along the cobbled sidewalks of life

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

wah! so busy nowadays
got life science
idp!
lotsa other stuff
piano exam tmr!

dear me...so scary
quite nervous..not anymore now..as in now
cuz worried more bout idp...since i juz finished my bit
tmr is the bit we all combine..then tada!...finish
hopefully
piano exam!
wonder if can pass...
havent been practising for the past year...not a lot
and like for the past week..
last tueday...wednesday...friday...monday..tuesday...today
all add up..i think mayb add up to longer than like wat..may?
yeah..the whole month of mah 2005..mayb...
shows how much i havent been practising...
but decided to juz give grade 7 a try...
pray i can pass...
really hope i can pass...
o well..if i dun...wat can i say?

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11

Its all in His hands now.

whimsical nonsense @ 10:59 PM

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Monday, August 29, 2005

wow..my really long post...ok..relatively long post is gone
cuz i tried to go yks blog..and as usual..i cant..and it closes automatically
and unfortunately..it closes blogger too...
die yk die!
ok...not seriously...
yk is a really nice person...i wan her to die for wat?
go yk! wahahaZ
well..for those sc gals...db8s...if ur feeling down over wat happened at ajc
dun!...or at least cheer up
ignore wat they all say..wat they all think...
u noe u rock...i noe u rock...others noe u rock
so show them that indeed u do rock!
whee! go sc!
go me!...ok sry...juz kidding
but those who r down...over ip application results..over wadever
cheer up kaes?
wanna eat a cookie?
they are good...too much is bad...but heys...go eat one
if it helps u cheer up..go ahead!
dun worry...dun b like cookie monster
scared to eat the last cookie...
becuz he believed it was the last cookie...forever!
and so if he eats it..there will be no more cookies..forever!
wahahaz...so cute

sc cookie monster?
cookies anyone?

whimsical nonsense @ 10:55 PM

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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

ooo lookies!

i shall not go back to all those weirdo post of mine...heh
but seriously..im like posting for the sake of posting
o well..at least i noe i cant do 1st prop...nor 3rd
that means a really limited space for me..
which is bad for the team...
while trng goes on for meth cup...o well...
i better start to practice piano like siao..so can pass grade 7

yeah...o well...
haix..one day i simply muz go back to those weirdo post of mine
haha...dolphins..shark..the sea..
save who..haix...ppl really misrepresented my intentions...
lalala
save who arh?
ahem or ahem?
its up to me to decide!
nah...i dunno lah..seriously

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:58 PM

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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

the seed of anger was planted
the final drop of water
the fertiliser was present
the seed started to grow

it burst through the ground
with such ferocity; soil thrown all around
the sun continued to shine,
contraty to the mood present

the anger plant grew, it started to attack
it never did expect
for retaliation worse than it
but it only made it grow stronger

the weeds round it were pulled out
the roots swallowed its counterparts
the plant a force, it became
a tree so big, rather strong

the killer attack, that chop of the axe
wounded the tree beyond anything
the tree learnt its lesson, its anger, it lost
any will to continue.

sc written in anger of sam chan, but its like..not very gd..

whimsical nonsense @ 3:46 PM

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Saturday, August 20, 2005

okies..some replies to tags...

zhxin...haha...thanx man lolx
lis...lolx aunty..wadever...eh..tell me who u think it is..and btw...i wasnt referring to saving anyone lah
adwyn...i bet i know who u think it is..so?..i also noe who u wanna save..heh
33..hm...u r?
ying ling...heyas! yeah here..yeah..sry..sort of forgotten bout u too...sry! u take care too! =)
jaz...lookies!..its the full-of-wisdom gal..wahahaz..saved by no one lah...or at least i wont say..=p
yk...aiyoh...shud have expected it from u!..read so much..heh...ur tag is like most unusual of all lah!..i told u u were amusing..dun believe..humph!

now that settles it...hm...
lemme see...is there anything to say?
anything at all?
come on..i noe there is...quick..anyone..anything
juz say something?..its too quiet...
hello?...im sick of hearing my voice...
when i ask u all talk u dun..when i ask u all keep quiet u dun..
wah..so i ask u keep quiet izzit?
fine!..keep quiet...go on..go on...
*deadly silence*
haix..not working...ah well...
lets try to stimulate u..soccer?
no?..how bout lifestyle?..
ah..all different..hard to talk?..nopes
precisely different can share wat..then nicer...
then learn more bout each other...see?...u guys r smart
now share ur smartness...show ur wisdom
not asking u to show off..or boast...but well..juz speak up
hey guys..i noe u can do it...
y so silent?
*silence continues*

haha...u noe how i started with is there anything to say?
i was like nothing to blog about...and then tada! so long on nothing to say
wahahaZ

i guess thats a bit of me..sam chan...the sam chan...
acvc...u noe whos that?...shh..wont tell u
but quite duh!
acvc....hea
hea means happily ever after by the way...heheh
go acvc!...lolx
sry aunty....i hope u dun mind
though im quite sure u wont...
unless uve been lying all this while...
tsk tsk man...i mean woman...or aunty...
lolx

o well...its sch...like duh...sch is like the whole year!
save the hols...thats y its hols....not sch...
o man..this post is getting nowhere...
or now here...lolx
i wanna go nowhere...wait no
i dun..i wanna go somewhere!
where?..i dunno..not sure..
lets go..to the island!
i dun wanna die...i want to go to the island..
u promised!...u promised!
*drags me to surgery room to suck my organs out and freeze it like pigs organs*
haha..can u imagine..poor piggies...oink oink oink...oink oink oink!...oink oink oink!
in other words...dun wanna die...u promised me!..u promised me!
lolx..and then we kill them..eat them...take their organs..and eat them...
and them make them imagine we're bringing them to the land of halal ppl
*no racism intended..if there is any offense, i apologize and promise not to do it again*
ok..thats bad...sorry

so..back to where we began...replying tags
eh wait..not feasible..next pls!...ok wait no!
im sry..we're closed...pls come back tmr..thank you...=)

sc

whimsical nonsense @ 10:04 PM

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Wednesday, August 17, 2005

o well...

lets juz say that im in the sea?...trying to run away
from the problem..the shark!...o no...
poor me...bleeding...the shark homing in on me
like that homing missle that killed the pilot of the F-16
im ian thorpe...michael phelps...grant hackett all rolled into one
not literally of course..thats juz too wrong...
but nooo..the shark...is THE shark...
like how to escape?

i wanna swim faster...to that steady stream of smoke on the horizon
faster faster faster...i tire myself..the shark is like..hungrier hungrier hungrier
if..a dolphin would juz swim by..i would grab on to the dorsal fin...
and let him lead me away..assuming i can speak dolphin language
or he can understand human language...
and assuming he has a change in diet and goes after me too...
so yeah...he or she can save me...and i wanna duh wanna be saved right?

ok..the moral of story is...dun bleed when theres a shark? no!
pray for a dolphin when in trouble? no!
then wat?!
lolx..sry..its mad me doing a weirdo convo thing..im bored...
so..back to moral of story
the moral of the story is..hm...mayb dun have
but the sea represents something..likewise the shark...dolphin..and me..duh me!
so..once u noe..u noe wat me talking about...
otherwise..the shark shall be the shark
the hungry shark going after tasty me..cuz im so pro..juz kidding
but noo...i guess that dolphin isnt gonna come..and there i go...
desperately further away from.....
no..not the shark..im not ian grant phelps kaes...
from safety...
so in i go into the sharks belly...not all of me...
the arms and legs mayb floating around...
the remnents...wadever is left...
will be all that is remembered of sam chan
dear dear sam chan
wahahaz!
i meant poor poor sam chan

sc (gs?)
nah

s.c =)

whimsical nonsense @ 11:18 PM

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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

i wonder wat happened to me...
did i fall off the path..into the thorns and thistles that surrounds it...
or did i willingly throw myself into it, inflicting those painful wounds on myself
ouch...i cry out in pain...in regret...because i believe it was voluntary
the bait was lying among it..i fell for it...down i go
into that bed of rocky ground...protruding needles..poking every inch of my skin
i regret my decision..and i make a decision, not to ever do that again...
thankfully...a man..with a face that shines like the sun, clothed in light...
walks by...helping up every single fool like me to jump off the path..
the path that leads to the horizon..where rest can be found
the narrow path...surrounded by trails and tribulations...thorns and thistles
that man...although his face is so bright, yet the kindness i saw
he picked me up and placed me on the path again,
making sure i was alright, before leaving to help the others
but yet i know that he was not leaving me...no...
he is there right by my side, just that its not visible to me
i continue down that path...the knowledge hes there beside me
to watch over me...and then i reach another trial...another tribulation
the same bait...again...the fool in me goes to take it...
the pain i feel...the blood that trickles into the already red soil...
makes me regret my decision...the pain psychologically..that i failed in my mission
is worse than the pain i suffer physically from those cruel thorns...
again...i see the man...the very same man..hes there again..to help me up..
i hesitate...like before...not sure if i really want to leave the bait..
lying in front of my face...yet knowing if i say..i would be left there to die..
my blood flowing out of my veins...birds pecking at my rotting flesh...
i decide to take the outstreched arm again...i go back to the path...
i wonder why that man..whom i know was beside me..inside me...
did not stop me from going for the bait...
and then he tells me that he allowed it to happen...
it was a test...a test of my resolution...of my love for him
for if i do indeed love him..i would not depart from his ways...
i look down in shame..at the cuts all over me...
i dare not look up...im too embarrassed...i have failed...
yet he still helped me up..m i worthy of such grace...of such mercy?
he knows my thoughts..my feelings...and he raises my face..
that smile...in his face...and i know that im underserving...
but he still is there for me..to save me from certain death
for this im grateful
Thank you.

whimsical nonsense @ 11:25 PM

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Monday, August 15, 2005

o no...here comes week 8...the last week of test..with 3!..
math on thursday...which is also the rugby finals...
life sci and lit on friday..which is also the day i have SL...
but i also have my practice session at the funny place!
aiyah..dunno how..juz mug and mug
and now got to juggle iso and smp..haix...

how i wish it was one week ago...
still watching the performance at esplanade recital studio...or going home..
then from home drive all the way to changi...like the other side of the island...
then go to the chalet!...then sleep late..as usual...yay!
so cool...mayb shant blog so much bout it already...
but it was a cool experience...
very gd
if got chance again...i would definitely go...
yay!

o well...haix..i shall try not to use the com too much now..
muz get into mugging mood
this term my average probably like wat...hopefully..hopefully 70
but i think its below...around 65-70...i guess
mayb 65 even...hope not
if not pull down my semester 1 average of 74...
nooo..i wanna keep my 3rd in class...hold off jason..adwyn..owman...
keep up with russ..and juzzie..but now so difficult..
aiyoh...now i wish top 5 can...10...ok lah...but thats where i expect to b
mayb...i shudnt b too confident
work first..talk later...yeah?
all to God now

whimsical nonsense @ 10:17 PM

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Thursday, August 11, 2005

ah no!

i still have finished my fop entry...haix...
another day have to do...then can convince more ppl to go next year...heh
before i even do that
i have another event to blog about
national day!
no...its not gonna b very cliche kind...
ok..not to me..at least
quite fun

now i gtg..haix

whimsical nonsense @ 11:11 PM

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Monday, August 08, 2005

okies..not much time to blog...
but i went for fop last night...or yesterday...
haha...came like 5..and already queue so long..by the time
me and boyd got in...*thank gdness*...
indoor stadium already more than half filled...

haix..gtg
nooo
bye guys!
wahahaz..pls tag...
no..not "lloyd"

whimsical nonsense @ 5:50 PM

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Friday, August 05, 2005

not too long ago...walking with david crawshaw and govind...
surprise surprise...i was reminded of someone
someone that is one of my good frens...
its true i have many good ones...but this one...
would always hold a special place in my memory..my heart...
i really regret those times when i had the chance...yet
i didnt take it...either too busy...too tired...taking it for granted
but suddenly...that chance evaporated...time and again it presented itself
time and time again i snubbed it...thinking theres a next time
there is a next time...but that next time is too next time
i dun wanna wait..i wish that fren would come back...
i miss him...his antics...his blur-ness that never fails to cheer anyone up
the way he sees things...whether it be in a more serious way
or in a very light-hearted manner...
its really funny...and im not laughing at him...nor with him...
somehow i feel that im laughing..im not sure...but in a positive way
the time ive spent with him...for 4 straight years...ive been in his class...
since i came to henry park...at p4..i was a newbie...or as he likes to put it
a freshman!
i slowly opened up after a cautious start...i started to make more friends..
he was one of them...some of those fren became my good frens..
frens i wanna stay frens with until who noes when
hes one of them
frens ive spent my recess with..playing soccer...frens ive talked to
frens ive laughed with..frens ive fought with...
yet..they remain my frens...and so will he
but lets not digress from the issue at hand...him
for 4 years...ive seen wat he does in class...in sch...its so him...so unique
at the fifth year...seperated for once...but in the same sch...
its still ok...but i realised that hes going away...
to a place...where i most probably will not see him
he came back...yet gone again...back...but again...gone
no one to blame...except me...
i passed the opportunity to see him...giving excuses...
not realising that one day..its going to make me...
make me wallow in regret...and to think...
y did i give up that few chances?
ive heard ur not coming back...at least for the next 2 years...
now i really regret it...
i reflect back...and realised with a sad feeling..
that ive neglected you ever since you left...
and now i miss you...i wish you come back...
i wish i could have known you better...
in primary sch...in p5...in p6 if im not wrong...
going to your house for ur birthday parties...
october 26 i think..i cant even rmb ur birthday...
would i consider myself ur fren?..i noe it doesnt hinge only on that
i noe its not even important...but its the last i could do...
ive failed
wat now m i to u?..i hope im still ur fren...i hope you rmb me
but the chances of that is low...ive neglected you...but not forgotten you
i sincerely wish its the same with you
looking back at those times ive spent with you...with the others...
zx...nic...adwyn...bryan...kartik..gabriel...
i would always rmb these ppl...they were my gd frens in pri sch
my first group of frens i felt really comfortable with...
u belong to that group...but yet..
i wonder y i m typing all this...all of a sudden...
i noe u most probably wont even see this..
u wont noe this post exist...as some kind of tribute...
from me to you
i look back to the 2 birthday celebrations at your house that i went to
the time we played soccer...basketball...the times we ate..
although i had to leave early for both...not spending the time
that i would have liked to have spent with you...
but ur one year older...and right now ur 13...on to 14...in due course
uve grown...ive grown up with you...in p4...we were noobs
we graduated to snrs in p6...relegated to noobs again in sec1...
all the time...i had u with me..in my class...to always noe that im never alone...
when im sad....ur there..when im happy...ur there...no matter what..ur there
i can still can see ur face...in my head..as a memory...
but yet..ive not seen it for months...and so far that has never happened
ever since i knew you...the longest time ive not seen u would be the holidays...
but now..i cant even rmb when was the last time i saw u...
face to face...oep?..i doubt so...we were in different places..
i wanna see you...one last time before we possibly lose contact...
uve been a fren to me...im not sure if ive been one to you...
i pray that i would have another chance...
to be what youve always been to me...i hope you come back one day...
i hope i can be a gd fren to you...hopefully its for a second time...
thank you
neville

whimsical nonsense @ 7:14 PM

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Thursday, August 04, 2005

quite busy..as usual
or mayb its juz a matter of time management...
tmr got geog test...3rd of the week...haix

so many things coming up...at least there is a national day holiday thing...
and there is festival of praise!
might b going only...hopefully can...i soooo wanna go

all the assignments, all the syllabus starts to wrap up
in preperation for the final showdown in term 4
me....versus the papers...
hope i will triumph...
i know i will...but no..not alone
with God helping me, every step of the way

o well...quite late..

cya!

whimsical nonsense @ 11:30 PM

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Monday, August 01, 2005

let us finish...

questions...finish wat?
questions...who is us?

so bored...not that i have nothing
instead i have too many things
to do, such that i simply give up
call it defeatist attitude, call it whatever you
want, say im a coward, running away
go ahead!
do i look like it matters so much?
and seriously, a coward, a generalisation
i cant see myself a coward in that context
mayb im dumb, mayb im not
argh!
the last lap, finish it with one last push, you can do it
right, im quite sure i can, with that one last push
but to do that, you must sacrifice this and that
you have to drop things,
i dun want to! i dun think i can!
just forget it! i cant do it!
i dun think i can even make it, so why
bother so much? its simply not among my interest
simply not among the things i like to do
simply something low on my list of hm...prioties?
i really want to drop it!
no more restraints, no longer that feeling of being cornered
of being forced, i have no motivation to push on, for that
last hurrah! to me, it does not exist, not for me at least...

come on boy, push!...you can do it..you have to do it
come on boy, i noe you can, but do you want to?

simply put it, no!

whimsical nonsense @ 11:07 PM

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