Saturday, February 25, 2006
haix, we lost.
hm...doing our mpp powerpoint again cuz we lost the first one...
the one which russ...ellius..shaun ong and marcus ting worked on while i was at jgs..
and when i reached ellius's house at 11+, marcus went home shortly after.
and now its like...
ok la...we did play a bit...and all those stuff...
but o well...im outside alone using the com...
cuz russ...ellius...shaun are all quite tired...
well...considering that their bedtime is usually about 2200 or 2230...
i dun blame them...
and im the only one who is like quite awake to finish up the 2nd powerpoint...
cuz yeah...im quite tired duh but bearable...im ok la.
the fact that im still blogging...lol
and also i didnt really help much in the first one...
i juz read through...changed some stuff here and there...and added the background...
so yeah...mayb now im contributing more la...lol
this is like probably the latest time ive ever blogged...
and like the mpp thing is tomorrow!
thats why we're trying to finish up.
but i really like our idea...o yeah! lol
hey girl i wanna catch your wave
whimsical nonsense @ 4:07 AM
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Wednesday, February 22, 2006
o man..yesterday's pe took height and weight...
im like super short and er...i say quite heavy?
cant exactly rmb wat was my height the last time i took it...
which was about...mid last year or approximately a year ago...
i think the approximately a year ago one i was 164cm...
then mid last year about 167cm?
but now im like only 168cm!
that isnt a lot of growth..and im still not 170cm! humph!
but enough of height..its so depressing...
there is weight...another rather depressing issue...
last year i was 52kg...this year...53kg!
thats 1 kg put on...
but it somehow doesnt matter much cuz it like swings from 52 to 53 to 52 again...
and sometimes...it even goes to like 54kg...
but thats cuz i juz ate...a lot...
i hope to stay below 55kg...for this year at least
unless the additional weight i put on is due to muscle!
lol
ill never be like mascular or wadever la...
i juz wanna get a silver/gold for napfa...
which seems like a difficult thing...
cuz im 15...doing pull ups...like whoa! i can barely do 2!
haix...last time can do 4...now muscles degenerate..
super weak...become heavier...
and my stamina...dunno whether faster or slower now...aiming for <10mins30secs
hm...
ooo..and today i collected my ic!
i look er...ok la...juz the frinch part a bit weird...seem lopsided...
but o well...
random song, Good Riddance (TIme of Your Life), by greenday...
Another turning point a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist directs you where to go
So make the best of this test and don't ask why
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
So take the photographs and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
It's something unpredictable
But in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
whimsical nonsense @ 8:39 PM
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Tuesday, February 21, 2006
ooo...
yesterday was invest...like my first prefects invest..
then after the like erm..investing..and collect cert..
then erm...yeah...
then i got permission..and i found adwyn...and russell
me and toh..
cuz like we werent meant to tour...then after some asking around...asking authoritative ppl...
or wadever...
we managed to like be allowed to go...
so toh and i went back to class to tell the teachers...
then walk around looking for a grp to tag along..and tada! adwyn!
so we followed him and russell...who was already following him...
and we found out the sch was temasek jc...
and we found out later they were sec4 ppl...
aiyah..read adwyns blog..its the same..juz im late.
lol
but they're really nice ppl...
but we didnt noe their names...
so weird...we bring them around the sch but dunno their names..lol
and they like end sch at 4+ 5+...thats like how late la!
but nvm.
whimsical nonsense @ 11:08 PM
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Sunday, February 19, 2006
alright
this post is like how overdue?
i think about 1 day...
it was FUN-O-RAMA yesterday!
how exciting...lol
but there was bb in the morning..and of course ppl would go for bb then pon bb and go fun-o-rama
cuz bb is fun! ok...i think.
and so...bb first...
after attendance taking...had drill...which was er...ok la...not gd..not bad...
then guild time...
at least i got to noe the sec1s in my society..and better noe the sec2s...
hopefully i get to noe all the sec2s in not only my society but wing..
and by the end of the year...the sec1s...
EPHESUS ROX!
and then the gd news...
for cohort time...we are going fun-o-rama!
lol..so we ended parade earlier...
but some decided to go home...or elsewhere...like adwyn who went ncs...and gid who went somewhere...
lol
haix..so sad...everyone wanted to strip him...its his Birthday!
right...so reached acjc at about 11.30...
met kiwi...then went to visit the scone cafe...
ate my breakfast there...a bowl of meesiam...overpriced at 5 bux...
but of course...funfair stuff are always overpriced...
and then walk around...until i had to do duty..at 12...
so during that walking around period...i saw
joshua hiew
limhui...
my elder sis...mom and younger sis...
jon tang
jiahan
hm...who else? dunno
then go for duty...1 hour..and still got free 10dollars coupon...supposed to do 2 hours then get..
but then again...
im not supposed to be doing duty...but due to miscommunication...
o well...im quite fine with it actually...since my mom allowed me to pon chinese tuition...
so i can stay until 6! =)
so...i went with luke to the backgate...
help open the gate etc..
quite slack..then halfway mr jonas chow came over to talk to us...
and while at the gate...i saw
uncle gene
suzanna, or however u spell it...(church)
samantha
jin, andrew tay, jem, seng, elendrus.
yeps...some ppl of the council...
and then finally..our sec2 replacements came
so luke and i went back to that cabin place...el5 to change back to casual wear..
then wait for edward...slack in that air-conditioned place a while...
before we went exploring..me..luke...edward and sir
like just walk around? lol
i had quite a lot of money...hm...was quite selfish...didnt share with the rest...
haix...mayb i shud...human nature...or rather...sinful nature
but o well...
i wanted to go to one of the haunted houses...but didnt in the end...
cuz like at that time edward and luke went home...
while sir didnt see any point in paying so much for something that might potentially scare you...
so o well...and going alone is BORING!
but its not sir's fault...lol...theres always next time! haha
but thats way ahead...we juz walk...and then everyone was thirsty...
went to find drinks...which were like...er..not a lot? haix.
and edward was hungry..so we bought mee siam at sir's sister's stall
my second bowl...which seemed to have more than edward's...lol
then edward went to buy more lunch cuz he was hungry..and luke too..
while sir and i tried to find stalls of our frens or siblings in my case
and then we walked some more...
basically we juz walked..didnt do much..didnt play much...
dunno why...
and then came the time when edward and luke had to leave...
so that left juz me and sir...
we continued walking...bought some more drinks as we were like thirsty?
it was a hot day..
until it rained in the afternoon? haix
then walk some more..before going to the like place where they sold stuff...
i bought a pink fun-o-rama shirt...
shud have gotten the white one...which was the nicest...
as when i wanted to buy later on...it ran out..haix
but o well...pink is sexy! lol
as sir said, "only true guys wear pink"
and its not a case of sour grapes...wats wrong with guys wearing pink?
i saw past council...yiyang i think...wearing a bright pink shirt..
then anyway...we juz bought stuff...
wont elaborate...
but then yeah..then went home...
and i had a good talk with sir about commitments and all those stuff...
thats troubling me...
saw jlau..and april...
talked for a bit before rushing off...lol
and unfortunately...i heard from auggie..whom i say...that acs lost twice at ncs...
didnt break...haix
mayb i shudnt have gone fun-o-rama...
like how could i b having fun...when they're not doing so well?
sorry.
went taman jurong cc and met up with the bb band dudes...lol
then went home to do hw..haix.
and im blogging when i still have hw to do...
tmrs is invest!
where does it lie?
both
where do i want to place it?
i dunno.
can it be left at both?
technically yes, in reality...no
choose...
difficult choices lay ahead...
some say too far ahead...dun worry too much bout it
dun think too much about it...
its wat they all say...
yet they dun noe the full extent of the dilemma i face inside...if thats how u spell that word..
the difficulty of a choice that could impact my life
how i see things...
i really dunno.
making this decision
is deja vu
the outcome i hope
can be too
yet inside, i noe the answer to that hope.
never.
unless...
im sick of this choice...
this crossroads...
but i only have myself to blame...
argh!
whimsical nonsense @ 10:18 PM
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Wednesday, February 15, 2006
yay! today is like holiday!
and so i juz slacked at home..as usual
wanted to wake up at 8...ended up waking up at 9++
haix
regretted going back to sleep...nooooo!
and like quite bored...tried to do homework...
tried to...
watched tv...more tv...
sleep?
and i watched before sunset!
its er...nc16...but i dun see anything wrong with it...
juz a few f words here and there...
the word sex appears a few times...but even that happens in pg movies...
i think its the f word bit...but i still think if possible shud b nc14...lol
nways...it was really really good man!
i love before sunset..mayb shud try to watch before sunrise again...
lol
its such a nice show!
still rmb the first time when my sis ask me to watch with her...
and i was like..huh? this show the whole thing is this guy Jesse (Ethan Hawke) and Celine (Julie Delphy..or Delphi...dunno..but its Julie..i think)
yeah...both of them juz talk and talk and talk and talk...and then the end of the show
but who could have knew that such banter actually held so many meanings...
that it actually filled the 9 year gap between their last meeting
and its like really cool...the diff topics they talk about...
first about wat theyve been doing...then to religion or stuff like that...love...relationships...
and finally like er...i dunno...
the way it like transitions from the diff topics is smooth...but mayb the topics werent really like distinctly marked out...
but like wat do monks have to do with love? other than that part where celine (the character of course) said this ex of hers...some handsome dude went to one of the monasteris or wadever..how u spell it..and then one of the monks asked him...can i ....
i wont say..in case i offend anyone...but if u wan...either watch or er...ask me? lol
and from the tone...topics and their mood..u can tell whether how that person feels...
as they talk about wat has happened in the past 9 years...
the assumptions they made and realized they were only assumptions...
cuz the other party juz confessed to a lot of things...
and its like...really...weird..
cuz one moment im like..hm..this show is like one of those love shows...
and then u feel the chemistry..the love between celine and jesse is like real...genuine..sincere...
like how sweet.
awwwww
and then the next u juz see celine exploding...and everything that she has bottled up for the past 9 years...that like seem to have no relevance to wat they were talking about...
or mayb there is..shud pay attention more...
and like she juz went on and on...and jesse juz listened...
before his turn came to explain...and like i dunno..but they were gd later...
i dunno how to say...
who knew a show juz filled with conversation...could provide one with much enjoyment.
a quote from the show...said by celine (character...)
"memory is a great thing if you don't have to deal with the past"
whimsical nonsense @ 11:08 PM
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Monday, February 13, 2006
some quiz i ripped off lis blog..
What brands are your...right now
1. Wallet/ Purse : Quiksilver, Ripcurl
2. bag(s) : Deuter, The North Face (pirated i think)
3. Slipper/Shoes : nil
4. Sport Shoes : Adidas, Nike
5. School Uniform : Bibi and Baba
6. Planner: nil
8. Handphone : Nokia
9. Earrings: er...do guys have ear holes? at least not me!
10. Pen : Pilot
11. Foolscap pad: Anglo-Chinese School (Independent)!!!
12. Clock : dunno, some random brand..
13. Shampoo : hm...not sure..
14. Shower Gel/ Soap : dove thingy...
15. Toothbrush : colgate
16. Bedsheet : dunno...dun bother to check..
17. Television : er...cant rmb i think phillips
18. MP3: dun have one... :(
19. Fan/ Air -cond : Daikin!! the brand that reminds me of neville..lol
20. Eye Shadow : nope! dun use eye shadow...
21. Lip Gloss : nor lip gloss
22. Mascara: wat on earth is mascara? isnt it like some eye thingy too?
23. Perfume/ cologne : nah...dun have
24. Nail Polish : er...dunno wat brand..ask adwyn/bryan/lloyd who bought nail polish for me!!!
25. Toothpaste : Colgate!
26. Body Moisturiser : hm...
27. Glasses/ Contact Lens : dunno...weird brand i think..
28. Pencil Case : quiksilver, op
29. Watch : nah...dun use a watch...hp is gd enuf i think..
30. Trackpants: dun wear trackpants...or rather dun own one...
31. Travel Bag : huh? not some rich ppl who travels a lot..
32. Camera: er...kyocera and finepix...buts the familys..not my personal one..so sad!
33. Pyjamas : i dunno...oo...some is my mom sew! filled with mother's love!
34. Undies: hm..lemme check... omg! can u stop staring when im checking?!
35. Cigarette: camel..marlboro...depends on my mood... harhar
36. Mosq spray : wats mosquito spray?
37. Room Freshener : my room stinks.
38. hair gel/wax : er...gatsby? and some small tube of loreal gel from my sis...
39. Headphones: er...panasonic?
40. computer : dunno...random parts pieced together...
41. Anti perspirant: huh? didnt noe such a thing existed!
42. Fax machine: dun have one...
43. Printer: hp
44. Bath towel: dunno..
45. Bookshelf: too long ago to rmb
this is quite a weird quiz man...
its valentines day tmr!
wonder wat my frens r doing...heehee
whimsical nonsense @ 10:16 PM
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Friday, February 10, 2006
by God's grace, we won.
a tight, close match-up
with a debrief gd enough to give one a nervous breakdown.
but the relief.
o well...next time...next time...
whimsical nonsense @ 11:11 PM
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Thursday, February 09, 2006
haix, so long never post...
all the assignments...
ive finished chem and physics...
only to get one more physics assignment...
chinese postponed to next monday...luckily...
math due tmr...which im trying to do now...
tmr!
sch...like duh!
then prefects investiture rehearsal...then GOH...or guard of honour for founders day...
then go cheams place...get ready to go for jgs!
quite sad that i wont b speaking...but heys...im only sec3...theres next year..lol
and nvm...cannot say some stuff on the blog...
aiyoh! like tmr need to bring 2 shoe bags...so troublesome..
one for court shoes...the other for boots...which i have to polish later on...
eeyer...
wat a long day...
not to mention saturday too...
and not to mention having to do chinese assignment...
ive like only drafted out chapter 1 and 2...hope to finish 3 and 4 tonight...leaving 5, 6, 7 and 8...
like nooooo! i gotta work harder...
go sam! sam will always support you...=)
hm...
a thought occured to me last night...
am i really a jack of all trades master of none?
or did i juz make myself seem to be one? at least in my own eyes...
i mean all this could be my own subconscious/unconscious doing...
like i somehow try to do everything to the best of my ability...
i mean dun like everyone try to do that...
and so while in sec1...being the quite guai guy i was...
went for all the bb parades...trying not to miss one...
and at that time pon never existed in my dictionary...
and i also went for the debate trainings in sec1...being quite regular..i think
and then in sec2...er...i got promoted to the team for debate i guess...
then bb erm..still regular dude?
yeah...then now sec3...
well...still in the team for debate...still quite regular in my attendance for bb...
and now a prefect...
and of course i try to do my best for all...
spreading my energy between studies...debate...bb and prefects
not to mention other commitments?
and so i dun focus on one...dun try to be like exceptionally good at one...
like i dun quite read much in debate...cuz like lazy? and mayb not a lot of time?
cant commit fully to bb cuz i have debate commitments...
prefects would take some time i guess...
but mainly its between db8 and bb...who have been like there since sec1...
if i wasnt so on in db8...i would have most probably joined bb band...i think
and if i wasnt so on in bb...then ill be some full-time debater like lloyd...
since he doesnt care two hoots about his ncc land...
hm...
so much rubbish talk here...
yet no truck to come and collect it...
the foul odour overwhelming even the man with that high tolerance level
and juz too much rubbish!
dam!
wat we're learning for geog...
how cool la...
jgs tmr!
but not without invest rehearsal and GOH...haix
shud i join syf? (14 saturdays...morning to afternoon..juz drill i think)
whimsical nonsense @ 7:44 PM
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Monday, February 06, 2006
whee!
i had a short momont of happiness that i havent felt for a really long time...
no thanx to ever since coming back from vietnam...
as in like vietnam is nice...
and after vietnam...all the chinese new year stuff...its like really happy
but juz now that few seconds..its juz different...
its like an inward kind of happiness...
not saying the happiness i felt when with my frens were like a false happiness..
but this one...mayb it stood out more cuz the past few days...whenever i come on the com
it juz makes me feel quite depressed...stressed mayb?
and sometimes pissed...like yesterday.
ah...now wat gave me that "happy feeling"?
lol...its sending an email to myself!
cuz its like i was on my third and last hotmail account...then i wanted to save this website
for chemistry assignment...but didnt wanna use a word doc
so i sent an email to myself...
to the jesus_saved_me_and_the_world@hotmail.com account...
which is the first hotmail account...or first account i check...
so that means that i would rmb that i have chem assignment and thus do it...
and in that mail..it said something like
nanotech article, get it from here.
http://www.guardian.co.uk/uk_news/story/0,3604,1272392,00.html#article_continue
gd luck sam! =)
(btw...i changed my article...but it doesnt concern u...so nvm)
then i replied...of course...
so its when i was replying...
i dunno why...
but mayb becuz im sending something...im like talking to someone
whom i noe i noe
it seems now...that the ppl whom i thot i knew...are just strangers to me...
strangers i noe...yet i dun
ppl walking down the street...and i'll be like...hey...and like mayb say a few words?
but deep down...in like the real word...not the matrix above...
weird dude...hi...talk talk talk...
both of us walk away...and either say to our frens or ourselves if we're alone...
hm...whos that weird dude i juz talked to?
ok nvm..that doesnt make sense
stupid strangers surrouding sam
making me
completely confused
to the
pertaining problems
hounding his
mind.
ok..i think there are like a lot of grammatical errors...but i dun care!
i like the stupid stranger surrounding sam line...
its like...so...nice..mayb cuz sam is in there...
whee! i love my name...im random.
bleh.
poor sam
going thru a bad patch...
like having stupid ppl i noe but dun noe problems...
looks like the only one that i can turn to is like me...
as from the beginning of this post...it seems to be the case...
or mayb im juz not...appreciative enuf of my other frens...
and make many crucial mistakes...
making life worse than wat it could be...if i chose another course of action...
a different path to take...
if only...
all the ifs and wat not...doesnt make a diff
cuz its like...IF...not like...real stuff?
all the possibilities...
remain possibilities
until they become not possiblities but action that has been taken...
work done.
which reminds me of physics...
nooo...
but lets get back to happiness...
nvm...
i cant help thinking bout that stranger i used to noe
i wonder how long ive been blind...
how long my eyes have been covered by the lies and deceits
argh!
i wonder if all this is juz paranoia...is that how u spell it?
fine...wonder if im paranoid.
full stop.
whimsical nonsense @ 9:19 PM
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Sunday, February 05, 2006
ARGH!
DAMNIT!
shit man!
i try to not care
but i cant
which only makes it all the more SHIT!
whimsical nonsense @ 10:07 PM
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| You Are 40% Weird |
Normal enough to know that you're weird...
But too damn weird to do anything about it! |
| You Are 24% Abnormal |
You are at low risk for being a psychopath. It is unlikely that you have no soul.
You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.
You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection.
You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.
You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer. |
ah...some of lloyds thingy...
i think the abnormal part is like not accurate...mayb i anyhow did the quiz...hm..
the weird part is So funny...i think its like...quite true..
eh no..i dun think im that weird wat...i always thot im normal...
aiyah i dun particularly care...
not when i have physics, chemistry, core math, chinese assignments to be done...
i wonder how i'll survive this year...
debate...boys brigade...prefects...
and im like...wanna b in exco for debate...in admin from bb...council? mayb...not sure if can...
and like for bb aiming to have a gd position in admin...
aiyah
ill juz probably die from too much work...all the coursework and all those
and it doesnt help that im a social failure...
at least half social failure...
haix
whimsical nonsense @ 9:29 PM
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Wednesday, February 01, 2006
O GOSH!
i miss msn messenger!
but nvm...
its now back to sch!
after friday..which i would count as a sort of no-lessons day..although we did...
after saturday...sunday...monday..tuesday...wednesday...6 days of no sch...
or at least no lessons...
but i got like lots of hw
zhouji...chinese coursework...
physics coursework...
chemistry coursework...
core math assignment..a test next week...worksheet this friday...
language arts A essay...
and ive only done the lang arts essay!
gd thing only the core math wks also due this week..the rest next week...
o man!
i cant rush it...
and if my com is sent for repairing...o great.
mayb shud finish my coursework asap then can send for repair sooner...
then can get back msn msg...lol
its sooooooo boring without msn msg...
and its so difficult to understand lessons...
mayb shud sleep earlier...hm...
whimsical nonsense @ 9:41 PM
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Samuel Chan
7 January 1991
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shuqun primary school
Henry Park Primary School
Anglo-Chinese School (Independent)
acdb8 / bb12thcoy / acspb / ac cross country
