along the cobbled sidewalks of life

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

chinese new year...

its like go to ppls house and collect hongbao...
but thats not really the best part...
mayb cuz i dun collect a lot..compared to other ppl...
but i think its more cuz there are better things to look forward to during chinese new year than just money and red packets..

so first day..visit my grandfather...
my only grandparent left...and the only one that i can remember...
the other 3 either passed away before i was borned or when i was too small to rmb...haix
wish i could have at least some kind of memory...
but o well...ate lunch...see my cousins...which is like only 4...
the 2 brothers of my mom...each one of them 2 children...
see...how little cousins i have on my moms side...
but its gd la...at least i know all of them...more of like a cosy kind of feeling...
then visit my mother's aunty..the eldest one...
and eat more..haha
watch tv and get quite bored...
visit my mother's other aunty...
eat a bit more...watch more tv...
then visit my father's eldest brother...
and watch tv...eat more...
like watch australian open final..mens...
but then later watched the longest yard as said in my previous post i think...
so missed it...so sad hor?
then er...eat a bit...
before eating dinner at my uncle's place...kfc!
lol
so in other words get fat...cuz fast food is like almost NEVA healthy...
then go home..slack...go online...like the previous post!

next day...
this time mostly on my father's side...
so visit my father's erm...3rd sister...i think
its like...
my father's eldest brother...
my father's eldest sister...
my father's second brother...
second sister..
third sister...
fourth sister...
third brother
him!
the youngest of his family...
and so almost all of my cousins on my father's side is like very old?
and the one that bought us the kfc at my father's eldest brothers place...
the oldest of the cousins...like hm..mayb shudnt anyhow say...juz 30++
then i have 4 cousins married already..all females...
some got baby...
and very cute! haha
so visit this erm...guma, which is wat i call my fathers sisters...
with something before like tai, but the rest i dunno how to type out..so nvm
then eat lunch...
which is like good..as usual..
then watch tv...in this other room..separate from the adults..how cool
er..scrolled thru the channels...like espn which showed pool...trick shot competition thingy...
or mtv...which is wat my younger sister wanna watch...
or the chinese mtv...which is wat my elder sister wanna watch...
or juz go to the other channels...
and i wanted cartoon network cuz they had it in vietnam and it like reminded me of it...
haix...i miss vietnam..and Dalat...that cool cool place up on the highlands...
then eat more rubbish...
before watching erm...this super nice show...but hard to understand
"Eternal Sunshine in a Spotless Mind"
starring Jim Carrey, Kate Winslet, Kirsten Dunst, Elijah Wood, Michael something..juz that guy from Just like Heaven...and of course other ppl la
and contrary to Jim Carrey movies..its not stupid or like lame comedy thingy...
its much more deep...something like before sunset...
look like an independent film...
and then talks about this relationship between his character and kate winslet's character...
before she erased him from her memory...and after he found out...he was stunned
so he got the doc who did the process to erase her from his memory too...
and then like he started to fight it cuz he didnt want her to leave his memory...
and then like somewhere in the middle i slept...lol
then woke up and continued watching...
but i dun think i missed much...
but basically he caused a lot of problems in the erasing process...
cuz like he fought it...
and then like they switch scenes here and there...
especially since the beginning...
its like u dunno which part they showed...
the beginning showed them meeting...
but in the end it was their second meeting...after like their memories have been erased...
is it?
not very sure...its juz very confusing...is it his memory or the present?
but its a very cool show...really nice...quite touching...
and lots of scandals...

next was to visit my mother's uncle..then talk...eat a bit more...watch some funny show
its like super old..mayb 1995 at the latest i think...
but got jackie chan..but its more of a minor character...
and like its one of those shows that will make u laugh at the show
cuz its juz so stupid...like wuliao but funny...
then the last stop...
my father's erm...3rd sister's house...
which is like where all the siblings of my father gather...
eat dinner..watch tv..play mahjong...talk and catch up
but cuz me and my 2 sis dun really like talk to our cousins...cuz we're one of the younger ones...
the rest are like 20+ and 30+...so a bit hard to like...relate?
and there are like 3 others around our age...but we dun really mix around with them...
dunno why...
so juz watch tv...or use the com later on...
and then watch more tv! and sit around...drink soft drinks...
then go home...and er...slack around before sleeping late...
i feel like learning mahjong when i got time...
but hm...that will be...erm...um...wait long long...thats all i noe...
o but some of my relatives all say im grew taller...
and im like really arh? yay!
cuz i wanna grow taller..at least reach the 170cm mark...
which last time it was measured...i stood at a height of 167cm...so sad hor?
dunno if i grew fatter...lol

and so today...shant state wat happened...
but my sister's choir frens came...not all
juz 4 of them...
then i went to buy movie tickets for 4 of them...
3 of her frens and my elder sister...1 of them couldnt make it...
plus my younger sister...and me!
they were watching the 1545 show at jurong point...
actually i wasnt sure whether to go or not...cuz its like quite pointless...
to watch Memoirs of a Geisha twice...
lol but i still watched it twice...
i like Mameha...
i think thats how u spell it...
shes so cool man...and the voice is like...really nice...
juz that her danna is like some pervert...lol
and i can rmb the mizuage part...
but nvm...
sweet plum or cherry?
you mean to eat?
i like sweet plum myself! *laughs*

i think i would prefer sweet plum...
how cool...

o man...
now that cny is over..
its back to homework and the likes...
o dear...
hope the xtra day tmr is enuf to help me finish them...

memoirs of a geisha is nice...
not entirely cuz of the geishas...
the music is cool...wan the soundtrack...lalala

may the chinese new year period be filled with red packets and money notes
but more so with the love and joy of ones family =)

whimsical nonsense @ 10:47 PM

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Sunday, January 29, 2006

right...

if not for the fact that its chinese new year...
i think life would be like very sad...
it was a great way to end the old chinese year...or whatever
and o...pls note the sarcasm...
i mean like ok...friday was a good day...
like went back to hpps...saw some of the teachers...
then played a bit of soccer where i realised im like really bad...
and then went westmall to watch memoirs of a geisha...

memoirs of a geisha
good show...
a bit wrong...like er...the selling of ur mizuage?
and i thot geishas sold their skills...
by the way...mizuage...
zhang ziyi's character at first didnt noe wat it was...as in wat it meant...
heres how michelle yeoh's character explained it...
along the lines of like...
sometimes...a man's eel wants to enter a woman's cave...
when a woman's cave is unexplored...you still have your mizuage...
or something like that..juz the eel and cave analogy thingy is like...correct
quite sick right?
then after the movie ate at swensens...
which mayb wasnt such a gd idea...
cuz i had dinner at home...so did nicolas...
lol
so nicolas and i juz ate ice cream while like the 3 gals...samantha..chermaine and huishi juz ate one plate of the breaded chicken thingy...like one plate...3 ppl...
man...they eat so little!
zx had the black pepper beef thingy..lol
while bryan...or if u go by his primary sch nick..bunny...
was true to his roots..and at the caesars salad...
haha...looks like a bunny can never resist his veg...heh
too bad i was the first to leave from swensens...
and even more sad that gabby had to go home after the movie...
o well...
then go home eat more...
and er...i dunno...i think juz relax?

sat
its time to go for BB!
not bad la parade...
had a talk about nyaa..and mayb bb week by mr ng
then guild time...
and yeah man! society 3 juz thrashed society 4 la
society 3 rox!
but society 4 is cool man...the whole ephesus is THE wing.
like our ephesus seniors...hide the yellow balls around the sch..then socieity 3 and 4...which consists of ephesus 1 and 2 in s3 while e3 and 4 in s4.
and so...s4 found the first yellow ball..they get the next clue first...then we get the second clue...
reach there later..but darren chua found it...whee! ocpa!
and then after that...we juz thrashed them la...
the score later became 8-2...
before they decided to clear all scores...make it 0-0
so i think we still found the first ball...then they found the second...
the third...nobody could find...until dycsm fabriz tong found it..
so still tie...ah...
then juz slack around...until er...the sec2s left for water games while sec3s went for ce test...
nooo...study nehemiah...which i didnt...then do ce test...
gd thing open book...
then after test...peer appraisal...then dismissal!
we were the last la...the rest of the company dismissed already liao..juz left the sec3s...
then i slack around...called home and realised that there was going to be lunch...
so that means not going for lunch with the seniors...
like minghan...kiwi..matthew..jonathan kong...
then slack a bit...change into shoes...and at the same time explained what mizuage meant to minghan...
which i started to explain to him during the free time waiting for the rest to finish their peer appraisal form...
lol
like me and bryan started to ask him...have u sold ur mizuage?
its like so funny...seeing his reaction...
so yeah..went home...eat lunch...
then er...i think sleep...and then go church...
some funny church..mount carmel...
which is the mother church...of my church...Mount Hermon Bible-Presybterian Church...
a branch of Mount Carmel Bible-Presbyterian Church...
with Hebron...Mount Horeb and Mount Gerizim...its like the mountain churches...lol
then went home for reunion dinner...
steamboat!
how cool...
so eat...eat some more...then after that my sister ..elder..played the piano...
while i practiced playing chords...
and my younger sister set up the board thingy for game of life...
lol...
so long never play..and tv shows were like...not nice?
so juz play...
my mom didnt play cuz she needed to cook...
so...i had like the highest salary...but ended up 2nd richest player...
lost to my father...so sad hor?
by like only a few hundred thousand...
then 2nd game...this time with my mother...
o man...i got like the 2nd lowest salary...ended the game with less than half a million...
490 000 bux...short by 10 000
and usually u end above a million for that game...
im like so suay...
then juz stay up...unitl 2?
lol...then sleep.

first day of cny
wake up almost 10..shower..and then go visit my grandfather...eat lunch...
then go to tai yipos place...or my mother's mother's elder sister...
or grandmother's elder sister...
then eat a bit more...then rest...then visit my grandmother's elder sister...another one i think...
or siew yee yipo...or thats wat we call her..
eat a bit..only a bit...mainly watch tv...haha
then visit my father's eldest brother...
watch tv...then ate kfc dinner there...cuz my cousin...
like the eldest among all my cousins including my siblings and i...
he is like above 35!
lol
but i guess its not that drastic compared to some ppl i noe...
but nways...we watched the longest yard there...quite cool...
home!
and read newspapers...
and go online...

but msn is not working!
like great man.
bleh

happy lunar new year
xin nian kuai le

but lots of coursework and homework ahead...
xue ye jin bu

and napfa too!
shen ti jian kang

may all my wishes..and yours come true
wan shi ru yi

whimsical nonsense @ 10:37 PM

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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

SE7EN things that make me smile:
1) God, creator of me! who saved me! =)=)
2) friends =)
3) family!
4) when i get praised! so ego hor?
5) doing well in my tests, academic and non academic...
6) a funny joke!
7) seeing Manchester United WIN IT ALL!

SE7EN ways to win my heart (right now):
1) make me know that im loved
2) give me the answers to all the questions i have bout life
3) have another vietnam oep...or oep to somewhere else!
4) help me fix my computer and msn...
5) lessen my homework load or juz scrap school la!
6) help me improve in debate =P
7) new phone! ok not that materialistic...or mayb not...

SE7EN things I believe in:
1) God
2) Love
3) Friendships, real and lasting ones
4) Talent coupled with hardwork, or just weird love
5) passion (not lustful passion or love kind, but passion for sch, wat u believe in...*er...*)
6) spare the rod and spoil the child
7) striking a balance between the above!

SE7EN things I'm afraid of that are just BLAH:
1) God and his wrath/nature at its worst
2) the dark. sometimes.
3) losing my frens
4) being dao-ed
5) getting demoralised/losing one's motivation
6) not getting good enough results
7) my reflection

SE7EN things that I do everyday:
1) sleep
2) eat
3) shower?
4) become fat against my wish...
5) sleep more
6) going haix
7) sleep! =)

SE7EN people I want to see right now:
1) God, or rather feel his presence and "see" him
2) all my friends! including those who dao me...wait that doesnt make sense..but nvm...
3) the love of my life?
4) 3.09 classmates, teachers and Long in Vietnam! haha
5) the stranger i met last year
6) friends whom i consider friends but have never really seen them personally before...
7) someone who can fix my com...

SE7EN people who should also do this:
nah...i dun think i have time to er tell other ppl
and chances are they already got it...
so yeah...
the SE7EN ppl shud juz be anyone who wants to do it
you can be first...and always be first! =)
if u dun get it..u dun..too bad...
or rather..you're normal
if u get it...whee! ur gd...and normal.
aiyah nvm la!
im plain weird...too much homework...
*need...to...adjust...to...coursework overload!*

sam *still missing vietnam oep* chan

whimsical nonsense @ 11:05 PM

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Tuesday, January 24, 2006

o man...
im not sure wat exactly happened...
or isit juz pure coincidence...
but why is it that suddenly after i did something...
or at least when i did it while i werent around...
everything changes...not really for the better but more so for the worse

its like suddenly everything is really not wat it used to be...
it was like so much better previously...
i mean like yeah..it was a cool experience...but coming back from that...
its juz not that nice already...everything changes...youre puzzled by the change
you wonder wat was it that caused it...
you wonder...
you allow your mind to think of things that doesnt seem likely
but it seems to be the possible...most feasible that you can come up with at the moment...
but deep down...you really think that its not wat happened...
but then...youre still trying to find an answer that would satisfy that curiousity burning inside

o man...! i really wanna noe wat is going on!
like why is wat is happening now happening?
its juz too weird...
that something must have had happened...for this to be taking place...
haix
or mayb im juz paranoid...over sensitive...
thinking too much..
and actually there is nothing going on...
nothing much have changed...
except me..
and i start to think in that warped manner...paranoia...is that how u spell it?
haix
im quite sure its juz me...
but yet...i really want to know the real reason...
and not just leave it at ...juz me...

can anyone enlighten me?

schnappy?

whimsical nonsense @ 10:50 PM

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Friday, January 20, 2006

life.sucks.

now i know where i stand.

whimsical nonsense @ 11:36 PM

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Thursday, January 19, 2006

alright.

blog bout oep bout another time...cuz no time..
and only typed like 2 of the many days in vietnam...
so rather do all one shot...

so..back in Singapore...
doubt ive been missed...lol
mayb by my family la...
but i bet reality and sch misses me
now im back..they can go back to making life not as happy...
back to sch
reality
homework
etc

haix

missing vietnam...

whimsical nonsense @ 11:11 PM

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LONG!

that is the super nice tour guide that my class got for oep vietnam.
its pronounced like long as in that snake is long...quite cool
and he is really really nice...so sad to say goodbye la!
like can cry...seriously...

and so...bout vietnam...
i have to use words...cuz most of my pics are in mr ferdinand queks laptop...
as i ran out of memory space and had to download it into to his laptop to clear my card...
and im quite lazy to download the little pictures i have...
and most unfortunate and importantly...my stupid com juz died..
like i can use internet explorer...itunes...not sure bout the rest...
but almost couldnt use microsoft word...
cannot check my gmail account...cannot use msn msg...like wat the...
but nvm...will not let these problems stop me from blogging bout
vietnam!

wat a great oep man!
like really memorable...its like the most exotic place compared to the other oep destinations
like shanghai...kunming...lijiang...but mayb not sarawak...lolx
so like u get to learn a whole new culture...
tackle the language problem...and learn some key terms and phrases..like thank you
which everyone in my class noes by now..lolx

so first u finish the airport customs wadever...
take some pictures..and board the bus to go to Amara Hotel...in Saigon
a cool place...first day...bunking with russell!
then lalala...then go for dinner at some cruise...or rather a boat that doesnt bob up and down
and then after eating...it would start to move..and the river which it was on stinks
then saw a dance...
like this gal...quite developed..but still looks like a gal..say 19? i dunno
zhang got a video...heehee
then like she juz dance..then later she stripped...until her costume for her second item
some mini skirt? i dunno..and this erm...top...much like the top of a bikini?
and like it has some metal stuff...like armour kind..haha
hard to describe...
then like do lots of stuff with fire...
like put in her mouth...sustain a fire...using her mouth..much like a lighter...
and then like rub her body with fire...
cool performance...er...
i mean...hot performance?
then go back hotel..slack..shower..bathe..prepare for day 2!

day 2 we leave for dalat
this faraway place...according to the booklet given...it is 308km...
considering the traffic and the speed at which a bus can go...
that can take quite long
and traffic i dun mean heavy traffic but lots of motorbikes cutting here and there
having to go slowly cuz later like crash...i dunno?
so occupy ourselves..card games..though i didnt play...my frens
try to play the guitar..daniel yee's guitar of course
and i still cant play...but at least i can change chords a bit faster..but not fast enuf yet...
yet of course...
then make a lot of noise which we got scolded from the next day...
and stop for lunch...toilet breaks
and we even stopped at this cool tea plantation
where u see lots of tea leaves being grown and made ready for like to bring to other places
and finally reach at like evening...
the place is really cool...like going up some hills..at some points...nearer dusk
and like can feel the bus quite stuffy...and then found out the air con was off...
so i open the window...stick my hand out..
and like whoa! its cool la...muz b the altitude...but it was really cool
then after a while the back of the bus...where i was sitting with russell and other ppl...
became quite cold..so back to closing the window..haha
then at dalat can change rooming...so i was rooming with daniel yee now...
which i roomed with for the rest of oep...
and so...the Chan Brothers have been disbanded...harhar
lolx
the hotel...Novotel is like smaller...as in the room...and i think the whole building in general...
and not carpeted...but i dun care! its a very cosy room...
and like no aircon! cuz u juz open the windows and it'll b cool...like serious...
and then dan and i woke up the next morning...haha...
quite cold...didnt expect it
i still rmb...wake up...like still tired...half alseep...
then first thing i do is take specs..take out camera and go take picture
haha
cuz got like sunrise...super nice la! if only can show the picture
but haix...some had to be deleted...cuz no space..and i was trying to save space before i gave up and downloaded to sir's com...
so only have bout...2 or 3...hope its 3...*hoping..hoping...*
then eat breakfast...lalala
and then all the scenic parts...
like trekking up Mount Langbiang...
visiting the Valley of Love...
though i didnt really feel all that inspired
simply because we juz spent like say...10-15 mins there?
and its only like some valley...wouldnt say its exactly that gd...
cuz ur quite faraway from that valley...
but we took one class photo with the eagle statue there...
so cool right?
i think im starting to like my class...
mayb becuz i already noe everyone there...like all gep! juz some i dun noe personally..
at least not yet! ah...that is gonna change i hope...
and then after that..we manage to go back to the hotel...izzit?
cant exactly rmb..but then we went to this cool place for dinner...
like this restaurant itself is a building...like those chinese place
you noe like in the forbidden city got lots of buildings/rooms...
yeah..something like that..then eat dinner there...
my table...with russell..danyee...some other geps and some mainstreamers...
like caught fire...
cuz the solid fire used for the fire for the steamboat thingy like dropped to the table cloth
lol...how cool...or hot... -.-
then we left for some place not too far off
but i was one of the last cuz i had to go to the toilet...
and my teacher..mr ferdinand quek waited for me...
then as we were walking...the bright moon was shining down upon us..
and he was telling me how the moon is always associated with lunacy...
then i was like quite freaked out...in an extremely minor way...
but in a way that when i looked at it..can juz imagine...like those older times..
say china like hundreds of years ago...
and like some mad woman was like screaming...being mad..and pointing and screaming at the bright moon above...
the same bright moon that im looking at...
lol
so at this place..we gathered round a fire...
in the booklet...everyone gathers round a cosy camp fire and watch the native ppl dance...
so yeps! a cosy camp fire...with the hill tribe ppl i suppose...
they did some dances for us...which was quite cool...and then some of the students joined in...
plus the teachers..
then at the end they asked everyone...so i went!
along with majority of the student population there...lolx
then go back to the hotel and of course...sleep...
har har right...we muz always have crashers or crash others right?
lolx...i think my room got crashed by russell...lloyd..darrell..bryan and er...i think thats bout it
and liket he night before we left for Dalat...
which was the first night actually...we had to make groups..so that like safety in numbers
and so my group consists of me..duh...russell..dan yee...darrell and bryan..
and thus russ..darrell and bunny...along with lloyd became the regular crashers of my room
which is also daniel yee's room...
then the next day..check out of Novotel...that cool hotel we stayed in while in Dalat...
visited this Emperor's summer palace...
which isnt really a palace but a really big house...
and this Emperor, emepror Bao Dai...is like the last emperor of Vietnam...
cool house...and had to wear funny shoe coverer thingys...dunno wat for...
then go to Saigon...
then stop for this water fall place...Ponguor Water Fall!
like a cool place...really nice!
too bad the pictures all about the same angle!
wah! really regret not going a bit out to get different angles!:(
then go to Saigon..then lunch...then like
back to Amara...
made stops for lunch..toilet and this shop...
reached the hotel at 6+...quite dark already...then go for dinner...
then back to hotel and crashing the rooms again...lol
so the next day...
visited the War Museum...
not a bad place...
then go take this small ferry to go to Thoi Son island...or unicon island...
and then visited the like ppl living there...
we even managed to go down this really cool river place thingy...
its quite narrow...and the boat is like u sit alone...
or single file...and only 4 ppl...or my boat had 5..plus the tour guide for that part...not Long..
plus the 2 ppl moving and steering the boat...
i think that area is the Mekong Delta if im not wrong...
quite sure of it...
back to Saigon...dinner...i think at this place called the Blue Ginger...
or was it the night before...wait..its the night before
that dinner place is like one of the better ones...
the ambience...or wadever..
the food all about the same la!
salad...soup...fish...beef...pork...lol
a lot of veg! noooo...but its quite ok la...
juz the food almost the same everyday...haix...but got diff..a bit
like in the way its prepared i guess...so not too bad...
then yeah...crash rooms...sleep.
o wait!
we managed to squeeze in about 1half hours to go shopping!
so cool right?
so checked out Ben Thanh Market...the place we were supposed to shop at on day 6!
so its like some kind of scouting thing...lol
didnt buy much..juz looked around....
and then like wake up..day 6!
visit cuchi tunnel...
where i freaked out...but more of that later...
we walked thru this forest kind of area...
saw one of the many booby traps...
like this erm..covering...and in the middle there is this axle...
so like if u step on it u fall down...
into this pit with many sharp bamboo poles...
like *ouch!*
seriously...it looked and quite sure that it is painful...
then visited some parts of the tunnel...
and like in the end...went into it..
so we went into this room..after a short journey through this tunnel...
which is like the standard size...
where one has to duck walk...or go on all 4s to go through...
nopes...no standing...not even if ur a hobbit...
or mayb can..juz bend the head down...
thats how low it is la!
then we sort of separated from the guide...
the we being this group of ppl...me..plus my frens..plus 2 of our 3 teachers...
i think...
cuz we stayed behind a bit...
then go inside the tunnel...
i volunteered to go first..which i later regretted...
it was like super dark!
except for small lights at the side of the tunnel...
and sometimes i randomly use the camera to take a picture...
then the flash gave me a flash of wat was to come...
and i look at the picture taken to see the route...lol
then i kept on asking for a light...
and finally! someone had a torchlight...
and then like at this crossroad part...
i went straight...but it only happened after i was like..er..nvm
then got bats flying overhead!
thats where i got freaked out...
like quite afraid to go ahead cuz of the bats...
lol
fine!
im a scaredy cat! but i dun care..lalala
so i juz kept on going...sometimes ask bryan who was behind me whether he wanted to be in front...
but he didnt want to..lol
then finally go tout..on all 4s...cuz i started to get cramps...so couldnt duck walk anymore...
haix...
cool experience...
then saw the rest of the booby traps...
quite sick...like a lot of piercing stuff...ew...
how painful la!
then lunch...
then Ben Thanh Market!
for shopping!
whee!
slightly more than 5 hours of shopping!
plus dinner at own expense...
shop...
bought like pirated stuff...i think...
had some fun trying to bargain...
lol...
then nice jeremy kong treated russell...danyee and me to dinner..with hsieh wen
yeah...
so nice of him right?
had a good dinner...
managed to get to noe jeremy kong and hsieh wen better...
i think thats how u spell his name...if its wrong...sorry! =(
then after shopping...which ended at 8...go back hotel..
duh!
but not after debrief...and like going through all thehomework stuff...
which we did since the first night in Saigon..ever since coming back from Dalat...
which means er...the night of day4!
so yeah..next day...wake up...
then my group...groupB...which is my class and 3.17...lloyds class...
went to visit this sch for intellectually disabled children...
and my class like last night went to practice this dance...
not all though...
like only a few ppl..so it was russell..darrell..zhang..job..isaac..kwong...klow..dan yee..and me!
im not sure if i left anyone out...and bryan was our like press the button guy
the least significant but most important guy...
haha
so we actually like danced...at the sch...Gia Dinh SpecialSchool for intellectually Disabled Children
and 3.17 didnt prepare anything...so only our class...dunno if thats gd or not
then go to the historical museum...
and saw this water puppet show...really cool kaes!
like u never see before in Singapore...
too bad didnt take any pictures cuz didnt have my camera with me...
so nice...
then lunch...before going to Le Quy Don School...
which is one of the better schs in Vietnam...
then met some ppl...lalala...
ooo...at the Gia Dinh sch...got this really nice gal...
too bad got dumped by her...=(
like we were supposed to mix around..and dance with them...
so i was standing around and then she juz grabbed my hand..
and being the introvert that i think i am...
i didnt really noe how to react...properly..
then aiyah i dunno la..i got dumped...thats all...
then she went for shaun lee..lol
but nways...not as bad as russell..
he got dumped thrice! before he went for this guy..or that guy went for him..lol
very funny la!
that gal very cute! too bad didnt take picture!
then visit sch...then er..yeah..thats bout it..wont say wat happened
except that we danced again...
haix
then had the Farewell Buffet Dinner...which was held at the Ballroom of Amara Hotel
before sleeping!
but of course..im quite sure u already noe..crashing other ppls room..
this time i crashed...so the crashers of my room either followed me and dan yee to jobs room..
or like russell and lloyd juz stayed in our room...while russell practice with dan's guitar...
then time to go back...so back we went..and like laze around as the previous nights..
then bathe and sleep...past 12...
last night wat...muz sleep late...
but the latest was first night at Dalat...slept at 1am...lol
watching spelling bee on espn...haha
then last day!
wake up..breakfast...then go airport..and back to Singapore

wat a cool oep...the best probably...
feel quite sad that i probably didnt enjoy it as much as i would have liked to
but i really did enjoy it! like thoroughly...or more than thoroughly...
but now im missing it...so sad!
bye bye vietnam...
really nice place!
all those memories...
and wat a cool class im in...
3.09 holds so much promise to be good...
like 1.13 '04...
2.14 '05
and i believe one year down the road...i'll be blogging out...
3.09 /06
haha.
o well...vietnam oep...
i definitely love it!
better than sarawak! its notmalaysia..lol
better than lijiang...kunming and shanghai..cuz its not china...
its vietnam!
whee!

and finally..im done with oep blogging...so late!
bleh!

and now..another time...hopefully tmr..can do the daniel yee thing..the se7en things...
which others have already done ...lol
shall try to sleep early...

final gdbye to oep...vietnam...and our wonderful tour guide...long.

ta

whimsical nonsense @ 11:01 PM

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Wednesday, January 11, 2006

going to vietnam tmr...

hope it'll b cool...
as of now...i havent packed..haha
and its like 10pm
lolx
i wonder if i'll have enuf clothes...
hm...
wonder wonder
hm..wats the big question of today?
am i gay?

o btw...
i wanna b more effeminate...
haha
ok...juz practice the flick-wrist action...
and the wadever...or a wadever-dot-dot-dot action...
but thats about all the bimbo kind of moves...
o and the speak to the hand thing izzit? but not so sure of that..
anyone noe more? tell me! haha
for the record.
im not gay.
effeminate and gay theres a difference..and even then
i wont call myself effeminate...not gd enuf...at least not yet =p

bb day!
gd marching
everything was ok i guess...
but now my boots lost the shine...
so sad...
and ppl stepped on my right boot! the better one!
but o well...
its a gd day

now prepare for vietnam...lolx

goodbye.

whimsical nonsense @ 10:11 PM

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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

haix

life doesnt seem very gd.
like firstly...wats the meaning of life? is there any reason in living?
one of the few questions everyone asks...
but then of course i noe the reason to live
to do God's will on earth...and also to establish His kingdom

but its difficult...
and sometimes u start to forget and imagine there is another reason...
so lets imagine..that really...there is another reason behind life
behind our very existence...
are we juz meant to b here...like all the other animals to populate this planet?
if so? why are we then so special? then we are one of the few species walking on 2 legs...
how then are we the ones that dominate this earth?
to b able to cut down trees at our pleasure
slowly taking of other animals off this planet...
bringing them to extinction...one by one...
they cease to exist
and all we have left are records and the fortunate ones...memories
no...dun wan that to happen
but then...how come we...humans...
who so lack like stuff...
no claws...senses are not as sharp as other animals...
not a fast runner to escape...not small to hide into small areas...
basically..we have no natural defensive mechanism
and then some of the stupid...foolish ones
think they're Almighty!
wat with guns...hunt down those animals...
when in actual fact
one on one..using only wat nature has given...and fine...u get to keep ur clothes too
that wouldnt b too gd an idea...
but lets get back to life...
wat is life?
well...i heard...from this tv show...lolx
not word for word..but goes around the lines of this
life is about asking questions, and not knowing the answers to them
isnt that wat life is all about? about asking questions and trying to find the answers
isnt thats wat driving us? the want to know wats over at the other side of the hill?
so we shudnt stop asking questions and trying to find the answers...
well...whether i agree or not..i dunno
but it does make some kind of sense....to me at least...
but then...
true...we can ask questions...and some questions are simply beyond human comprehension
to b able to even find...give a smart, intelligent guess...
such as...the purpose of life and our existence...
one can start to write a whole essay..thesis or wadever...
and then however much he/she writes...
i dun think he can ever satisfy everyone on this planet
who has asked themselves this very question...
some will agree..but some will apparently have different ideas...
and wadever is written...
they will always...quite sure without fail continue to ask themselves
sometimes...they ask...wat can life do for me?
well...u can also ask urself wat can i do for life? or wat can i do in my life?
as a quote by some US president..i think John F. Kennedy said...
ask not wat the nation can do for you but wat you can do for the nation
ah..wise words there...
but of course not nation...its true u shud ask that but in this current context..its a bit out.
well then...
all bout life...
and not much time to blog bout all this now
and i dun think even if i have the time...can i answer it
lolx
shall mule over it....like tonight
while i start to polish my belt...
hopefully...
already polished my boots...2 hours today la!
but still not gd...not smooth...
o well
its shiny at least...took pictures..shall upload after oep..haha
i think im weird?

vietnam...for oep...
leaving on thursday..
still havent pack...
great.

everything that was put into the rehearsals...
all boil down to tmr...
may there be gd weather.

the big question of the day...
life and human existence. the purpose of it.
well..not really question..but yeah..u shud noe wat i mean.

but really...
how to get sad?

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:32 PM

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Monday, January 09, 2006

argh!

fine...im angsty..lalala

things are getting soo confusing...
and i dun mean school..though mayb that counts too...haha
its like...
under that "charm" thingy...
then after sooo many years im free!
but no way man...lasted only 1 month and gosh!
im under that "charm" again!!!!!
like er...
some say its a gd thing...
and like previously i thought so too...
but then when i was free...
omg
it felt so gd la
but nopes...
looks like not meant to be....and so...back
to that "charm"...haix
and then juz when i juz got out of it..
with some difficult of course...
cuz its like not its time to go...but i forced it
and so...im free!
but this time shorter still...a few days...or not even a few days
or one day!
and then back...
or at least being drawn back...
i muz kill it!
yes...haha
i wanna be free!
like no more...stuff
aiyah!
its like gd to be under that "charm"
but then for ****** ***** that are juz so ****** ****
(they're not vulgarities btw...nor does it depict the number of letters, so dun bother to figure out which stands for wat)
but all in all...for me...
its not very gd to b under that "charm"
cuz u see..that charm works sometimes...
and it brings u to either the end or a long journey.
well now
the long journey might sound like the worse part...
but its actually a path most ppl would rather take...
becuz simply its better than the end.
where the end...juz like...end there.
a painful end.
necessary.
heartbreaking? ...
maybe.
must be.
lalala...
so hopeless...
its always the end...
it doesnt go on...
it seems like from now on...
i juz gotta kill it whenever it comes
its like no more nature take course wadever
if not..the course of nature would b lifting me up...
higher and higher...only to then suddenly drop me...
down to the pit of brokeness
the pit of broken...nah...wont tell u
its tooo...not personal
juz give u ideas...thats all...
and i dun wanna give u ideas...though i already did...
but ideas are bad for you...in my world
wait...in the current world im living in...

now..digress
i shall try to create my own world...
but im like the sooo not art kind of person..not creative etc
more logical...but not very
aiyah!
im like the neither here nor there...which is bad
like jack of all trades master of none...
rmb i blogged bout this last time...last year...dunno when
haix
izzit a gd thing or a bad thing.
like ihs..the big question...
Jack of all trades, Master of none : Good..or Bad?
hm...
i shall try to blog bout it one day...
but i dun have time now...
muz wait till more time...
till after oep...which btw im going to vietnam! leaving on thursday

now back to the topic...which is...*lemme scroll up*
right.
bout the "charm" and all those rubbish...
which only exists in this warped world of mine...
becuz wat i seem to say...no one understands me!
well...in a way its gd cuz i juz rattle on some stuff...
which makes perfect sense..but no one gets me...and im like...whee! so secret
lolx
but that doesnt make much sense...
aiyah...im weird.
fullstop.
like quote from someone"...but omg you're really weird!"
and that someone is a real person kaes...
so dun doubt my sources...at least not this time...the rest yeah can
so bout the end...
well...its juz painful la...and theres nth much to say anymore...
and i gtg too...
so...

the end.

maybe

must be.

whimsical nonsense @ 11:41 PM

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Sunday, January 08, 2006

whee!
im 15 already...haha

THANX to all those who wished me happy birthday...either in form of a tag on my blog...sms...during bb parade..haha...and some in person...
jaz
elisa
dan yee
jon tang
kiwi
matthew
ming han
eugene
lis
bryan
zoe
nicholas and his sister...
zhixin
michael ting
adwyn
my family =)
and weizhen...
whose house i happened to b at yesterday..for cg...
and others whom i forgot or u had the intention to but forgot..lolx..ok nvm
juz thank you! =)

so...yesterday...a fun day
with ups and downs...
and it really fun...cant really think of a better way to spend my birthday..haha
first...bb parade...
left home : 0745
sch...bb day rehearsal
so..basically
we juz had drill...marching...stationary turns...
and the thing i dun wanna do ever in my life for drill...static drill.
if the company ever has to do static drill again...
haix...i dunno wat to say..but i hope we wont...
its not that its like super tiring and all that...
its juz that...we're the bb12thI!
we shouldnt be doing stuff like static drill
it juz doesnt show well on ourselves...
so anyways
we juz march...and do lots of other drill stuff
and so i ended with slightly wet socks cuz of the rain and mayb cuz of sweat
sick right?
and aching feet and heels...haix
digging in is hard work man!
but i dun care...for the sake of gd drill...muz dig in! lolx
so...
juz had bb until 1245
and im supposed to b at woodlands regional library at 1300
of course i knew i would b late..but didnt noe how late...
since bb supposed to end at 1230...
then change...eat lunch in sch...
talk to my seniors
ie kiwi, matthew, minghan, eugene, jonathan kong
received some presents from kiwi and matthew...
and a doughnut on a straw from eugene khoo!
the best present ever!
then like left sch at 1340
confirm late...since the exhibiton db8 which im supposed to chair with rachel auyong like starts at 1400...
sooo...take mrt with adwyn to woodlands...
reach the mrt station like bout 1420...walk there...1430
and the db8 started...
darius first prop...speaking halfway
lolx...
a wonderful 1hr 20 mins late!
haha
so fun la..though of course thats not a gd thing...
then juz watch lor...
then after that go walk around...with lloyd adwyn edmond and marvin
go 7-11...before we go home!
nah...
edmond adwyn me went westmall...
cuz thats near my tuition place..which is where im supposed to go...
while lloyd and marvin went jurong...
so...juz walk aimlessly to kill time..since i had some time before tuition started
but then still was late for tuition
a bit...like 15mins...
but mayb thats intentional...lolx
then after tuition
go eat dinner with my parents and my younger sis
before proceeding to weizhens place for cg...
then go there...had cg as per normal
and could see fireworks la!
so beautiful man!
then have some stuff la...basically
then after that
sang happy birthday to me! whee!
then cut the cake..and eat it lor
then like juz see weizhen and lenith play gunbound
then go home...
reach home: 2340
i think...dunno la..but its 2300++

so eventful..so fun!
haha

whimsical nonsense @ 5:30 PM

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Thursday, January 05, 2006

o dear...it seems that i havent posted in a looong time
and like not once since sch started la!

o well...so far the teachers are all quite alright...
they all seem nice...
but still havent met all of them..such as the advance math teacher...
cuz she is not available..and the relief teacher is some cool 18 year old guy!
but ok la...hes like not too bad...
very cool man! and advance math seem relatively ok so far...sets!
o well..the real struggle when i start to not understand wats going on will come soon i bet
aiyah...
now its like...juz jump into the pool..the shallow end...
then go deeper...deeper...and then drown
lolx
now thats a positive outlook for the year...

a better outlook...
jump into pool...go deeper...deeper...struggle a bit...
have frens beside me...helping me while i help them too...
in terms of moral/physical support and encouragement...
finish the year on a high together...
hm...
of course not on drugs...thats illegal...
and im a gd boy...lolx
HA! as if...o well...gd boy or not...i dunno...

the year starts of...
on a mixed note...

aiyah!
life as usual...
roller coaster ride...
up...down...down some more...up a bit...then down..down...
basically...youre at this level..u go up a bit..cuz its the new year..duh...
then down...then down even more..go up..but not like as started...
then u go down some more...
so...ur still down...

somehow right now...as im like typing this...
there is this certain feeling inside of me
that makes me feel really weird...
as if u were always sleeping underground...
and or at least awake..but still underground...
where everything is dark...
like a tunnel!
and then a hand comes down from above...
grabs you and before you can react...
you find yourself on the ground...
on it..not under..ah...
you see so many things u dun recognise...
new gadgets and gizmos...
beings whom u never thought existed
not in your wildest dreams
the atmosphere is different...
mayb not really in terms of the molecular sense
or even physical...
but u can feel the difference...
from isolation below...or in a more postive light, from the peacefulness
to this sudden array of moods...feelings and many things
that you are not able to know wat it is...
all jumbled up...mixed together...dissolving in the other...forming a new substance
which only adds to the mumbo jumbo already present

this sudden exposure to the varying elements present in the new atmosphere
gives you a kind of "culture" shock
and it doesnt give you adequate time to recover
before you are thrust into the world unknown
unsure of wat to do...and even when you do...how to do it still remains a mystery...
the feeling inside of you still remains...
that weird feeling...
a bit of insecurity...
of being scared...afraid...worried...

confused.
u could say stunned..in a way.
a tired mind...yet it does not stop working
for the dozen matters at hand
does not allow for it, much needed
rest.
really do not know, the course of action
that should be taken,
without taking into account the repercussions of such an action
without seeing the benefits and detriments
and whether it would b the best choice.
one mind, one decision, infinite possiblities....
...coupled with a natural fickleness and a bit of indecisiveness...
makes it the
"dream nightmare".
but the problem does not ends there,
as a whole host of different matters
pertaining to the respective and different things.
but yet, all this
juz cannot seem to be as bad as the main thing.
it seems wat i feel
is the end product of something
that took a few days to manifest
to slowly gain its power
drawing from experiences...interactions and so on...
to become wat it is now...
and wat it is...
...now...
juz will not go away...
to leave me alone...
and yet...there is some sort of calming effect...
alas...not the conventional kind...
but one that strangely would not b calming
but in fact the opposite...
of being one feel extremely worried...
which is probably the closest way to describe it
of putting words to the intangible
the cause of all this...
i put it down to many events...
but ultimately...
the thing that really gave it that sudden surge
that extra protein shake it soo craved for...
was the shattering of
trust.
indeed, shattering,
breaking into a thousand pieces,
a million even.
each fragmented piece...
so
impossible to pick up.
each piece...
when trod upon...brings about
an intense pain.
and much as i try to avoid it...
the pieces too many...the ground too small...
and each step
hurts.
but yet the problem might not be that big...
im quite sure its magnified...
but somehow...juz that bit
still hurts...even though not as bad.
stil confused
over the extent of how bad the damage was...
but nonetheless...
the damage is there, done.
irreversible.
at least in the short term...
wat the long terms holds
i dunno...
nor do i try to even attempt to imagine of wat lies beyond
as much a glimpse...but restrain i try...
although that shattering, breaking
was only minor
wat continued after wasnt
a domino effect...
one by one..the rest toppled
few could withstand the force...
one by one...they fell too
some...a minority
even broke upon impact,
adding to the already present pain.
but now the pain is gone
but the aftermath of such an impact
is much worse than the thing itself
left in the wake of something so
so difficult to determine.
helpless to control it.

goodbye

there goes the trust i have...
for you...
thanx for making me feel this way
thanx for making me
stop trusting ppl so easily
thanx for making me lose trust in those i already trust...
thanx.

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 11:31 PM

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Monday, January 02, 2006

o dear...

sch is starting tmr!
like actually i was quite excited bout it...dun ask me y..
mayb im juz my usual weird self...
but then now like scared...no longer that excited
so scared of everything la!
like first day how?
wat if im like...get into teachers bad books...
o btw...i managed to get my black book ready on time...yay!
ok...but back to sch...
like literally!

noooooo
wake up early...
sleep early...
do homework...
more time management stuff...

haix

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 9:39 PM

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Sunday, January 01, 2006

o dear...
i think i have started 2006 on a not very gd note
wont say wat...
quite personal...

nvm...i have one aim...
to kill something by my birthday!
which is 6 days away!
dun worry..its a non living thing
but its for the better i guess

schs gonna start...
im going to b 15..heehee

6 more days =)

whimsical nonsense @ 11:08 PM

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