along the cobbled sidewalks of life

Saturday, July 30, 2005

let me tell u something kaes...
i went sonicfest yesterday...
IT ROCKS!!!!!!!

met russ...ellius..kin ming..shaun ong...warrant..or kiwi...at dhoby ghaut
then walk there..buy tickets...found daniel yee..wahahaz
and his funny hair...
bought tickets there..bum around..wait for warrant ming han...
then later..we went to the give stage!...everything was normal..didnt seem that gd..
but wait...the best is yet to be...at least for that day...

but wait..patience my dear...
we sat...listened to the loud music from the speakers
and feeling the pouding vibrations in our hearts...
i was with daniel yee...wahahaz..and the rest lah of course..but
sitting next to him on the grassy grass grass
it was perusia or something like that...not bad...but not long later
they ended...guess a bit of bad timing..next band...vertical rush
looked like a local band..i guess it is...the songs not bad...
but according to dan yee the singing a bit weird..
i half agree with him...half not...

PLANET SHAKERS!
first time im hearing them...first time ive been in an open area...
singing contemporary songs...with so many ppl..
praising God...
an awesome experience..and it was really really gd!
nice songs..haix...no words can fully describe how i felt
or in fact how any of those people there praising God too felt
may it last forever

SONIC FLOOD!
ok..first time im hearing them too...the songs..
some i know..some i dont...but lyrics were flashed...
able to sing along..to know wat ur singing..and really mean it...
the last time ive felt like this...i guess muz b during youth camp..
the one at sentosa...
SONIC FLOOD!
they rock!..the way they managed to lead everyone in worship...
sharing a testimonial...and touching some ppls hearts...
i love singing praises...to God

too bad i couldnt make it for todays sonicfest..the last day
o well...waiting for next years...if there is one...

thanx to the sec2 ppl who organised this so called outing..wahahaz
though only 5 of us turned up...but many bq ppl couldnt make it..sad
we had 2 warrants..and mr wesley cheong and mr allan lee..both who came later...
after the leading thingy...its not a performance..its not to perform for us
more for leading the ppl to worship Him
went burger king at plaza sing for supper..then back to sch..
disturbed the bq ppl..a bit only...
watched monty python and the holy grail...bits of it...on mr lees laptop
then the 5 of us..went to do drill...wahahaz...and kiwi was like..shh..dun stamp so loud
got the security guard and the dog...and the corridors were like super dark!
so scary....
then shower...all the praising and worshipping has caused us to perspire a lot...become sticky
but not one bit..not at all do i regret it!...if i could..i most probably would have continued...
shower in sch..since we were sleeping over in sch..like the bq ppl...
nooo..no hot water..super cold lah!...haha..then go up...play daidi...
then bluff...kin ming and his card hogging...lolx
slept at 3 in the end..and woke up at 6am...to prepare for BB parade...so cool right?

i believe i was at sonic fest for a reason...not by accident...
originally i wouldnt have been able to make it due to piano lessons
and my teacher was so bz he couldnt change it to the afternoon...so..
i couldnt go...but then 2 days before friday he called to say friday afternoon..
yay!...i could actually go for sonic fest...
no..its not coincidental...i remember someone saying...some officer i think..
that when you are somewhere..say on a mission trip...or in this case sonic fest..
you are there for a reason...God placed you there for a reason...
hm...

whimsical nonsense @ 11:19 PM

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Thursday, July 28, 2005

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends

wake me up when september ends - Green Day

whimsical nonsense @ 10:21 PM

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Wednesday, July 27, 2005

ok..shall consider myself very lucky already...considering im only sec 2!
we lost to ri in the hcs finals...but so wat?
its by the will of God..even so...by His grace..we were there in the finals...
the semi-finals was also split decision...really close...we got inside the finals..relief
recall the moment...announcing winners of the semi-finals...
my heart was pouding...anxiousness began to creep in..i gave in
winner of 3-2...acsi...whoa!...i hardly expected it...
credit to HCI...tough fight...really good..i guess i didnt think much of you before
but now uve changed my point of view...more respect to you! =)
now now now..lets go back to the finals

4-3 split...we ended up on the losing side...
according to adjudicators it was a gd db8...
gd points..on both sides...
we could have won it if only the motion was phrased differently..like
with different words..say sentencing...
but considering we were half-prepared as was banking on the break
to finalise our case...but gd already...

sean...ranked 5th...sam cheam..ranked 2nd...
credit to them...equal or more to paul chu...
juz that sam cheam ahead of you..hard to further rebuttals
thats my guess...doesnt benefit you...but heys
ur ability is no doubt there...and who cares bout rankings?
no ac sec 2 was ranked for y14..but we made it to the semis..does it say something?
dun worry paul...
sean..sam..paul..wat great seniors you are...
amazing experience in jgs...another eventful time with you in the hcs
with seniors like that...even if i was offered a place somewhere else..
i'll stay in acsi...thanx

well..the down part is...ive lost 3 times...y14 semis...hcs prelim round 2...and now the finals
guess to who?...all 3 times to RI...haix...
credit to them...they r a gd team..their y14 one and hcs one...
though one particualar member of the y14 team...
the rather round chubby one..but truth is very sporty...strong..
m*r**n....was his name-o
very vulgar...wahahaz

the light part is..im really fortunate..to have great team members..
the sec 3s...plus lloyd in jgs...
adwyn...lloyd..david crawshaw..paul...yay for y14th '05 team!~~i dub it slap'd!
im really fortunate...to see in my possession...the jgs champions trophy
the y14th semi-finals trophy...and now..hwa chongs invitationals runner up trophy...
and im juz sec 2...dun u call this really fortunate?...feel quite underserving of jgs and hwa chongs
i mean like juz a reserve...and as someone said..shall not say names..
there is a limit to wat a reserve can do...feel like a free loader...
but in the future it wont...i think it wont...no..lemme change it
i noe it wont...ive learnt loads from hwa chongs...
this learning will not leave me...not in the near foreseable future..is that how u spell it?
i have about 2 and a half years...left...wats left for me?
lots!..meth cup...next years jgs perhaps...hwa chongs perhaps..
i have so much ahead of me..and already i seem to have more trophies than others older..
but no...trophies arent the most important...i keep reminding myself
im in the team not to win..to learn..to gain experience...
to one day be able to stand up there..give my best for the team
for the sch...for acdb8..the club...
for God...who has helped acdb8 thru everything...competitions...camps...other aspects

Thank you seniors...slap'd....acdb8 for this great experience

Thank you God!

God Bless!

whimsical nonsense @ 11:17 PM

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Saturday, July 23, 2005

sometimes i wonder..i m a master?...or a jack?
in case u dunno...m i a master of anything..
or a jack of all trades...or worse...
master of none..jack of none too...

in everything i do..im not the best...

in academics..even in my class...3rd...which is gd
yes i noe...to some..but y not 1st?
during those 2km runs..in my class..most of the time 3rd..
relatively gd..but y not 1st?
the 2 ppl who beat me in academics r the same 2
who beat me in stamina runs...
they are gd in this...gd in that...wat m i than?
jack of trades..master of none

my ccas...db8...
im juz an average..or ok..maximu slightly better than average speaker
not outstanding like celine..beu...lis...the list goes on...
not a king...nor a queen...leaving me with wat they call a jack
is that a gd thing?...could it also be bad?
in bb...yeah..im a pfc...almost lcp..which is gd!
we're all the same..but somehow i feel that im not really that outstanding...
but its gd enough for me..but all the same...
does it mean..there is nothing..simply nothing at all
that i can at least excel in?

im a geper...academics my forte...
or so it seems...but obviously im not the excellent
scholar...but thats ok..not everyone is..but gifted in other ways
some are gifted in music...job...eka...mwee?
some are gifted in sports...rene...henry...peter...
some are gifted in studies...dan yee..who is gifted in music too btw...
some are gifted in multiplie aspects..sports + studies..or studies + music
im gifted in wat?..i dunno...nothing

the saying goes jack of all trades..master of none
its not a gd thing...u r not gd at anything at all...
as gd as a gd-for-nothing *no...being gd at being a gd-for-nothing does not count*
u need to b a master of something...
will u then b able to do something..make a living perhaps?

on the other hand..others might say..ur an all-rounder..true..
in the db8 team...currently half-rank above the other sec2s...studies not too bad...
i agree..i seem to b doing really great..until i start to think
wat m i gd at?..does all-rounded means im gd at things?

somehow..i dun think so...
somehow i think...i achieve this..achieve that...so on so forth
i think back...but exactly...m i really that gd?
im juz as they say...a jack...

haix..really confused...repeatedly..time and time again...
especially in sec sch..i seem to b doing really well..
better than wat i expect...but yet...i always stop short
always at a maximum of 3rd...unless im there because
of someone..who is a master in his or her own right...or a few ppl
they r the ones who brought me up...i might have contributed..
but ultimately...its them who did the work..i juz rode on...

wat is it with me...not being able to excel...
not being able to actually be really gd at something
always a jack...not even a queen..much less a king...
m i borned like that?
m i destined to b someone...who is all-rounded..
but yet is not able to totally excel in something...
m i destined to b like that?...to lead a life of doing multiple task
doing them well..but not exceptional...

is this gd?...deep down..i feel its not...

*yes..it is at 12.06am...so late!...or early..wadever..lolx*

whimsical nonsense @ 12:06 AM

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Monday, July 18, 2005

haix..getting a bit busier nowadays..if theres such a word...

im drifting further away from the path im meant to take
my enemy throws a line..entices me..tempts me...
i takes the bait..and gets reeled away...
i refused to let go...holding on to the bait
in my foolishness
i get pulled nearer my enemy..but im blinded by greed
unable to see me going further away than i already am
from my target at the end of it all
i got to...i have to...must..juz must..
let go of this tasty morsel in my mouth...
but juz too tasty..although i noe its not gonna last
unlike wat im going to experience if i reach my target...
my body yearns for short term enjoyment
my mind the contrary...
i need help...i wan help..to pry me away
from such a cunning trap...to take advantage
of the weaknesses present in me..present in others
how often are they exploited..how often are they used...
how often have they failed me...and how often i give in?
i juz wish u pray for me..that i might not...ever...
drift farther...that i might have the self-control..the discipline..
to stay true to the path i muz take...to fix my eyes on my target ahead
to noe the consequences...and to fear it...to fear Him...
pray that i might hang on tight..and not be swayed by the enemy...

alone..im weak..but i can do all things thru Him who strengthens me...

whimsical nonsense @ 11:08 PM

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Sunday, July 17, 2005

guess wat?...i cannot swim...
no lah..actually i can..its juz that im drowning
in homework...and so many test coming up!
actually no..juz a life science test
which has sooo many topics...the male..the female..asexual reproduction..a lot more...
how to study so much?
then still got history assignment plus 3 wks...
so difficult...

and got a lot of articles to read too...noooo

the pool has too much homework and articles..i need a floatation device..
or it would be my graveyard...
i think i rather have earth rather than erm..."water" as my u noe.."cemetery"
air and fire is out lah!...hm..got other elements or not?

swaying left...swaying right...
so gentle...so peaceful...
swaying left...swaying right...
i feel like a baby...i wanna b a baby!
no cares in the world..so many ppl waiting on you
but then again..mayb not...
inability to comprehend certain stuff...
to play games...too enjoy wat life has to offer

whimsical nonsense @ 11:00 PM

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Thursday, July 14, 2005

this decision is crucial
to me..most prob not to u
this decision affects my life
in the next few years..mayb my life

this decision is hard to make
that i simply cannot do it...in the foreseeable future
this decision has to be made soon
im still unsure...and getting quite desperate

this decision tears my passions apart
two passions...clashes yet breaks away
this decision when made is probably
too late anyway...but i gotta choose

this decision i say again is too late
there is not much use now...the same cannot be said for later
this decision is not one you wanna make
advise you to know what you want...your choice, your future

whimsical nonsense @ 10:36 PM

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Monday, July 11, 2005

yay!

watched war of the worlds yesterday...started at 9pm...haha
so late hor?..then came home already 11.30..but still managed to sleep
at normal bedtime..say 12.30?...but me trying to sleep earlier
so that dun sleep so often in class..then mayb got chance of beating russ and juzzie

overall gd show...haha..my father was complaining...expected better from steven spielberg...tom cruise...haha...but the ending was too abrupt...like...developing nicely...smoothly...like at the right pace..then suddenly *bam*...the ending comes...humans survive...the ending as in the really really end part...was gd...cuz its like similar to the beginning...exactly how i like stuff to be...heh

o well...not much time to blog..considering im reading my dep articles...haix

o well...for those making decisions...important ones...that might/will affect ur life...pray
prayer works wonders...and prayer is gd...really
go for prayer meetings!..ok..thats for bb boys...
but yeah...pray...the wisdom from God is gd enough to solve and make ur decisions

God Bless! =)

whimsical nonsense @ 9:50 PM

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Saturday, July 09, 2005

noooo

no time to blog

haha..for all whos here
like eugene!..haha...
aunty..jaz..rach..zhixin..and others..i presume...lolx
take cares! =)

this is sam chan...
wait no..
its his clone!
wahahaz

whimsical nonsense @ 10:46 PM

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Tuesday, July 05, 2005

lalala...

quite bored..and lifes been quite busy...haix...

for all those nice nice ppl who tagged my board...
like my aunty...jaz...adwyn!..weizhen..suzy
rach...many other ppl..

wahahaz..thank u!

im much more cheerful now...lolx

yay!

haha..but i still like my other post..at least i get to remember it...
the poem i wrote in one of my most depressing moment...

whimsical nonsense @ 10:41 PM

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Monday, July 04, 2005

I'm living in a vacuum
my life is a void
leaving me feeling so
empty

A blackhole sucks the feelings
emotions and meaning out
making me feel so
empty

I carry on with life
dead like a clone
like a shadow so
empty

Where are the things i once
loved, knew, treasure?
Why is my life feeling so
empty

Life moves on and i follow
going along with people
doing things yet still feel
empty

whimsical nonsense @ 9:58 PM

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Sunday, July 03, 2005

lotsa probs...

lotsa probs...

juz dunno where to begin...
but i wont...shant burden anyone

but juz...heres some questions i have..
if u wanna help me...ur welcome to..at my tagboard..
in advance..thanx

what exactly is frenship?...is it possible for u to lose it?
no..i dun mean lose a fren...a frenship...but i mean like..
lose that feeling of having a frenship with that person...
that person juz seems like someone u noe...with the word fren..
associated with it...
but yet..u seem to have lost the meaning...the feeling...of "fren"
wat is happening?
does anybody noe?

not the first time i have probs with frens...
doubt it will b the last...

is everybody going crazy?
is anybody gonna save me?
can anybody tell me whats going on?
tell me whats going on?
if you open your eyes
you'll see that something is wrong

simple plan - crazy

whimsical nonsense @ 11:12 PM

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Friday, July 01, 2005

The question is not what are these obstacles, but instead, what is true love? Most people would define true love as love that is as pure as the whitest snow, as strong as diamond, and withstanding everything thrown at it, to remain what it was when it started, love.

that was in my crp thing..some bits of it..yay!

i made it up!

whimsical nonsense @ 6:33 PM

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