along the cobbled sidewalks of life

Saturday, October 29, 2005

methodist cup 2005

firstly...ill blog bout acsi team 1
david crawshaw
lloyd soh
samuel chan *me!*
max wong
ben sim

same speaking mates as y14s
david...lloyd
well well well...wat can i say?
another competition...
we worked together...
debated as a team
2nd competition in the same team as crawshaw
3rd for lloyd...
many more to come i believe...
david...ranked 9th
although u shud get higher...
but i guess u had an off day...
lloyd..ranked 5th
congrats man!
u rock! wahahaZ
me...ranked 8th
surprise surprise
i believe this team still has a long way to go
we still have a lot of potential in us
let us continue to work as a team
gel more..as madam said
and may we bring glory to acdb8
and to God.

to the reserves...ben and max
thanks for helping us
in the replies...
although it must be weird...
first help lloyd in reply..
then me...
then last db8 crawshaw...
but u have stood by us
shared the loss with us
helped us in our preps
in fact...u did great as reserves
and im sure u will do better as speakers
continue to work hard

summary of fixtures
acsi prop vs plmgs1 opp...plmgs lost the db8..we didnt win it...
acsi prop vs fmss1 opp....we lost..though i do not see why and neither does joan
mgs2 prop vs acsi opp...well..we won it..but it was too messy for me to see why
2 wins 1 loss...it could have been 3 wins...
it could have been 3 losses
but what matters is that
we gave our best...we know we did
and God was with us every round
even when we lost...

acsi team 2
adwyn chuang
paul chuan
edmond tam or tham
kegan chang (i think)

a junior team...
but gd nonetheless...
adwyn and paul...
for adwyn...ur 3rd competition
first speaking one...
u went beyond wat was expected of you
you did great man!
3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3 cheers for adwyn!
wahahaZ
paul...
2nd competition...
first speaking one too..
well..i didnt get to see you speak
but im sure u did great! =)
edmond...
well..sec 1...first competition
first speaking one too
i hope u gain from this experience
learn from it
use it to your advantage
strive on!

ac meth cup...
the 9 of us...
the 5 sec2s...4 sec1s...
it has been great these 2 weeks
to work with u guys...
a year ago
we were never this close with our current sec3s
though now we are of course! =)
but may this bond created so early...
mayb it never break...
let us cooperate...
and further the name of acsi
that our seniors have established
the good name of acdb8

rock on!

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:03 PM

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Wednesday, October 26, 2005

lalala

schs quite slack now...

o well..cant wait for tmr

thursday!

tom yam soup!

woohoo!

last time of the year already

must eat tom yam soup!

whee!

3 more days to meth cup

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 9:46 PM

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Tuesday, October 25, 2005

poor acdb8
left on their own...

actually..juz the meth cup team
seniors either gone or busy..haix
so...coachless..seniorless
but we can go all the way!
acdb8! =)

haha...todae..after trng..
me and boyd (lloyd) went to popular
we went to buy notebooks
nah..not ur super ex ferrari ones
that adwyn has...lolx
db8 kinds...
walked up to the cashier...
with 6 of them!
haha...6 notebooks!
1 - Kegan
1 - Max
1 - Ben
1 - Edmund
2 - Me
not to mention flash cards or wadever
1 stack - lloyd

well..lloyd promised kegan and ben izzit?
aiyah..i dunno..but he promised some of our juniors
that he would get them notebooks
proper ones..as theirs r like...
very small...like really small..
not very nice to see on the floor
max uses some kind of jotter book
u noe ur a4 size thingys...
yeah..which yeah..can b used.but notebook better
heehee
then edmund..well..decided to juz buy for him
and lloyd got to choose their design!
not surprisingly..he chose elements
the one with earth wadever
the same as lloyd...
that elements design...
the one that lloyd swear by forever!
he bought 4 different ones..as in like
although cover the same..
the rings at the spine different colour
one is red...another blue..another green and last yellow
o well..i chose my deisgns!
i took 2 books..kiasu!
wadever..lolx
i took one of the same current design im using
the one with stay balance by u-grade
thats the design im going to stick to!
took a red one...
current is some black one...
chose red over blue and yellow and orange
blue was ew..not the nice blue...orange not bad
yellow..erm..nah!
so yeah..i took another book
with some other design
stuck to black! =P
so now i have 2 db8 books
my 2nd and 3rd a4 size db8 books
and my 4th and 5th overall
i spent one for sec 1..
2nd one lasted like only a few months..
and my current one i say about 8 months mayb?
o well
i like a4 size books
i like black
i like my design...heehee
im gonna stick by it!
juz like boyd stick to his elements!
whee!

buying db8 notebooks r so fun!

wahahaZ

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:10 PM

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Sunday, October 23, 2005

o gosh!
i cant believe how dumb i really am!
dumb! foolish! stupid!
sometimes i can be so insensitive!
asking the wrong questions...at the wrong time
asking a question that never has a right time
disturbing others..i try not to..but still!

i really wonder sometimes...
do i deserve to have frens that are so nice
when im not a gd fren to them...
i try to be...im not sure if i m..but i feel that i've failed them all
in one way or another
im such a...bad or not so gd fren..haix

im a guy who cant really keep things to himself
others ppl secrets can..no prob
but as in some stuff..my feelings...i dun bottle up
not in my nature too..and wat if i bottle up..then xplode
and go commit suicide? nah..wont let that happen
though i wonder if more ppl will b happy than sad...
would it make a big difference?
to others..it'll b one less guy to care about...
one less guy to pester them...
one less guy who always disturbs them...
ask insensitive questions..disturb them while they're in a bad mood
doesnt seem to care about their feelings...
hm..it wouldnt make that great a diff i guess
i tell my frens stuff...stuff they dun need to hear
yet i disturb them by telling them such things..
burden them sometimes..with my problems
im sry to all those whom i've disturbed

i seem to be sooo hopeless in everything!
theres nothing im gd at..nothing i ever will be
nothing seems to work out the way i want it
occasionally some will...
yet most of the other time...it fails
i guess it seems all the more worse
when i put so much hope into it
more than what it deserves to have
and therefore making the failure all the more painful to stomach
i guess i was overestimating myself
and i wonder if theres such a thing as underestimating
for me at least
would there ever b a time when i underestimate myself?
i seriously wonder...

hopelessness..foolishness..insensitivity
3 flaws to name...more in me
that i dun seem to see...
again i overestimate myself

one by one...
a weight drags me down
from the lofty heights of the skies
to the cruel ground below
i was sailing up there
feeling so happy
so high
with the clouds among my knees
and then slowly but surely..steadily
i race to the ground...
clouds..birds zooming past me
as more weights are added
the ground gratefully greets me
with a thunderous and painful crash
the sudden pain goes thru me
like a tsunami hitting me with full force
*no offense to those affected by the dec 26 tsunami*
the shockwaves were strong...very strong
that journey..can be summarized in a few words
i had been brutally brought back down to earth
i guess its a gd thing..to be back on earth
instead of being up there...
basically me overestimating myself
somehow i feel i shud b lower down...

i feel really bad...sad
so hopeless in trying to do anything right
screwing up agin and again
and not able to get it right...
do frens i noe deserve me?
mayb i shud stop disturbing them

i feel like im a nuisance
some tick on their back
forever there
so dreadfully wanted to be gone...
yet i stick there..stubborn...
no...more like foolish...
and insensitive to their feelings and thoughts..
not able to tell that im a burden to them
so many flaws...
not able to change them...
only hurting those around me...
making life worse for them than it already is
if im gone..i doubt it would make a difference...
wait..on the contrary..it would make all the difference
no more pest...
at least they dun need to use pesticide
save the environment
o well...thats lame..im sry
i wonder if anyone would care at all...
wondering..wondering...

gosh!
im such a bad brother too!
nvm..shall not say much
but now..i seem to be able to see more flaws
likewise..i noe all have flaws..but still
i seem to have a lot..more than average

a bad fren...a bad brother..
not to mention a bad something else
lets not go into what that is kaes?

wat m i worth?

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:15 PM

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Thursday, October 20, 2005

going through life
ignorant enough of the problems
that are ever present

i suffer, i break down
yet i always forget
that i more times than not, smile

it might seem so lonely
but i always remind myself
of all the frens i have around me

so now life doesnt seem that bad
its schedule still a bit mad
but heys! i will survive

always look on the bright side
but never neglect the other end
best to find a balance? hm..

i luv my frens, i luv my life
i luv lots of things around me
created by God, whom i love
for blessing me with so many things
for giving me all that i luv
and for giving me his love.

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 11:07 PM

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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

got back results
lets juz say...
its neither gd nor bad
its slightly worse than what i had hoped for
average of what i expected
a bit regretful that i didnt study half as hard
as i shud in the first place

nvm..blog more
gtg

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:10 PM

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Monday, October 17, 2005

oo..shall reply some tags here
beu --- surprise surprise to see you here! haix, better be careful of what i post, later give out some meth cup strategy..wahahaZ. everyone wanna beat ac?! duh! but its the jgs speaking 3 ppl team lah, not the sec2s...
t2 --- yes, i finally noe who you are, and its tsquare right? wahahaZ
zanny --- yay! someone complimented my blog..hello!

whee!
nice spar against cat high
thanx!
gd experience, and gd motion
though a bit difficult.

ive finally reorganized my links...wahahaZ
though very weird..i dun care..humph!
lalala
today was quite ok
but got to go back to sch tmr
quite sad, but at least results not tmr
wonder what will happen tomorrow
but shall not wonder too much
mayb go sleep earlier..
yeah

gtg now

cya

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 11:06 PM

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Saturday, October 15, 2005

haix
trying to enjoy my short break
yesterday went boeys house...
so not bad...quite fun too
swimming...trying to escape gideon and his erm...
"pinching" antics
and then tried to play with boeys mini pool table
i was sooo bad...but at least i didnt hit until the cue ball like went off the table..haix..like zhang and jason
zhang even hit it so hard it hit against the frame thingy and the guard came in due to that super loud noise the ball caused
tsk tsk zhang! =P

my sister is like playing christmas songs on the piano
at my frens house..which is where i m typing all this
so...the keyboard feels weird and i cant really type properly
and its super hot!
theres no fan...no nothing...
quite..stuffy!

nooo...cant wait for christmas...
but i shudnt get into too much of a holiday kinda mood
cuz i havent gotten back my results
once i do...
then i can like say gdbye to everything that is like happy
cuz my results arent really gonna be gd
at least i hope not
i wanna get gd results...but i noe not all will b gd
at least majority...
at least the ones that i noe i didnt screw up
or the ones i didnt think i screwed up
muz get gd
if not my end year results r like so bad
then what is the point of all my hardwork in term 1, 2 and 3?
i worked so hard in those terms
get relatively gd marks
notice the relatively becuz in 2.12 its nothing to b proud about
but in 2.14 its quite gd...
to me its very gd!
ive never been the kind to b very smart..that kind
always in the lower half of the class
so to b in the top half is a gd feeling
and a new one...dun really get there
so im happy to b there...and was aiming to b 3rd in class
now i can only hope i can stay there
becuz my end year wasnt gd!

so now back to the happy stuff!
happy! happy tree frens?
nah!

today kayaking was fun!
but got sunburnt quite bad...
now im like as WO tan ming han would say
im like a lobster!
i think everyone who went did get sunburnt quite badly
yiwei looked like a rudolph..with a really red nose
i look quite bad too...
now now...i cant do lots of things..but its still fun!
and i cant make it for the last session...
so now me and tim toh have to go for a make-up session in december
with..nvm
not with BB...thats all im gonna say...
and dun think in that warped thinking of yours...
i can read your mind...
no i cant

soso...i gtg soon
because im at my frens house and its almost time to go home...
lalala!
my hols are wasted!
monday like got company directory meeting
then got spar with cat high...
then at night..well..nothing
butbut that means i cant go daniel yees house!
nooo..i wanna go..can play with him
and our frens...
and play lots of things
but now i cant!
so sad!
but nways...shall b happy with what i have

lalala!
theres nothing to blog about...
and now meth cup...
o dear..im super rusty!..i cant db8 properly
and in 2 weeks time..there is meth cup
which causes me to miss the last session of the star2 kayaking course
so..meth cup..
haix...gonna have trng every single weekday from now on
i think i have to pon some of the training
for the sake of drill practice...
im sry acdb8
im sry to the trainer...the seniors actually
so yeah
muz get back some form..
so that ac..which is sending like a really junior team
with the most experience guys being sec2s...
i noe a lot of other schs have done that...
mgs...scgs...cat high etc
but ac..well..we have gd seniors..
so the juniors dun get much opportunity yet!
haha....
no one really noes ac's juniors...
except those in dep...heehee
now meth cup!
i wanna win meth cup...
d crawshaw too...boyd...
dunno if we can...
o well
acdb8
well..it rox!
for the sake of the club
i shall try to train as much as possible
and try to get back some form
and try to win meth cup
if possible..although i think its very very difficult
so yeah

really gtg now

cya!

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 11:21 PM

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Thursday, October 13, 2005

its over!

math was disastrous

gonna get screwed

bye!

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 4:47 PM

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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

haix
everyones eoys are over!

i come to my tagboard..i see pual chu saying his eoys r over
then i see rachel say that hers are over..
not to mention that on monday my elder sis's promos were over
today is wednesday...guess wat?..
its my younger sis's last day
and obviously as im blogging in the afternoon
its like...no more exams for her

and poor poor me...still worrying bout math tmr
at least can take comfort that some of my frens..those from rg havent even started
i dun mean to like xing zao le huo...but...haix..nvm
shant say more

lalala..geog was saaad!
i had so much hope in geog!
i thot mayb..mayb i could do well in something
and then..i realised my mapwork was bad...
usually like my best...hardly get below 8 upon 10
now..i doubt can make it to 6 even!
haix
lit 2 was o..k... i guess...dunno if can do well
hopefully can..i thot it easy..but papers i thought easy
i do badly...
so...shant say or hope too much

lalala
tmr is math...
haix
not going to do well...can feel it!
i juz noe it!
but i dun care

if u fail before u even attempt
u have determined ur destiny
and yet greatest respect
is reserved for those
who will give it all they've got
not for fame nor for fortune
nor for anything else
that many men should desire
but because of something
that is inside of him
the heart, that passion
that unwillingness to give up
even though odds are so
stacked up against you
determined to prove the odds
so wrong
great risk, little chance of success
thats the situation
the consequence dire if you lose
but yet, with full strength
i charge forward
driven by the very force
that makes me who i am today
down that field
knowing the impact awaiting
i brace myself for it
i prepare myself to meet
that doomsday scenario
that i try to erase
from my thoughts
from my nightmares or dreams
the spears and pikes
jutting out, ready to pierce me
to go right through my heart
slashing my jugular vein
causing my blood
to flow like a river
to make me see
with my eyes, under my nose
my life flowing down that
red red river, blood
but as long as air goes through
these nostrils of mine
as long as my pulse is racing
as long as i can still move
i will not allow this to happen
to die in a battle, theres no shame
to come out in victory
brings greater honour
to chicken out, run away
i will never be able
to hold my head up high
ever again
but to face the enemy
straight in the eye
to have charged down
towards my doom
i can say that i had
courage.

Courage
there is a fear in your eyes
and i see my own fear reflected
in those eyes of yours
but yet we will stand together
the enemy stands before us
outnumbering us
they can smell that fear
they feed on it
but we shall no let them intimidate us
we stand united, we stand strong
now let us go down that field
as one unit
let us run with courage
let us show them what
we are capable of
run forward with all your might
do not fear my brothers
take courage.

*now dun ask me y im suddenly like writng weird stuff
muz b watching too many shows...
like lotr rotk and master and commander
all the fighting have gotten to my head
ah no!
now stop it u violent little boy! **me**
lolx*

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 6:46 PM

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Sunday, October 09, 2005

o dear!
hist test tmr!
after that..i tell u
im going to be history!
literally!

emotionally strained
intellectually debrained
physically drained

wah!

bad time...one of the worst time this year
partly cuz of eoy
but main reason is something else

sc

only the Lord can solve the problems present

whimsical nonsense @ 9:48 PM

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Friday, October 07, 2005

hm..today had lit paper 1...i like the poem..so cool!

Unseen poem

At the San Francisco Airport

To my daughter, 1954

This is the terminal: the light
Gives perfect vision, false and hard;
The metal glitters, deep and bright.
Great planes are waiting in the yard -
They are ready in the night

And you are here beside me, small,
Contained and fragile, and intent
On things that I but half recall -
Yet going whither you are bent.
I am the past, and that is all.

But you and I in part are one:
The frightened brain, the nervous will,
The knowledge of what must be done,
The passion to acquire the skill
To face that which you dare not shun.

The rain of matter upon the sense
Destroys me momently. The score:
There comes what will come. The expense
Is what one thought, and something more -
One's being and intelligence

This is the terminal, the break
Beyond this point, on lines of air,
You take the way that you must take;
And I remain in light and stare -
In light, and nothing else, awake.

yeah..thats the end..the awake part..by who..i dunno
juz in case ur curious..hm..wonder if can post the questions here...
2a) what is the speaker's relationship with his daughter and how has her departure affected him? Support your answer with close reference to the form and content of the poem.

b) What does the airport symbolize in the poem? How effective has the poet been in using the symbol of the airport to convey the speaker's feelings? Justify your answer with detailed substantiation from the poem.

yeah...wonder if its like copyrighted...

if it is..im sry..cuz i didnt noe im not allowed to do so.

nice poem...and it rhymes too! =)

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 6:53 PM

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Wednesday, October 05, 2005

countdown to eoys
days...
1!

gd luck to me..gd luck to acsi sec2 geps =)

tackle the eoys!

btw..i passed my grade7 piano..whew!
105...which is gd...considering i only started practising hard...one week before!
and like it was a pass or fail thing..so to pass is relief...
thot i would fail...not even expecting to pass after exam
Thank the Lord!

whimsical nonsense @ 10:24 PM

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Sunday, October 02, 2005

ah!
so fast and exams coming..and i like havnt even really mugged yet...
i dun care...
from tmr onwards limited erm..online i guess?
mayb tmr last time...
tuesday off limits cuz wanna watch csi miami
on free tv channel 5...cuz i dun have cable...
sobsob...
so ppl all watch already and im like...nvm
then wed is like one day before..nopes..muz mug
thurs onwards...siao arh?
go online...
its like in the midst of exams...
so nopes...
aw..dun miss me..heehee
juz kidding..of course!
so...since its quite late..shud go sleep
whee!

good luck to all having exams! =)

but its not luck u shud be depending on

nor the hours that u've spent mugging

though u can depend on it to some extent

trust in the Lord

he is the provider...he has blessed you like a lot a lot

as the hymn goes..count ur blessings..name them one by one...

well..if you really do that..u'll realise that ur blessings are numerous

and every...single..one of them comes from God

all your results this year...comes from God

if you got gd results..they are from him...not your work

as in dun like juz sit there and let the grades fall from heaven

you still have to do your bit...just remember

do your best and God will do the rest =)

so study hard for ur EOYs...

but at the same time..never ever forget God

my officer said..pray before an exam...

which is what my frens and i did for mid-years...

cool..we got good grades...

but in term 3...sometimes i forget God...and not surprisingly

i dun do as well as expected...and then im reminded

wat was i doing?!...trying to pass an exam by myself?

im just a human...alone..im nothing...with a billion other humans

we're all nothing...in the presence of the Lord

whee!...trust in the Lord to provide for all your needs

remember who can conquer ur EOYs...

whimsical nonsense @ 11:11 PM

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whimsical nonsense @ 11:11 PM

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