along the cobbled sidewalks of life

Thursday, March 31, 2005

That's right baby

Im going crazy

I need to be your lady

I been thinking lately

That you and me

yes we can make it

Just ride with me roll with me

I'm in love with you baby

im crazy bout that song...going crazy by natalie...its a nice song...

haix...the acsi y14 team is....*dun wanna say...not obscene...juz think its not gd to say*

train hard guys...believe we can make it...with the grace of God and with sheer hardwork...

might not be blessed with an exceptional speakers

like mg and celine and sc with susannah

but remember we can make it

continue to strive on guys

for the ultimate prize

regardless whether

we win or lose

what matters

is that we

give our

BEST!

rock on!

cheers =)

whimsical nonsense @ 10:56 PM

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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

im finally like blogging...after like friday..saturday...sunday...monday not blogging...its quite long for me...

i feel like sad...there seems to b something that makes me kinda sad...dunno wat it is...but yeah...a sad feeling?

o man...that fren thingy...u noe the one where i feel insecure...is starting to come back...argh...m i meant to b inseure bout frenship for the rest of my life?...in sch i dun feel it...weird...but at home somehow...but like most of not all of the frenships i feel insecure about are not with ppl in sch...more like with ppl not from acsi...mayb cuz i trust ppl too easily?...i make frens too easily...as in not walk up to someone and try to make frens...but when i hardly noe that person i already treat that person as a fren...is it too fast?

o man...o man...for one of the rare times im behind in homework...im like so slow...have history assignment due next tuesday...some art thing...hopefully thursday morning i can do it...now im like doing so much homework in the mornings...its not meant to b like that...im becoming from the gd boy to a no offense ian toh kinda guy...

i cant live like that...i need my file to organise my worksheet stuff...i need to b who i once was in my studies...handing up my homework..not doing work in the morning but at home...but somehow everything seems so different...

whimsical nonsense @ 10:27 PM

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Thursday, March 24, 2005

cant blog much...

got 90 for art...so surprising...haix...if i juz didnt leave it hanging...mayb could have gotten higher...and beat lou ee!...muahahaha!

haix...think thats all im blogging...i lead a boring life hor?

whimsical nonsense @ 9:53 PM

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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

okies...i got back my geog paper...not gd..32.5/50...highest in class was owman...with 33.5/50...think im third in class...after owman and juzzie...but 2.13s highest is 35..while 2.12 highest is 38.5...so gd

now i noe my overall average...compared to 2.12 its crap...compared to 2.13 its like average...compared to 2.14 i dunno y so gd..but its all thanx to God...his blessings...only thru him did i manage to achieve such results...so my overall average is i think 74.66666667....not sure bout the number of 6...but at the end of the calculator thing...after the 7 and 4...there is a seven...so weird hor?...so close to getting A1!...gep papers are different from the express...so those in express..its not bad already kaes...i mean like even daniel yee...joshua rene..those smart ppl from 2.12...they didnt getp over 80% for their overall average last year...

haix..shall stop talking bout my results...and talk bout my failures!

i failed as a christian...im drifting further away...

i failed in my other stuff..art..music..piano (?)...iso!..tmr..and i didnt do anything...o man o man o man...

can acsi get to the quarters of y14s if there is one?...hm...not saying we r lousy..its juz that we're average..can we get there like what our seniors have always done?...im not so sure...the rest seem so gd...and our speakers are there..but not quite there...save for me...haix

wadever

whimsical nonsense @ 10:04 PM

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Monday, March 21, 2005

okies...let us talk...lolx...i mean lemme talk!

i wanna thank God for his wonderful blessings on me...yay!...got back my common test marks...
eng: 22/30...73 and one third % *joint top in class though its lousy compared to the rest of the classes*
lit: 30/50...60% *highest in class was only 33!..so low hor?*
chi: 40/50...80% *top in 2.14 and in 2.13!...2.12 doesnt count cuz they take higher chinese*
p. sci: 45/50...90% *top in 2.14 and in cohort is 46!*
math: 35/40...87.5% *lost to soo many ppl..and they had a bonus question too..so its actually 35/44*
hist: 29/40...72.5% *joint top in class though its not top in cohort*
l. sci: 38/60...69% *badbadbad...really bad...my worse paper..lit is ok since the class also was lousy*
geog: ??? *havent got back on monday*

not bad hor?...to me its already very pro..i feel so happy for myself...and i noe that its thru God that i manage to accomplish results like these..results that i so not expect for most...and 3 top in classes..not bad for me already...last year i was only top in class once!

In the morning
I can't stop praising your name
In the evening
I can't stop praising your name
In the morning
I can't stop praising your name
In the eveningI can't stop

hopefully i can gain a closer walk with God...prayer request...that i grow my in my walk and my faith...thanx

cheers guys =)...im not sexist...so cheers gals too! =)

whimsical nonsense @ 10:14 PM

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Friday, March 18, 2005

heyas...i watched spongebob squarepants the movie last night!...whee!...so nice....quite funny...though i dun think its as funny as the normal show...the normal show is juz that bit funnier...but still...its funny!...and nice too!

im so jealous...its like this gal i noe...she has pecs!...argh!...i soooo wanna get pecs...haix...mayb im not meant to have it...haix...sad hor?

argh..my boots are definitely ruined for the rest of my life...my left foot is soo weird its ruined my left boot!...there is like this gigantic crease that no amount of kiwi can ever cover...i already put a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot of kiwi...but still the crease is still there...and funny thing is that my right boot is different...y?...becuz my left foot...when i walk...it bends differently from my right foot..so my left boot has this stupid crease while my right doesnt...and i still cant make it shine like the rest...m i like not meant to b gd in boys brigade?

so much homework left...so little time...
bah!

oo..i went to the lim chu kang cemetery...to juz accompany my grandfather...so my grandfather..my mother and her 2 brothers...and 2 of my cousins...plsuy my granduncle..went...yeah...went better than i thought...haix...the hols r gone so fast...

haix

whimsical nonsense @ 10:29 PM

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Wednesday, March 16, 2005

whee!...anyways...i have a conscience...so ill try not to eat too much chocolate...if not i cannot achieve my goal of gold for this year's napfa...not that i can...but hopefully...i dun wanna b even fatter than i already m...nooooooooooooo

anyways...the phantom of the opera soundtrack is nice...like really nice...

1 jianbao down...1 more to go...5 book reviews and erp and crp too...haix...this hols seems to b quite bz...and dep....nooo...so dead...

played soccer todae..in the morning...used my corporate t-shirt...haha...played with other ppl..so it was uncle bernard..my piano teacher...jiahan..from my church..who came like quite late...and uncle bernards 2 other students...along with 6 ppl we dunno...so we juz play match...wah..they r like better than me..*duh!...im not gd*...i got quite a few knocks...one where i fell..either i tripped or one guy banged into me..and well...hes bigger than me so duh i fell...found out need to b more aggressive in my play...haix...how i wish i could improve..instead of being stucked at mediocre...at least got gd workout...hopefully my leg muscles can strengthen..so can reach napfa goal...

its wednesday...i sooo wanna watch spongebob squarepants the movie!

cheerios guys...gals...wadever...=)

whimsical nonsense @ 9:57 PM

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Monday, March 14, 2005

finally...watched my first movie...of 2005...i noe its very late...but what to do?...

howl's moving castle....some jap anime movie...very nice...i like calcifer...the fire demon...so cute!...lolx...its nice lah...

i got 5 new pens...or markers...i think its called zic or something like that...guess the colour that i first picked...its like this dark pinkish purple...its a nice colour...and somehow i quite like pink...its not that bad after all...but yeah..im neutral bout the colour...

y some ppl's blog i cannot go...like weizhens...yks...susannahs...hm...weird...

ive recovered from the exhaustion of the hike!...lucky me...poor warrant matthew tan...still so tired...

its the hols...like need to do homework...or im so screwed...

haix

whimsical nonsense @ 10:25 PM

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Sunday, March 13, 2005

bb hike!

so fun!...and tiring...dropped off at Police Coast Guard Lim Chu Kang Base...around 1...then we started plotting out our route...we rotated ics and 2ics...logger...pacers...and at first the first aid carrier...but later the first aid kit was forgotten...

lim chu kang...very ulu..cooked lunch at a bus stop infested with ants...flies...how to eat in peace?...then walk in the hot sun...it rained later...took out poncho...took shelter...then me, staff gwee and yi wei were scouts...go check out a road...then had to take shelter at a dump...but it was clean lah...except for the sides...the shelter was soo little cannot even put our bags down lah...so carry it...our heavy bags...but the hike was more or less ok...we hiked until this vetinary health centre...or an animal hospital big enough to b a human hospital too...so new...so nice...but nobody goes there lah...ate dinner at the end of the road...its a proper road...no wind...a bright lampost directly above us...and lots of ppl...with warrant huang kee wui too!...made dinner more interesting...dinner was nice...except ate quite a lot of luncheon meat felt sick of it after a while...

after dinner...we went into this *ahem* place...went through a fence...walked on a road where tanks might come...its in lim chu kang remember...does army ring a bell?...so yeah...tim toh and me a bit freaked out...then walk walk walk...some parts felt like got ppl in the bushes...so freaky...but later around 11+pm...we went to the main road...walk quite a distance...before taking a bus that was empty save for an indian man...then on the way another group off bb boys...not our company...boarded...so the bus was empty...coincidentally...all came out at the same stop...and we were to find out mgr...and navigate into ntu...walk through the ultra big ntu campus...so tired...like pass 12 already...walk walk walk...walk walk walk...and still walk walk walk...walking walking walking...navigating...walking walking walking...only until 2 did we manage to get to the sleeping point cuz we needed more check points and distance...then pitch tent until 2.45...then sleep...and sleeping in a tent so troublesome...and difficult...

7.30 wake up...or around there...ate only a meusli bar for breakfast...take down our tents...then like hike....so we hike from morning till 4 reach sch...all in all...from ntu...to boon lay...to lakeside...to chinese garden...to jurong east...so long...then took bus to acsi...

got sunburned...quite a nice tan...aching shoulders...and tired body...

haix

whimsical nonsense @ 10:40 PM

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Friday, March 11, 2005

more or less got over that frenship problem...though insecurites are still there...

the cruise was to me really fun...rather slack...futurescape was quite interesting...but the most momorable part...was the new level of frenship i gained with some people...for example like my roommate and now gd fren andy!...

for most of the camp...like the second and third day...majority of meetings were in andy and my cabins...our other roommates like justin low...joined his sec 1 frens...and sam teo...went arcade...so andy and me...then joel...adwyn..juzzie...will almost confirm come...which i not only dun mind but like..cuz all 3 of them r really nice...then govind...and basil...sometimes...mark and teik siang and ian sometimes too...but the main one i think is
andy...me...joel...adwyn...juzzie...govind...basil...ian...

very fun...all of us in one cabin...sitting on the beds...lying down...and plugging in either andy's or joels mp3 player...occasionally my discman...cuz of this particularly nice disc...yeah...so anyways..with andys audio-video cable...plugged into the tv...we can listen to songs!...and obviously we listened like a lot of songs...and juz talk..talk...talk...and on thursday night...i discovered how to achieve the right ambience!...switching off all the lights on the ceiling of the cabin...leaving the mirror lights on...plus those at the bed pointed up...ambience!...it was so cool...lolx

well...but i would say the most memorable part of the cruise...all the lights in my bunk was off saved for the two at the mirror...then andy who slept in the top bed...and me below...talked...sam teo and justin slept...around 1...before that justin...andy and me juz talked while sam teo played gameboy...so andy and i juz talked bout like relationships...and about each other's current emotional life...before that...andy already told me some stuff...which shall remain strictly confidential cuz im not gonna betray his trust in me...we played andy's mp3...with songs like if i aint got u...basically slow songs...like the reason...100 years...superman...and talked...that part was really memorable...there is this meaningfulness to it...but cant explain fully...so we talked...cuz didnt feel like sleeping...only like around 2.15am...we started feeling tired...2.30am we or more like me slept..then andy also slept shortly after me...woke up 7.48am...so late!

anyways...watched a show at lido cuz it was highly advisable to...left halfway...went to top deck...felt the wind...then went to juzzies room...and like juz listen to music and talk...then andy and me go back our bunk...and the above paragraph says what happened on the last night...

so cool...the cruise was super cool...missing it...
thanx to andy my wonderful roommate and new found gd fren...
joel...adwyn..and juzzie for ur wonderful company...it made this cruise more memorable...

whimsical nonsense @ 10:28 PM

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Wednesday, March 09, 2005

ah...before i leave...lemme explain a bit clearer what i meant...cuz some ppl...*looks at weizhen*...didnt get it...but its not ur fault lah...didnt say clearly...so anyways...and my tagboard isnt working...anymore...

there are 3 ppl...A...B...and C...so i was juz thinking before i went to sleep...the scenario is as followed...one night...like around 9pm...i go online...and three of them are online...which is rare...and even more rare...all three are not busy...i get invited into a convo where 3 of them are...and then A and B said they think im weird...i asked y and they said that i have asked the same question to each one of them...as in A...B and C...and to some ive asked more than once..so like yeah...i asked them wats wrong...and they said that they find me weird cuz i asked that question...which btw displays my insecurity of frenship...but somehow C is quiet throughout the convo that has passed thus far...so...i started telling A and B y i asked them those questions...and what it seems to me...it seems that i m a stranger to them...saying hi...and they respond...giving me the impression...that im their fren...

after explaining...i realised it didnt do anything...didnt change anything...A and B asked me to change...not to b so insecure bout that again...i told them i cant...its part of me...and its really hard not to b insecure...but they said it makes me weird...and then i realised...that they cant accept me for who i m...so i decided to...*shant say again*...then i left...and then C calls...and then like start asking me what happened...although C saw the whole convo...then *the remaining things shall not b disclosed...though its nothing like private...but i juz wanna keep it to myself...kaes?*

the next time i see B...A and C happened to b present...B comes over...and says hi...i respond...and then B asked a question...i didnt feel like answering...but C came...and happened to hear the question B asked...and answered it...which was the same answer i had in my head...except of course not word for word...and it was at this point that i stopped...and a few questions crept into my head...

shud i treasure frenship that much?...is it gd to have insecurities about that?
is it too late to salvage a frenship thats barely existed...and most probably lost?
is it worth it to care bout frens that much?

whimsical nonsense @ 3:20 PM

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Tuesday, March 08, 2005

hey..how come my tagboard working?...and others doesnt seem to b working...hm...

my knees are recovering!...seems better...i feel i can play soccer...but no way man...dun wanna jeopardise my recovery for 2.4...muz get better for 2.4...hopefully i can take shang rong strides..which is sooo beyond me!...so nvm...scrap that thought...

im going to a cruise tmr!...but need to work on futurescape...so yeah...and need to work on dep...and lots of dunno what homework...i have no file...so no erp and crp stuff...dunno what to do...i'll go ask somebody lah...so bz...dunno what to do...juz wanna slack...

last night i was thinking...and i was juz thinking of events that will never happen...involving a certain group of ppl...more specifically a group of 3...if events do happen the way i thought it would happen...which i stress is most likely not likely to happen...so lets go back to those 3 ppl...yeah..and the events...i realised that those 3 ppl can make me cry...or at least make me shed some tears...cuz juz thinking about those events..if they really did happened...i felt like tears were starting to come...but they didnt of course...but i only felt that way the first time i thought of it...when i started to make up those events...second didnt...third i doubt so...dunno who cares what could make me cry...but ill still say that its related to frenships...whether ppl consider me as their fren...when i consider them mine...and is it too late to salvage a frenship when its lost?...if that scenario does happen...would that person even wanna salvage a frenship...that barely existed...even if it did...a frenship with me...m i a gd fren?...

such doubts creep into my head at night
the sun rays doesnt help shed light
shud frenship still b treasured by me?
or m i overdoing it?

is it worth it to cry over frens
who doesnt seem to treat u as one

whimsical nonsense @ 10:43 PM

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Sunday, March 06, 2005

ah...my knees are better!...recovering...and tmr no sch!...thanx to those who tagged...whether ur really concerned or not..i dunno...but thanx...

juz realised i like those love shows a lot...i like keeping the faith...found it soooo sooo sweet!...and like moulin rouge...the show is also very like sad...if i was in a cinema...mayb i cry...mayb...those shows bout like one guy and one gal who meets problems..obstacles..but eventually gets back together is cliche..wadever...but its still really sweet...aw...

one more week of sch everyone...

jia you! =)

whimsical nonsense @ 10:49 PM

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Saturday, March 05, 2005

haix....got tripped by edward bingei...i think thats how u spell his surname...and no...its not his fault....accidental...everyone was carrying lots of stuff...like hm...a basha pole?...he came near me...my feet wanted to get a closer look to the basha pole and caused my knees to get up close and personal with the road..with my left palm too...haix...mr kwan was very nice...helping me put first aid...then the dressing...didnt do drill...sad right?...drill is quite fun...but not when my glasses keeps fallin down cuz of sweat...but anyways...its still fun...

dun feel like going tuition...have to walk like soooo long...about 10 mins walk to the MRT station...take mrt there...and then walk about 5 mins to the tuition place...with my knees...walking seems harder...like a burden...stairs are worse...haix...

no file...no drill...tuition...wounds...is today supposed to b like that?

btw...after bb...i went mg withmy father and elder sis...took my younger sis home...but looked around...saw some books i didnt mind buying...like the importance of being earnest...didnt see anyone i noe...except saniah...and some ppl from cfg...anyway...gtg now

cheers =)

whimsical nonsense @ 3:34 PM

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Thursday, March 03, 2005

aiyoh...jg round three brought forward...to next friday!...ah!
coming back from the gep camp cruise...dismissed at cruise centre at 1430...have to b at acjc by 1600...dunno whether i can make it...

at least common test ended todae!...but it was a bad day...didnt manage to finish chinese paper!...ah!...the li jie wen da so hard to understand...and i spent like 10 mins reading it cuz i was falling asleep!..the worst possible thing that could happen...left one question unanswered...4 marks gone...the rest all guess...haix...then next was geog...paper seemed easy...but didnt manage to finish again!...didnt noe question 9...the mcq one..i skipped it...and had no time to go back...1 mark gone...the last question...12 (b)(iv)...or was it (iii)....hm...dunno...didnt manage to finish...was about to write "so i agree that it is difficult to strike a balance between feasibility and environmentalism"...or something like that...wrote so i agree and time was up..so i put a fullstop...the start of a new paragraph some more...and juz three words...so i agree...so awkward...

u noe sam cheams blog?...the one about him being a bad example of someone like samuel...i feel exactly the same...i feel im more like eli's sons right now...not samuel...yeah...would more or less request the same thing...that i walk closer to god...juz like samuel did...juz pray that i walk closer to him...and have a stronger threshold for temptation..*is threshold spelled and used correctly?*....

still no general file...

...haix

whimsical nonsense @ 10:18 PM

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Wednesday, March 02, 2005

argh...still cant find that music thing in my template...someone help me can?

life science and history test so difficult...life science especially...so gonna fail...
no general file yet...almost one week...still no one wanna return...haix
tmr last day of common test...getting a bit into holiday mood
next week gonna go on cruise!

haha...life seems to b going up...though i seem to b drifting further away from God...i rather life b down but yet have a more intimate relationship with him...

monday is a sch hol...yay!...hopefully can use my time wisely...mayb like start on my case for dep...hopefully i get in...

cheers =)

whimsical nonsense @ 10:22 PM

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Tuesday, March 01, 2005

yay!...i managed to solve the chinese problem..its my com...haix...english never looked so gd...

haix..indoor stadium seemed a bit seally!...haha..i meant silly...cuz juz sing songs that no one sang...at least it wasnt audible...then the games was stupid...see ppl get awards...gd for them...see mr tharman give his speech...so stupid go all the way to the indoor stadium juz to sit there and stone...quite boring...but at least no sch...and it happens once in four years...i think...

still no file...common test resume tmr...trying to get timeouts...noooo...and y did lisabelle link me as LS?...cuz lloyd suggested it!...go ask either one for the meaning...if u even wanna noe...

anyways...gtg...hope tmrs common test go on well for me...

cheers =)

whimsical nonsense @ 11:00 PM

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