is slightly better, for like the sake of healthy competition, to bring out the best in you...
i thought so too.
6 months
at first it seem like it was true after all
things got off to a normal start, but there was promise
a brighter outlook of great things to come
then it started
the never ending ride downhill
things fell apart
the half completed jigsaw puzzle disintegrated
into mere pieces
without any possibly link with each other
making it impossible to come back all together again
i thought it was go back up
i mean another saying is like what goes down must go up...
or something like that
great!
a bright future i hoped for
a picture of happiness
made up those dreams
and dreams they remained
never to become reality
for fiction never turns to non-fiction
so im stuck in that downhill trip
i look back up, longingly
with eyes filled with tears
my heart aches for those times
look forward
to the darkness engulfing
not very welcoming i see...
i pluck up as much courage as i can
determined to face whatever's ahead
i think im fighting a losing battle
should i try to bring this roller coaster car up again
or accept my "fate"
let the darkness overcome me
give up
cause it just gets tiring after a while
its wearing me out
i cant stand it!
turning to escapism...
not the end i fancy.
but reality has never really been kind to me.
whimsical nonsense @ 11:05 PM
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Monday, June 26, 2006
yay i survived the first day of school...
it started off with prefect duty, which was not bad...
quite good actually.
and then the rest of the day went past quite smoothly...
its actually like what, one of the better first days of school..
theres nothing much else to say...is there?
and then i didnt have to stay back! yay!
frankly im quite tired of staying back...
for the first half of the year i was like staying back every single day
its not like those o, stay back for lunch kind of thing,
except for nearer exam periods and exam days themselves
im staying back till at least 5, or 6 soemtimes 7.
urgh
i hope i dont have to stay back THAT often...
term 3 starts.
a sort of new journey begins...
oooo
whimsical nonsense @ 10:43 PM
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Saturday, June 24, 2006
wow
todays cip thing wasnt as long as expected...
like from 8+ to only about say 5.45pm?
supposed to be like till 7
and we were like so little ppl
me daniel yee bryan and hsieh wen
the youngest...sec3s.
then there were 4 other year5 acsi boys
and cool i actually know one of them...the bb primer person
so we just help to set up the stalls..man it
or actually like not a lot of needed to man the stalls cuz there were other volunteers there
from singapore poly
and there were like a lot of them...
ah gtg. shall blog more bout it next time...
cool experience though. (:
whimsical nonsense @ 9:40 PM
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Thursday, June 22, 2006
WHEE
I HAVE NEVER FELT THIS HAPPY
IN A LOOONG TIME
SO HAPPY
SO HIGH
SO HYPER
WHEE ALL THE H WORDS...
HEEHEE
HAHAHAHAHA
I MUST BE MAD
SOMEONE STOP ME!
NO NO, I WANNA STAY LIKE THIS!
HAPPY!
THAT PILE OF HOMEWORK IM GOING TO TACKLE LATER
I'LL CARE ABOUT IT LATER
THE MATH TUITION TOMORROW...
I'LL WORRY ABOUT IT TOMORROW
CUZ I AM TOO HAPPY! =D
ITS TIME TO BE HAPPY!
SPREAD THE JOY!!!
whimsical nonsense @ 10:01 PM
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Wednesday, June 21, 2006
past the point of no return
it hurts.
so.ever.badly.
whimsical nonsense @ 11:11 PM
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ooo today i went to st margarets for some student leader thing...
and like i thought it would be boring and like a waste of time...
ok granted it was like whoa so good
like whoa im enlightened...i see the LIGHT!
but it wasnt that bad too...
i went to clinic B
instead of clinic C as the clinic C person couldnt make it
so sad..i was quite looking forward to clinic C
cuz the person was Ms Elim Chew...founder of 77th Street
anyway
some nice quotes from the Mr Barney Lau person
or at least presented in his powerpoint
Mr Barney Lau btw is the Managing Director of Microsoft (Singapore)
Do not go where the path will lead but instead go where there is no path and leave a trail
- Ralph Waldo Emerson - (roughly as i didnt manage to copy the last bit exactly..but the idea is there)
All misfortune is but a stepping stone to fortune
- Henry David Thoreau -
The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy
- Martin Luther King Jr -
I expect to pass through life but once. If therefore, there be any kindness i can show, or any good thing that i can do, then let me do it now for I am sure I will never pass that way again
(was not able to copy the last bit properly again, and did not manage to get the name of the person who said it)
As long as you are green, you grow. But when you are ripe, you start to rot.
- unknown -
(basically it means that when you are green, like new at something, you learn, but if you stay on and don't keep on learning, ripe, you start to rot)
Don't try to do everything, don't try to boil the ocean.
- unknown -
whimsical nonsense @ 9:47 PM
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Tuesday, June 20, 2006
YUCKS!
i dont quite fancy that colour...
but anyway..its not the colour that i went yucks
i was like walking to the debate room with everyone else
or rather with pual chuan adwyn chuang lloyd "boyd" soh and david crawshaw
o and kegan chang.
and so like the uyo cabin has like 2 stairs to the second level...
which is where the debate room is located
so we took the normal stairs up...
and what should greet us at the foot of the stairs but a
dead rat.
its like just disgusting!
it just died or something like that..thank goodness it wasnt half decomposing
its sick la...i got quick a shock...
o and then while waiting for edmond to come...
as he sort of fulfilled the general thing of how debaters are always late
when he came slightly more than an hour late...
so i was just bored..and i stood on the table!
dun ask me why...i was half high
and i stared into the aircon and i realised there was something there...
upon further inspection..
it was a...
dead lizard!
it didnt look very decomposed...
maybe the air con helped preserve it? dunno
thats like 2 dead stuff in 1 day..or a few hours...or actually 1half...
yucks!
whimsical nonsense @ 9:23 PM
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Monday, June 19, 2006
its so close...
can you feel the
warm moist breath
upon the very back of your neck?
the finishing line beckons
yet strangely they run
away from it
never wanting to come to that
it looms overhead
overshadowing all else
taking centre stage
this heavy burden
the white strands grows
whilist the rest shrivels up
and down they fall
into oblivion
looking ahead, about
reflecting and fears arise
regret or satisfaction, please
just do it
scrambling about, in panic
afraid to roll the die
to take the first, hardest step
longing to go back
fear
regret
with no way
out
with searching eyes
a light out of darkness
alas
none
torn apart, it hurts
barely holding on
the exit sign, now
so appealing
all it takes is a step
they all question
how difficult can it be
till they see the bleeding
wishing you were somehow here again
because i'm missing you
yet i know you're never coming back
and that hurts.
always did.
the fact you're not sorry
drives the knife deeper
it's sad how it had to turn out this way
pity.
should you ever want to return
i'll be here waiting.
maybe.
whimsical nonsense @ 10:42 PM
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Saturday, June 17, 2006
im bored..so shall do some quiz i saw at some ppls blog..though im not meant to do it...
im just too bored!
My teacher once said that
i deserve my low marks (humph how evil)
Never in my life have I
castrated myself
The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always make me smile
When I'm nervous
i start to shake/shiver and i cant help it...
The last time I laughed was when
i cant rmb...i just smile a lot but dun laugh?
My hair is
striaght and silky...everything you want in your er..hair
My feet are
sexy! with a sexy slipper tan!
Last Christmas
was a let down but had beautiful memories which stays as memories
When I turn my head left, I see
the fan staring straight back at me
When I turn my head right, I see
the wonderful wall!
When i look down i see
the keyboard drawer thingy
The craziest recent event was
church camp? not that crazy though..just wonderfully fun
By this time next year
i will be the ruler of the universe! (:
I have a hard time understanding
lots of things, academic subjects, the wonders of this earth and humans. bleh
One time at a family gathering
i had a good time....whee! (:
You know I like-like you if
i tell you. duh
If I won an award, the first person I'd thank is
the person who is handing it out? and God
Triangles are
cool. its made of metal and produce a kind of ding sound! or ting. whatever. love them!
My ideal breakfast is
some yummy food at the beach watching the sunrise with my girlfriend (who is still out there somewhere..i hope)
If you make me really happy
i'll smile (:
Where do you plan to visit anytime soon
the beach
Boys are
wonderful pigs.
I'd stop my wedding if
i saw some other prettier girl at the dinner... :p
The world could do without
me
I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than
lose my friends
Most recent thing you've bought yourself
cup noodles! which i ate with lloyd boyd
Most recent thing someone else bought you
lunch! by my mom! yay!
My least favorite time of day is
when something bad happens
And by the way, please hold on
and fasten your seat belts. thanks.
The last time I was high
just
The person whom I last talked to told me
that he didnt talk to someone as often as he used to
I shouldn't have
ate that cup noodles which made me fatter than i already am!
Last night I
suffered church camp withdrawal symptoms
There's this girl I know who
is really cute.
There is this guy I know who
is really pro
I'll tell the next person who makes me really happy
thank you
I'm listening to
never had a dream come true by S Club 7
I last ate
chips
My bedsheet is
some cool cool bedsheet!
I smell
air?
On my table, i have
a mess
My full name is
Chan Yinghao "Master of the Universe and Greatest living being of all" Samuel
whimsical nonsense @ 10:13 PM
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back from church camp!
which was actually quite fun...
and i bunked with john, who's actually not as bad as i thought...
quite funny with all his rubbish about mmms zzzs and fffs
right.
the bus ride there was ok..but back it was sooo bumpy!
like so difficult to sleep...and duh you sleep cuz the ride is like what..8 hours?
but going there not so bad...quite cool.
and i only used half of my nano battery! (going there)
played non stop for 3 hours then 4 hours after a 1hour break for lunch...
then flatted the rest during camp...
and last night charge to full so today can listen!
whee!
i love my songs =)
the messages were quite good, and i didnt expect to learn so much from ruth...
wow
there was a beach too!
but it was dirty and not exactly very nice...
the gradient was too gentle...and the waves well, almost non-existent..
cant rmb the geog term for it...
if there is even one
and on thursday morning i saw the sunrise!!!!
and took a lot of pictures...84
but not all of sunrise..some of the sand when still dark...
and a lot of pre-sunrise...
then when the sun started to peek out on the horizon...
the battery died
and so i had to use ways and means to prolong the battery life...
which allowed me to take more pictures!
but i deleted some already...so less now...mayb 60+
i hope i dun lose them...
my first sunrise.
too bad someone wasnt there
o well, quite late, shall go off now.
blog more bout church camp another time,
but it was good! =)
whimsical nonsense @ 12:46 AM
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Tuesday, June 06, 2006
ooo
rmun starts tmr...
so its like
wed - rmun
thurs - rmun
fri - rmun, then rush to ldc and i'll still be late cuz of rmun
sat - ldc
sun - ldc
mon - church camp
tues - church camp
wed - church camp
thurs - church camp
fri - church camp
ooo...so rush.
lalala
i very scared of ldc...
its like so many things la...hm.
nearing that critical point
whimsical nonsense @ 10:34 PM
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Sunday, June 04, 2006
went mediacorp today...
thought its just to support our sch...
but when i reached there, i realised its to cheer...
so its this chinese programme...
and then we're suppose to cheer for our school...
reach there around 2.10...then walk here walk there..do a few rounds..
then like sit around for quite long...
then we were given permission to go out to buy some stuff...
cuz acsi seem really unprepared compared to the other schs there...
but only a few of us out of the 12 present could go...
so chen ming...jia long adwyn and me went to thompson plaza...
some weird place..
then go there then get a call say dun need to buy...
so o well...the 4 of us decided to use the time for some activity...
go figure.
went back...then eat the dinner they provided...
which was not bad...at least not the normal foam box...
then learnt the new cheer thingy that the rest created...
practise it like quite a few times..
then ok lor...
and like i found out how mediacorp does those shows...
like the clapping bits...
how the scores are like tallied so fast...
and say the hosts...guoliang and kym ng...if those are their names...
i found out a lot of things...heehee
o well, our sch didnt do very well...but we cheered ok i guess.
hope they can still progress...
so tired.
ajc tmr.
sc
whimsical nonsense @ 11:18 PM
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Saturday, June 03, 2006
o well...
my blog is like ugly...
and screwed...
lol mayb i shouldnt try to change my layout...
since i know nuts about html...lalala
shall try to fix it soon of course with help from my sister...wahahaZ
do tell me if you arent able to read anything...yeah.
1 week of holidays gone...thats fast...
and the next week will be a busy one...rmun..ajc ranking...ldc...haix
not sure how im going to like survive...
cuz i need to prepare for rmun...and the 2 days before it used by ajc ranking...
something i see quite useless...
and ldc is like at 6...rmun ends at what..around 6?
so rushy...if there's such a word...
lalala
then church camp...
need to start doing homework..
shall stop complaining.
o o quote of the day!
you cant combat apathy
i think that's quite cool...but then again...im weird
so weird things are cool to me...
on a random note, i love the picture on my blog...
courtesy of an ex friend.
boo! =)
i love the sky! *muacks* =P
whimsical nonsense @ 11:17 PM
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Thursday, June 01, 2006
june act!
ok, not much time to blog, but it was fun...
made new friends
and got my head filled with flour...
and spent most of the time trying to get it out..
yucks.
but cool experience.
happy birthday jialong! though i dun really know you well...
whimsical nonsense @ 11:59 PM
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Samuel Chan
7 January 1991
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shuqun primary school
Henry Park Primary School
Anglo-Chinese School (Independent)
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