along the cobbled sidewalks of life

Saturday, April 29, 2006

an incredible journey...
one of the best experiences i've had...

it wasnt all that i hoped it would be
no...it was far from it...
it was actually more than i thought it could ever be

there were disappointments...relief...happiness
but these things only add on to the thing i would remember most
the whole experience.

i owe it to the great team i had...the seniors...
sam cheam...paul chu...john leo caines...sean tan
thanks for being part of, giving me one of the greatest journeys i have had thus far

jgs 06
etched in memory

whimsical nonsense @ 9:27 PM

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Thursday, April 27, 2006

jgs finals!

tmr...

i give it all to the LORD!

May the outcome of tomorrow's finals be in His hands,
in accordance of His will...

Help us Lord,
In Jesus's most precious name,
Amen.

whimsical nonsense @ 9:47 PM

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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

yay!

ok this is late..so nth much to yay about..

but napfa is over! finally! (although might wanna retake 2.4 cuz i think it was a bad run..)

so except for the 2.4 run which i still dunno my timing...i did relatively ok...
maximum points 25...obtained 22 :(

standing broad jump (the saddest!) - 225cm or C ~ 3 (220cm last year)
pull ups (im 15! no more incline one) - 6 pull ups or B ~ 4 (41 but in report book put 28 last year)
sit ups - 49 or A ~ 5! (stopped at 43 at teacher's orders)
shuttle run - 9.3secs or A ~ 5! (9.5secs..yay improvement!)
sit and reach - 55cm or A ~ 5! (50/51cm..improvement too!)

yay! shall put last year's results in brackets...
but last year only 14...
if i was 13 last year...perfect 30!
if im 14 this year...mayb also perfect 30! or 29...
btw last year only 28..so sad!
then now max i can get is 27...not exactly very good..hope i get at least 26...

whee! now napfa is over!

can start eating a lot without feeling too much guilt..lol
just hope dun get TOO fat..

i dun wan june holidays to come!
ltc2...june act..trip...sec3 camp...rmun...ldc...church camp...
its like so many activities..

jgs finals!
2 more days!

common test!
8 more days!

ltc!
31 more days...

whimsical nonsense @ 11:20 PM

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Sunday, April 23, 2006

this is pretty late

but er...acsi broke 4th for bcs...

erm..yay?

screwed up my speech against jjc...dun think i did well...
did better at the impromptu...but it could have been better...

o well...

jjc:
what a bad debate overall...
no offence but i could hardly understand their case...
and thus..my speech died.
and also because im not exactly very good at debating...
unlike crawshaw lloyd adwyn...

rjc:
yay! i was timer...
and wat a complex case/policy rjc came up with...
well...i say the 3 speakers of acsi did relatively well...
but we still lost...haix
though i think we expected it...

impromptu against hci:
prep was just...dunno
i developed new viewpoints...
but i dun think they're valid...
since the possibility of them being influenced by my paranoia is there
but we still won. yay?

now...jgs finals...bcs quarts...

too bad not speaking for either one...o well...
its the team first...
so yeah.

hope we get into the semifinals of bcs...but against acjc..chances?

but but but!

i really really hope we win jgs this year!

shall keep on praying...

if its in God's will, may we win jgs!

whimsical nonsense @ 10:55 PM

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Friday, April 21, 2006

wow

brit councils tmr

hope i dun screw up

hope things go well

hope that internally (if you know what i mean) no or not much tension would occur

hope that internally things will be smooth

hope things do get better

yet i sense something coming

not a thing for rejoicing

it makes me anticipate it with caution

it instills great fear in me

causing my heart and mind to huddle in a corner, afraid to go out, frightened.

i pray that i might get to know you more and more each day

with each passing day

reveal to me a bit of yourself

bit by bit, a little bit of the wonderful self you are

and as you do so

may you draw me closer to you

may my walk be set right

stay with me each step i take

be with me, never leave me alone

fearful.

help me, Lord.

I place whatever that is going to happen tomorrow in your hands, may all results be in accordance to your will. All Glory be unto you!

whimsical nonsense @ 11:11 PM

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Thursday, April 20, 2006

hello!

yesterday was so nice...

like a really cool day...

except that i had a bad nose...
sometimes blocked sometimes runny...
slight sorethroat...
a bad 2.4km run...(which was the real thing)

but overall it was a jolly good day. =)

must try to be more hardworking...heehee

whimsical nonsense @ 10:53 PM

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Monday, April 17, 2006

o man...

super tired la...
it didnt help that i slept quite late last night...
then went for squash C div finals at kallang squash centre...
yay at least we won...i think 5-0 against sji if im not wrong...
yeah man!
and at the beginning our cheering rocked!
=)

and ok..we ended at around 5...
great.
i didnt noe how to get home...
so me..russel.. mark..chin hian and some other sec2 just walked around..
we walked quite far...like until national stadium...
then took a bus...14
all the way until bedok supposedly!
my gosh! like from kallang to bedok...basically im juz going further away from home...

but i didnt go bedok la...
mayb i shud have...
i went off at some siglap place cuz russell was going off there...
said kembangan was nearby...
so we walked..and walked and walked like mad...
at least i saw the outside of his house..cuz we cut thru it..
then he showed me the general direction to kembangan mrt...
by the time i reached kembangan i was half dead...
its really quite far...like from the squash centre to the bus stop 1km...
then from that siglap bus stop to kembangan another 1km...
im unfit...so it seems very long...wadever la...
too tired...

then took mrt from kembangan to lakeside...
i had someone keeping me company...yay!
but cuz of the tunnel so was difficult to talk properly...so sad hor?
o well...

by the time i reach home...7.30 liao...
and we ended around 5...
thats like super long from kallang squash centre to home...
2 half hours!
*faints*
then eat dinner...
and accidentally fell asleep at 8...
too tired man...
luckily cheam called me..if not i think when i wake up next morning already...

o well...got to hurry go do homework...hm...

another long day tomorrow...
with a not very friendly time table...
haix

whimsical nonsense @ 10:34 PM

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Saturday, April 15, 2006

wow...

what a stupid roller coaster ride it has been
ups and down...

too much man!
im so giddy!
*bends over and pukes*
everythings coming out now...

ah well...at least it does feel slightly better...

i just hope that it really does get better...

hoping..wishing...
ultimately, praying.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight

whimsical nonsense @ 11:34 PM

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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

i just feel really disappointed

disappointed in myself

disappointed in other things
but im in no position to state them

i think it was a massive disappointment...
the despair could be seen...
the pain...sadness...tears.
as the final whistle blew...
some collapsed in agony...
not physical agony...
emotional...mental...

but no matter what happens
the flag will continue to fly high
the flag of acsi.

whimsical nonsense @ 9:59 PM

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Monday, April 10, 2006

i wonder...
if it would be better when you have a blade of knife
stabbed into your heart...
it doesnt hurt you as its only a small prick
but the blade remains,
embedded
and so as long as nothing is done to it
as long as it doesnt cut deeper
there's no pain felt
but then again...even if it does go deeper inside
surprisingly theres no pain...
it slowly slides in...
yet even a slight tug at that blade
would result in extreme pain...
and as time goes by
as the grains of sand drops through the hour glass of time
the knife would slowly sink in...
casting a deeper wound...
a wound felt only in the future
the hurt it will cause inevitable
except for one way
and that way for avoiding such pain
has been blocked...
precisely at the moment when i found it was blocked..
that blade was heartlessly ripped out...
causing the heart to bleed...
endlessly
and thus as i wonder
would it be better to stop it at the early stages
suffering minimally
or continue as per normal
running the risk of a much more painful end
yet with the hope of something better...
but it seems ive no choice...
for that decision has been made for me
may it be for the better than
as i recover from the shock i suffer
shud i stay crumpled on the ground
helpless...in pain...
or attempt to get back up...risking tumbling down again
i guess the answer is obvious...
the next course of action is clear...
crystal.

whimsical nonsense @ 9:43 PM

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Sunday, April 09, 2006

so much homework!

and what am i doing online?

hm...

o dear..a deadline tmr!

a deadline i set!

and now i need to make sure everyone meets it..wow

i need to escape!

lets all run away
from this mess
lets all run away
into the horizon

into the horizon, yes
where peace and tranquility waits
into the horizon, yes
to explore what lies beyond

what lies beyond, may it be
the world i want to be in
what lies beyond, may it be
different from this world i live in now

want it to be different from this world,
for things are too messy
want it to be different from this word,
as im sick and tired of weariness

so sick and tired
of immaturity, stubborness and just problems
so sick and tired
of the pain, sadness and tears

pain and sadness, tears
is not the joy and peace we seek for
pain and sadness, tears
just not what can satisfy that void

what then can satisfy that void,
i leave that up for you to decide, but
what then can satisfy that void,
for me, its from my Lord, Jesus Christ.

whimsical nonsense @ 11:01 PM

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Friday, April 07, 2006

the barrier has been broken!
let us run into the battlefield
with our flag flying high
with our heads held up!
for we know that the Lord has brought us thus far

we rejoice that He has been with us through every step of the journey
and finally, we get to the last stage

dun get me wrong, im not celebrating our final victory
for the last hurdle still stands
unconquered
at least for now.

but whatever the case
truly the Lord was with us
each and every step of the way
and how the finals.

whimsical nonsense @ 11:44 PM

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Wednesday, April 05, 2006

down that road, to
the junction ahead.
a sign, a u-turn allowed,
but things continue, against its will

why cant the lights be in
everyone's favour, giving
a form of help to struggling
personalities, help stabalise.

its a long journey ahead, a specific
schedule to follow.
behind everything that's planned, desperately
trying to catch up.

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have you ever looked down?
looked back?

looked back? at the life you have
the life you've been living...
you think its a good life?
i wouldnt know...
i dun think ive ever really known a good life
juz a bad life...and a not so bad life

things must go on.
lets hope it gets better.
hope.

without hope, would life ever continue?
but what good is hope, if it ceases to exist?

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:19 PM

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Sunday, April 02, 2006

whee!

yesterday was such a fun day...

first bb...
well..its juz normal...

then left for the dep high tea thingy...
haha...some funny moments...
me chris and marvin went to the playground...haha
before we left...we being dep jnr 05 except for crawshaw who went home...
so...all 9 of us walked...
like from that goodwood hill place to cine eventually...
we walked till a bus stop outside far east plaza..decided wat to do..
went lido...then changed our minds and go cine to watch ultraviolet...
which was a like...weird show.
dinner!
went paragon to that din tai fung xiao long bao place i think...
then met vishal...and ate dinner...
and i felt so guilty cuz everyone waited for my food...
which tzekai accidentally missed out...
but not his fault...

well...its like watch a movie..dinner...go home...
quite routine...doesnt sound like fun...
but o well...i thought it was fun...
i think its more of the fellowship...heehee
all the funny talking...from the goodwood hill bungalow place thingy...
along the road...
all the way to far east plaza...
at the bus stop...the funny conversations going on bout where to go...
then at lido...the decision making...
and like even though we were discussing stuff...somehow jokes were here and there...
or at least funny stuff...teasing? i dunno
then walking to cine...and realising we only had 5 mins before the show started...
and the queue was like quite long...so some went up...some stayed down...a new line opened
and yay! we got tickets...
and we went in late...got seats on the first 2 rows...
like celine beulah....sarah deborah...all 4 in first row...separated by the aisle
chris lloyd tzekai marvin...me...us in the second row...separted by the aisle
i was alone! boohoo
lol...i didnt really mind though...
then like when the show was over...
we all like said it was a stupid movie...
complaning that our iqs all dropped...at least the ri guys...
haha
dinner was cool...mayb cuz vishal paid...
how nice.
and over dinner...lol
like major gossiping session?
but marvin and chris were so silent...lloyd and me too...
mainly vishal...celine and tzekai...
especialy those 2..my gosh! they were like some know it all person
celine and beulah know so much bout vishal...tzekai...a lot to say...
then well...shant say more
juz a gd dinner.

walking is gd.
dun u think so?
i thot the walks yesterday were really gd.

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:44 AM

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reply to tags...which is quite late.
i admit ive seen all the tags but have failed to address them.
sorry!

zhixin: bub bub is juz some nice guy in my class la...haha and yeah..wil try to sleep more..

huishi: heyas! right now im ok already..hopefully..take cares too!

jon: yeah..now everything is ok..and yes its angsty...but o well...

ek: haha...alright will let you noe...

bub quah: haha...dun ask me why so angsty la....its like a spur of the moment thing juz write...

rach: hello! yeah...prayer helps i guess...hm...shall ponder over what you said...thanx rach! =)

bunny: haha tell u for wat? i post on my blog u wanna see then u see lor...its difficult to say la

lis: hm...yeah..some things juz cant b explained...

whimsical nonsense @ 9:57 AM

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Saturday, April 01, 2006

wow...
what a tiring day...

the last day of gep camp...
not bad...
then slack a bit...kill time...
centrestage duty...
kill time again...
go mgs to watch expresso...
watch expresso...duh
go home.

and expresso is super good!
the performances were not bad...
i like the dances...the guest performers...were quite cool
then the rest of the gals dancing..its juz another dance la...
shant comment much...lest ppl start to think things...
i saw some ppl there...
seng...et...andrew tay..shawn quek...
josh hiew...jon tang...mark...
ethel...tiffany...gideon...
yeah..thats about it...i dun really noe a lot of ppl u see...

so like other than the dances...there were musical performances...
like piano recital or whatever...then a violin solo accompanied by piano...
a flute solo accompanied by piano...
a band performance...with drops of jupiter and some other song (cant rmb title)
then handbells (saw my sister...which is like why i went in the first place..to support her)
and...the last performance...
ELECTRICO!
whee...how cool.
shall upload some pics another time...if can rmb...
they were gd man...
and a lot of the gals...bet its mg gals scream...
and so..its loud.as usual...

then reach home only like around 11...
so tired...

nights.
sc

whimsical nonsense @ 12:16 AM

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