along the cobbled sidewalks of life

Monday, November 28, 2005

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

Backbeat the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would
ike to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe (I said maybe)
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe (I said maybe)
You're gonna be the one that saves me (that saves me)

Wonderwall - Oasis

whimsical nonsense @ 5:41 PM

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Saturday, November 26, 2005

vjcs!

ok..shall not talk bout how i got there...
though its really unusual
and really kind of that person to give us a lift
us being me and lloyd
not to mention other ppl
lolx

anyways...
samuel cheam..paul chu..sean tan..john leo caines...david crawshaw
the team...
choose 1 of the 3 motions...prep time!
while lloyd...paul chuan..adwyn and me just roam...
we wanted to climb that bridge structure...
but then some mg gals..saniah and rachel i think..and other mg ppl la of course
climb...so then dun wan..haix
then go to those vending machines
adwyn bought a cheezels...
which was a small packet...
lloyd some lays bbq
and paul chuan..who was apparently hungry
bought cup noodles!
so cool la..those food vending machines
then saw marvin...
and he was like swinging la!
at those swing thingies...
then proceeded...

1st round
vip (victoria ip) vs acsi
THBT the best war on terror is the war on poverty
well...very very close..like half mark victory?
Thank God we won!
somehow my seniors didnt perform properly...
haix
keyword for both sides: links

then go back...lunch...
well..lloyd..paul chuan...adwyn and me...
cannot eat the lunch provided...
so go parkway...
and sam cheam helped us ask this vjc usher
who gave really funny directions
not her fault la..juz it was a bit complex...
so well..nobody could rmb it in the correct order
there was a turn left..turn right..and a cross the road
went wrong side at first..
cross the overheard bridge...again
then took a bus...supposed to b 2 bus stops...
but like..very long..but at least reached correct place
went macs..ate like quite fast...then go back
and tried to hurry..cuz of the rain
but not fast enuf
then got caught in a light drizzle
before it went to a slightly heavier drizzle
but it was ok la
reached vjc..all of us without being too wet
and then almost late for the 2nd round
which was against sc...
which was a surprise for us at that time...
and so...

2nd round
acsi vs scgs
THBT cultural assimilation for ethnic minorities is necessary
ok..was timing...and was confused
didnt get much
but we won by 1 mark...poor sc
i thot we lost...cuz of our bad set up
but o well...
couldnt follow...haix

3rd round
acsi vs cat high
THB in the welfate state
in that 1 hr prep...the 4 of us plus joan
btw..joan came towards the end of the 2nd round
discussed the motion...and told us wat welfare state meant
and we sort of could know the opp and prop side at the end of that discussion
more or less
which helped me to follow the 3rd round better
and we won!
didnt really expect it..i was like preparing for the worst
but credit to cat high...tough fight
not sure if we deserved to win
again...we need to thank the Lord for bring us through

teams to break into semis
acsi
scgs
cat high
ri

acsi vs scgs...cat high vs ri...both match ups are like...
same as in prelim round la...
acsi faced scgs already..cat high faced ri already...
y cant they make it an acsi scgs final?
that would b nice =)
haha

o well..congrats to all schs who broke
all the best next week! =)

whimsical nonsense @ 10:43 PM

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Thursday, November 24, 2005

isnt it really funny?
that some stupid guy
who values frenship, at least he thinks so
would actually sometimes
or mayb most times
be foolish enough
to do something, to go overboard
and start to become such a burden
such an irritant to those around him
to his frens
that he ends up doing the very thing
that jeapordises
the very thing he treasures
as to all frenships
he doesnt want to lose them
he doesnt want to ruin them
at least not again

mayb he shud stop being such an irritant
stop being all so insecure
annoying others
bothering them with his all so weird antics
disturbing them constantly
not giving them a moments peace
and sometimes he ends up wondering
realising what he has done
he questions himself
why did he do all those things?
that could potentially
cause him to lose a fren?
he fails to come up with an answer
that satisfies
basically he reaches the conclusion
that mayb he is just him
mayb that is just who he is
yet that could just be an excuse
that he is doing all those
just because its him
it seems so perfectly lame
there must be something wrong with him
but he is unable
to pinpoint exactly

haix

would it be wiser
for him to continue in that way
or for the greater good
forget about all those frenships
and leave them
alone
to prevent further disturbances
of that poor soul
who cant help but destroy
the very thing he treasures
to "save" his frens
or at least in this scenario
wat used to be his frens
"save" them from the trouble
that he has consistently caused them
time after time
i guess he figured
that it would really be better after all
if he really treasures his frens
then it would be better off
for him to lose the frenship
while they become free
of his endless burden on them
but yet he still feels afraid
he knows that humans
are meant to be social creatures
that if one is without
frens
it is possible for him
to actually become mad
like robinson crusoe
if that is how you spell his name
but then again
it seems like fiction
but yet isolation is used as a form
of punishment in some places
at least i think so
if isolation is that bad
mayb that is why
he still has some concerns
but then again

basically
he feels that he has failed
he has not been the fren
to those who has been that
and some even more
he has failed them
he feels sorry
yet sometimes unable to do
anything
except just try to leave them alone

but before he does anything
again he wonders
what if all this is not true
wat if he is not as irritating
as wat he thinks he is
looks like the main question
is still unanswered
is he seen as one
who is annoying
irritating
bothersome
and just burdens his frens
*for some of them*
with his endless problems

mayb he is overreacting
or mayb not

...maybe not...

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:13 PM

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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

haha

db8 trng today...
screwed up as 1st prop...
received bad news...
shall not disclose...like duh!
but o well...

then me and adwyn ate lunch in sch then go to ps
to meet up with zx and bunny
to watch a movie...zathura
lolx
its like all the movies got someone watch
and like i watch harry potter already...
so these nice nice frens decided to watch something else
cuz i already watched it and dun wanna watch again
personally..wouldnt mind
get to see more of...u noe...
but waste money...so no...
its quite funny lah...a few silly moments

but before that...

first juz walked around..cuz not yet time...
after seeing zx and bunny outside macs
when we reached ps...
so coincidental lah...
walk around..go to some shops...
to check out the prices...
then coincidentally...
saw some other debators...
sc...
then they started running...
though most of them didnt noe why...
hm...
then like waited until almost the movie time
then they admit...haix
sit down...
bryan adwyn me got a drink...
zx popcorn..cuz he share with adwyn a combo
then at the end...
zx stood up..and like
eh? wheres my popcorn?
lolx!
seriously dunno...not on the chair
or the floor..mayb under the chair
haix
then i had to go home early...=(
so juz walk a bit..before i left...
and they went adwyns house...aw...
go to zxs blog...he blogged bout it already

haix

it seems its one cca vs the other

again

...

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 9:45 PM

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Monday, November 21, 2005

yay!

went to watch just like heaven yesterday...
its a nice show...bit short...and not like really really really gd
but still good (:
my 5th movie of the hols!
zorro..sky high (twice)...harry potter..just like heaven
too bad sky high watched twice...
but its a cool movie kaes
and my frens..some of them..agrees
while others beg to differ..
o well...
to each his own!

tmr trng
haix
trng in the hols is like more frequent then normal sch la
aiyoh
why?

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 11:09 PM

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Saturday, November 19, 2005

o well
a little late to post this

i watched harry potter and the goblet of fire
like duh...almost everyone seems to have...
on thursday...
unfortunately had no time to go online and blog bout it
the movie was cool...nice...
if ur thinking its cuz of emma watson
no...not entirely...
even if she wasnt there..it would still b cool
fleur..wahahaZ
cedric...

somehow at the end of the whole thing
i was like...quite hot
as in like perspiring..a bit
mayb cuz the movies gd
wahahaZ
its a bit dark though...
like dark literature..
how cool if movies were included in lit lessons...
white oleander and such

haix

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 6:10 PM

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Thursday, November 17, 2005

its a wonder how someone

can actually piss me off so much

to think he was my friend

yet after what he said

im forced to rethink

but of course a friend he still will be

but seriously

the damage has been caused

its hard to fix it

saying all those things

how untrue

really made me mad

might be all just some kind of

misunderstanding

granted

but up to date

i cannot simply recall

a single soul that has actually

angered me with just words

-mad-

whimsical nonsense @ 6:25 PM

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Wednesday, November 16, 2005

ah!

no time to blog...

o well...cant say much on coy camp then
juz that it was a cool experience...
at least i knew my seniors better...
granted its not all..but at least
i interacted more with my wing nco
alex lua!
and well..knew more ppl...
and knew a bit of my ephesus juniors...
wahahaZ
they all sleep so early...and bathe so fast...
o well..im a dirty boy...
wait until 0245 then bathe..on the second night...
wahahaZ
cpl/3 wesley chan can play the guitar really well...
not sure if can call by name...
rather not take the chance..
wahahaZ
i wanna learn the guitar...
then can play like him
and o my gosh!
he can play here without you...so cool..lolx
but nvm
o well...coy camp
experienced something...
wont say wat...but lets juz say that that reason...
is one of the main ones why i dun slack in bb
or at least try not to
and not ur typical pon uyo every week kind...

BB rox!

whimsical nonsense @ 9:57 PM

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Monday, November 14, 2005

haix

shall not go tell another wat...
grandmother story

haix

another day then talk bout company camp...
got gd parts...
and bad...
but more good
missing company camp...

stupid me....
so easily distracted!

blog bout it another day...so sad hor?

-tired-

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 11:34 PM

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Friday, November 11, 2005

haix

going for company camp tmr
until monday...i think
but i cant go first!..nooo
got to go teachers network/old ri
for some iso thing
then dunno
either go straight to sch
or
go home..put down stuff..then go sch

hm...

dunno what to expect...
said its gonna b a fun camp
that is if we allow it to b
cuz noeing bb boys...
they can b really like..naughty
i think
fun camp..i think it can b quite fun...
heehee

everyones like going overseas...
im staying in spore
so bored man
nah
got camps...the prefects amazing race
which is over...
company camp...tmr
2 uncomfirmed camps
and 1 more at the end of the year

campy camps
they can b quite fun
unless its like wat...ltc
or selection camp
not fun...juz..survivable
o well..juz wait for the camps

feel so slacky...

shud i write a will?

dun believe so...
if i die...my parents shall do with my things
as they deem best
but mayb my db8 stuff...
jgs trophy...y14s semis trophy
hcis 2nd trophy...meth cup ranking medal
dunno..donate to acdb8
and my db8 books...the 3 used and the 2 new ones
go to my team...
d crawshaw..the man!
lloyd boyd..teammate..neighbour...fren
paul chuan...haha..dunno wat to say =)
adwyn..fren for 5 years?

but seriously
hope i dun die that fast
still got to noe some things...

a few certain things...

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 1:59 PM

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Wednesday, November 09, 2005

he: lets just face it, we were never really friends, we were just...
she: in love

whimsical nonsense @ 6:58 PM

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Tuesday, November 08, 2005

wah! prefects amazing race...
its like...like a BB hike

1st day
go there, get your groups
have training..navigation etc
nothing much...
but sleeping time...2200
its like the earliest time ive ever heard of!
i mean like in a camp
held at acsi!
wah!
then stupid me....has to forget to bring sleeping bag
so o well...juz freeze in the room
so wore a shirt..or jersey thingy...
and pe shorts...
i tell u arh..my legs could have died kaes
frostbite or something...
so i slept on the chair..and table
like how one would sleep in lessons
and thanx to henry!
u noe that cute cute small boy
whos not actually small
and really really really really really really really really
nice and kind
he lent me his jacket thingy
which can like whoa! keep u how warm la
so my top part was snug and warm...
thanx to the henry jacket
although my hands were cold...
and then my legs...froze
i managed to sleep lah...
then halfway thru the night..i wake up halfway
like i always do...regardless of the camp..BB or wadever
cuz too cold
so yeah...my legs very cold...
shant say wat methods i used to keep them warm
but dun think sick...thats all
but in the end...used my towel..which did the job
well...sort of
still froze at certain points..but much better
and still so cold..and on a chair and table
i encountered great difficulty in going to sleep
but i noe of other ppl who didnt sleep much
shant say who..shant say y

2nd day
woke up at 4am
did a lot of different things..shant elaborate
as getting tired now...
then at 5.15am...or 0515hrs...
flag off...my group
3 sec3 prefects..
3 understudies...including me
from acsi...now..our route!

acsi...to turf city (former turf club)
to botanic garden
to mount elizabeth hospital
to istana park
to redhill (behind ikea)
to mount faber
to acsi

from 0515 to 1715...12 hours

acsi to turf city...
halfway at sixth avenue...eat breakfast..
1 pau!
spent 2half hours looking for a clue only 1 group found...
so went to botanic garden
after we got our coordinates
plot our route...off we go!
walk walk walk..and walk some more!
went in...walk through the whole garden
walk round the garden
to get to the right entrance...haix
then rest...a while...
then go mount elizabeth hospital
which is quite nearby..so yeah...
team morale was high!
then found the clue quite easily too
team morale even higher!
then went to paragon to rest
for a while...like 5mins
then walk to istana park
which is opposite plaza sing
and then search around...
couldnt find the clue
dunno if its there...
i think it got removed...as no other grps could find it too
then anyway...go redhill
behind ikea...
so we walk and walk and walk...
on the way stopped at great world to eat lunch
then continued the long walk
reached there...called...and realised wrong place
due to us being given the wrong coordinates
accidentally
so go to mount faber...walk back
and uphill!
...tiring...
then reach the peak...of telok blangah hill park
u could say the twin/clone of mt faber
so yeah..enjoyed the view
while our instructor...zen...help us scout around
took off my shoes..and socks
whoa!..my toes like...nvm...
then wait...and wait...
still cannot find...
then 1550..they told us to go back to acsi
we had to b back by 1700..latest 1720
so..we were like...1hr 10mins...confirm cannot
but nonetheless...we continued to walk
despite our painful feet...
cramping calfs and hamstrings
not all...but everyone was tired...
got out of telok blangah and went to aye
and walked along the expressway...
then cross bridge...go back to acsi
then some team building games...
then dinner...debrief...go home!

by the way...we had a limit of 10bux per person
that makes it 60 altogether
for breakfast...lunch and other expenses...
and we are not allowed to take public transport
i mean like u can if u wan to
but one is not supposed to
purely walking...haix

wah!
gd experience
like BB hike...juz the bag load not so heavy
but somehow it seemed longer
and more painful
i like my group...although quiet...
but very...nice..friendly
cool!

tired...half-dead?
nah..not yet..not so easy!

random phrase:
nice *mayb i wont put it...too dangerous...
if u wanna noe wat it is...ask me =P
its a cool phrase kaes...*

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:38 PM

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Sunday, November 06, 2005

drill exam!
it was ok lah...
dun really wanna talk much about it...
theory...bad...
practical..can do..
uniform inspection...haix
didnt starch haversack...didnt polish the haversack button
belt wasnt as good as like after i polished it..juz after
and russell stepped on my right boot!
bleh

then next was prefects day
im not a prefect...hopefully yet
but at least understudies get to go
then went escape...argh!

argh no!
no time to blog
anyways..the rides were ok
and i had to eat lunch before it..smart...
viking ship..haix..it was ok..
me and russ and adwyn were like scared
due to past bad experiences
so we sat in the centre
while kevin and tim toh sat nearer the end..
and like taunted us somemore!
humph!
then went to some wet slide thingy
adwyn at the back..most wet
russ in the middle...not so wet
and me in front!
was quite dry..heehee
the CHOOCHOO train
go see adwyns blog
i was on it too..wahahaZ
then some stupid yakult ride
i mean like the brand is nice
but the ride is like...bleh!
juz makes u giddy..no thrill
and i felt real bad after that...
then went to bk...with dan yee and adwyn
took a ride from adwyns parents to city hall
thanx!
but the car had that kind of smell that gives me a headache
so yeah..it made my vomiting feeling worse!
and poor me sat on the mrt!
o my gosh!
i like dun usually sit on the mrt...
like once or twice a month
so i went to the door
u noe like the side there...
put down my bag..and shoebag..so make it bags
and sat down
felt quite embarrassed
but like really cannot help it
stupid yakult ride
stupid make-you-wanna-puke feeling
from city hall..all the way to chinese garden i was sitting down
then at chinese garden to lakeside can stand up
then took a nice nice leisurely stroll back home
and no sarcasm..it was really cool kaes
would have been better if
a certain someone was there

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:44 PM

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Friday, November 04, 2005

whee!
yesterday..4 of my sisters choir mates came...
then watch some movies...or 2...
catch me if you can
white chicks
with the latter becoming really wrong
and my mother wasnt too happy with it...
but o well...
then they sang...lalala
but nvm...

sc

the serenity envelopes me
the gentle breeze, blowing
away my troubles
leaving me at peace

the quietness never, broken
save for my footsteps
alone, i stand, i walk
indeed, all alone

like this, i wish
to be, for a while
in my solitary state
just a short while more

those smiles, laughter, enchoing
off the walls in halls, empty
masking the inherent loneliness
among this hollow heart

happy faces, uplifting spirits
surround me, contradicting the mood
fool me they try
never forget those times i will

the tears, grief and sorrow
etched in that memory.
even the incoming tide fails to wash it all away

yet, within me, conflict arises
an internal reluctance and willingness
tearing apart, remorselessly
till the distinction is seen

nothing good will come out of, this
hopeless situation facing
me, who suffers, endlessly
hurting deep inside

hide behind that mask, skilfully
deceiving the environment
stop this i try, stop this,
i fail

intangible, that pain, yet
clearly experience it, i do
keep it secret, unknown to them
giving a false persona

cracks start to appear
on that delicate mask
that i wear
the bluff, no longer

this pain, not one of physical
nor a psychological thorn
that emtional conflict, the
real poison arrow

left the wound unattended
brushed it away, never thinking
the repercussions of action
or lack of it

it spreads within oneself,
a deadly infection
taken oever my emotional body
dropping it to its knees

Snowflakes falling, gliding down
ever so gently, delicately
setting up the stage
for that joyous season again

whimsical nonsense @ 11:16 AM

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Tuesday, November 01, 2005

whee!
a bit late to blog bout yesterday
but yesterday was nice..fun

zx...gabby...adwyn..bryan...ian..me
6 of us go back hpps
walked around hpps..first..
play soccer..play more soccer...
heehee..its like soccer soccer soccer
and then meet teachers...
and how henry park staff room like whoa!
need fingerprint to get in..so cool
heehee...
managed to get in...talk to miss chiang
dai lao shi..or miss tai..a bit to miss ng
and previously already said hi to mrs idil..or idhil
cant rmb...oops
then go eat lunch...
the food there so cheap compared to acsi lah
then play a bit more soccer...
before going to ps...
shared cabs...zx..bunny and me in one
adwyn..gabby and ian in another
and then they got a cab first..humph!
then shortly afterwards we got a cab..heehee
then our cab overtook theirs on the way
but noooo
overall...their cab still faster...
then go ps..so stupid la adwyn
slacker...made us wait..
then actually went up already...haix
then never tell us somemore!
heehee
then watched legend of zorro
waited 1hour due to the bad timing...
and then even worse!
sat in the theatre for 30 mins...
10 mins early..so granted got adverts
but supposed to start at 1540...
started around 1600
stupid advert!
and got one part look like a movie lah
then all 6 of us like questioning each other
r we in the right theatre?
so funny lah!
then the movie itself quite funny
as usual..can hear zheng xuan laughing to himself!
lolx
then went home...unfortunately
so sad...but quite late for me already...1800
went home...
watched white oleander...
a scary show man!
fine..not THAT scary...
but the underlying themes..or wadever
quite freaky
and the show is soooo nice!
then go sleep!
but of course got some other stuff..
like black out..but nvm

today...haix
went back to sch for drill practice
haix...wonder what happened to our dril
suddenly so bad...but at least its better
more like the average standard to me
but i guess this saturday can do...
but o well..can improve..of course!
so friday..back to acsi for drill practice
haix...then tmr go back to sch again
o well...lalala
tralala

its like no more debate...meth cup over
then back to BB...o well...

Beyond that horizon
simple shapes yet
complex and awesome
those formations

what lies beyond
so full of mystery
but that hides not
the wonder of God's works

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:42 PM

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